"You're….leaving….me….Edward?" The words in that order sounded odd. Why was he leaving?! So Laurent almost killed me. Big deal. Edward saved me from another deadly vampire. I thanked him so many times. He said that he's sick of saving me. Just yesterday he said he loved it! There is something else in the way. I know my boyfriend.
"Yes Bella. I'll make you a promise to you. I swear, I'll erase every part of me you ever knew. Every memory of me will be gone, physically. I can't erase your mind, but I can erase objects. It will be as if I never existed. You can just go on living a normal life, with no vampires."
"My life is never normal Edward! I love you. Don't leave me." My voice cracked at the end. His musical voice also broke at the end of his last sentence. Was he seriously doing this shit?! I almost got killed, again. So? I looked at my broken arm and I gingerly rubbed the bandage on my neck, where Laurent bit me. The white bandage was still covered in blood, even though the incident happened two days ago.
"Goodbye Bella." He kissed my forehead. Tears rolled down my face. I didn't know what to say, so I just yelled out a bunch of shit. I grabbed his shirt as he walked away so he was facing me, even though his head was down.
"You're not going anywhere! You can't leave me! We can't be apart! No way in hell can you leave! I..I..I..need you! I love you! God damn it Edward! Please don't leave me! Please!" I didn't think. I grabbed his face, and kissed him. He didn't kiss back, and he pulled away abruptly.
"Bella, when are you going to understand I don't love you anymore?" He ripped my hands off his shirt and walked away with a confused face. He didn't look back at me as he ran. I just stood there, like spaghetti noodles. Limp. All of a sudden, I collapsed. My mind went black and I saw nothing. All I felt was his absence. I could think though. All I thought though, was he's gone.
I awoke on the couch, with Charlie, and Jacob hovering over me.
"Bella!" Charlie shouted as his arms wrapped around me. I hugged him back, not knowing what else to do.
"Hi dad. Jacob." I stood up and walked to the kitchen. My throat was dry. "How long have I been out?" I realized the fridge smelled like rotten meat and spoiled milk. I made a twisted face as Jacob spoke. His husky voice was nothing like the musical, sweet voice I half expected to hear.
"Two days Bells. I found you in the woods passed out like you were drunk. I know you weren't drunk though because you didn't smell like alcohol." He smiled and I tried to, but I was too depressed.
I wasn't drunk that's for sure I thought to myself I need to get drunk though. Charlie put his hand on my back as I chugged an ice cold glass of water.
"You should go back to bed Bells."
"No dad. I'm fine." I said this through tight teeth.
" The doctor told me the Cullen's left when he came by and- "
"You know what dad, maybe I should go back to bed." I didn't say anything more as I ran upstairs.
For hours, I lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling only thinking one thing: he's gone. I got up after six hours of staring at my ceiling and went the bathroom because I had to pee.
As I was walking to the bathroom, I was wishing that I was a vampire for three reasons.
1.) I wouldn't have to deal with stupid human needs like peeing or eating.
2.) I could have moved with Edward, and I wouldn't be depressed and living in my personal hell.
3.) I could get away and be with Edward forever.
I looked at myself in the mirror and make a disgusted noise that sounded like I was gagging. I looked horrible! My hair was knotted and my face was paler than ever! My lips were dry and cracked and my eyes were wide and lost. My whole body was lost.
I slumped back to my room. I slammed my door and pressed play on my CD player. I was surprised not to hear Edward's piano music. I was positive that was the last CD I had in there. I ran to my player and opened the top.
It was empty.
I walked to my dresser and picked up my picture frame my mom gave me. The picture of Edward was gone. I looked at my camera I bought with my birthday money. All the pictures of the Cullen's were gone. What the hell is going on?! I thought back to when he left hard, even though it pained me to.
"Yes Bella. I'll make you a promise to you. I swear, I'll erase every part of me you ever knew. Every memory of me will be gone, physically. I can't erase your mind, but I can erase objects. It will be as if I never existed. You can just go on living a normal life, with no vampires."
He took everything. Every memory of him, is gone. Edward's gone. He is really gone.
I must have fell asleep, because I was awoken with the shake of rough, warm hands. I sat up. "Jacob?"
"Hey Bells. Come with me." He grabbed my hand and towed me downstairs. He took us and stood us in front of Charlie. "Charlie, can I take Bella out to dinner? She must be starving."
"Sure Jake. Stay out as long as you want." Charlie smiled. Jake ran me outside. I tried to protest, but I couldn't find my voice. We got in his Rabbit car and he drove fast.
"You like it? I just finished it." I just smiled. He frowned and kissed my cheek.
I looked at him confused. "What the fuck do you think you're doing Jacob Black?! Kissing me?!" His eyes got wide as he slowed down.
"Bells, chill. I was just comforting you. I'm not taking you out to dinner." I cocked an eyebrow at him. He chuckled lightly, his husky voice made it seem deep and hard. "I'm taking you to a bar, to show you some fun."
"Jacob, we're underage! We can't!"
"Relax Bella. I can pass for 21. After all, I've grown a lot since you last saw me." He was right. His biceps were huge and his tight shirt pressed against his abs, like his. He seemed taller. I didn't really study him until now. He had dark black eyes and he cut his hair so it's short and cropped. His jaw was pushed out a little far and his nose as small and slender. His face was cute, but no where near the magnificence of Edwa- him.
The drive to the bar wasn't too long, about 45 minutes. We drove into downtown Seattle. Jake gave me a fake ID and the picture of me looked brand new. Where the hell did he get a picture-my camera. Sneaky bastard.
I can't believe we're going to get into a bar! This feels so wrong! Jake might be right. My depression needs some easing. We got out of the car and we walked inside. Jacob held up two fingers while the bartender asked for Ids. We showed them to him as he ran to get our drinks. I looked at the clock. 8pm. Just on drink. I thought. just one.
Jacob handed me a shot glass and I chugged it and made an ahh sound afterwards.
"Hit me again," Jacob said. He handed me another shot. I pushed it away. He frowned. "Oh come on Bella! Live a little!"
"No Jake. I only told myself one. No."
"Bulk! Bulk! Bulk! Chicken!" I looked at him like a sassy bitch.
"Excuse me? Bella Swan is not chicken!" I stood up on the bar and chugged it. Random strangers hooted and hollered at me as I jumped down. Jacob gave me a high-five as I asked for another, but bigger.
The next thing I know, I was dancing in my skinny jeans, some stripper's shoes I stole from this girl, and in my bra. Jacob was shirtless and dancing in jeans and a cowboy hat. We were singing Like a Virgin by Madonna on the top of bar. We were laughing and way off key. We jumped off the bar and I ran to the bathroom. Jacob ran after me.
I bent over the toilet and puked. Being drunk does have it's disadvantages. Jacob ran in holding my hair.
"Damn Bella! You kicked ass!" I came up and ran to the sink to rinse my mouth. "Are you okay?" I hooted as I wiped my hands. Jacob laughed. "You've never been drunk before have you?"
I ran to him and pushed him against the wall. "Nope! I love it though! We should do this again Edward!" My mind was a blur. I looked at Edward straight in the eyes. "You're back! Why the fuck did you leave me? I love you! You little bastard! Kiss me God damn it!" I pressed my lips to Edward's. He pulled away just like in the forest.
"Bella!" He yelled. It wasn't Edward's voice at all. It was husky and deep, not musical and soft.
"Jacob! Why are you in Edward's body?!" I backed up. Things were getting really weird. I looked at Jacob, where Edward once stood two seconds ago.
"Bella, calm down. Edward was never here." I ran to him.
"Yes he was Jacob Black! You hate the Cullens so much you get rid of him! You killed my boyfriend! He's a vampire! How did you know how to kill a vampire?! Are you one? No! You can't be! God damn it Jacob Black!" I slapped him across the face. He just stood there still as I breathed in slowly.
"I need to be with Edward!" I ran outside of the bathroom and into the bar. Everything was blurry. I turned around to see Jacob walking towards me, cautiously.
"Bella, it's okay. Calm down. Let's go home." I was going to be stubborn.
"No! Not until Edward's with me!" I ran to the door, but Jacob was faster. The smell of smoke and alcohol filled the air. I got dizzy. Jacob caught me as I almost fell to the floor. He stood me up and I walked to the door. The door swung open and I fell to the ground. On the way, I hit a tall, metal table. My eyes snapped shut as I heard footsteps run towards me.