Every so often I found myself watching her, the smile dazzling on her face. Even before he was around, I always had thought it looked that way. I could only wish that I was the reason it was there, but there were two more important reasons in her life, and that was all she could see.
If I loved her so much, why couldn't I stand her being happy like this? We weren't imprinted, and it shouldn't be feeling this fucking hard to let go. I already had, when she did. What's the point of sticking around when there was nothing to wait for? I was always the one waiting for something, and it felt like it would always be that same way.
Then she turns to me, and I feel a tiny hitch in my breathing, that's one thing that hadn't changed, either..
"Jacob."
My name sounds like it doesn't deserve to be spoken by that beautiful mouth. My best friend comes towards me, and then it feels like it's just me and her again, like before. And frozen in this moment, that's all I want, and we fade from everyone else. She takes my hand and leads me to her, and I hug her carefully. I've learned that I have to be gentle with her, I don't want to break any part of her, even if she's not mine to break or protect anymore.
It seems amazing that I could have felt so many things for one person, and to have those feelings remained unreturned keeps me incomplete, like I gave them away for free, and now I'm left without something vital.
Suddenly, a small hand is tugging at my shirt, and I find myself looking down at her, bringing me back to reality. Just the look of her pulls up the corners of my mouth, lifting the weight off my heart if just for a second. A small face fills up the space that Bells took with her, it's a new feeling sure, but it feels right all the same.
If Bella's a part of her, and Nessie's a part of me, then everything's bound to be alright, I tell myself this, and for once I believe it.
This delicate miracle smiles up at me, and I know I was wrong. There was always a reason for me to stay.