Miles apart
Rating: T
Chapter: 1
Disclaimer: GG belongs to ASP.. Songs (in italics) belongs to Yellowcard... Angels cry is song by finnish May I Cry (small band) and How Can I miss you is song by Hanna Pakarinen (BMG Finland).
A/N: Listening Yellowcard was my source of inspiration... AU! This contains lots and lots of lyrics... Dunno if that makes this a songfic... lol.. R&R! Lit!
Rory was sitting in her office room. Last year she graduated from Yale and got a job from The New York Times. It had been over 5 years that she'd seen Jess. He hadn't even come to his mothers, Liz's, and stepdads, TJ's, wedding. She had been dating few guys, but nothing serious. Dean had taken her virginity, and Logan had just been no strings-attached thing. She wasn't seeing anyone at the moment. She heard a knock on her door and went to open the door. Delivery man was standing next to her and he had a small packet in his hands.
"Are you Rory Gilmore?"
"Yes I am."
"This is for you. Sign please" said the delivery man and Rory signed the paper. Man offered the packet to Rory and left. Rory walked to her room and sat down. Slowly she opened the packet, she hadn't ordered anything and there wasn't noclue of the sender. A cd, a small envelope and a note. She noticed the handwriting immediately, she had read words written by that handwriting so many times.
Rory,
I know you're thinking right now the reason why I'm writing this to you. Please just listen the cd. And then read the envelope. I don't know if you have hear the band Blue eyes before, but well that's our first album. It's going to be out in four weeks. I just thought to send that to you before it's out.
Love, Jess
Rory looked at the cd for a while. She opened the covers and took the songlyrics book to her hands. She was in awe, since she noticed Jess had written lyrics to four songs himself and co-written two of the ten song in the album. There were dedication under the four Jess-written songs.. to blue eye, my love... Rory wondered who was his blue eye. Yes she had blue eyes, but no way after five years he couldn't be thinking about her anymore. Though she thought Jess every now and then.. Rory put the cd to her player and clicked to the first song Jess had written. One Year, Six months. Rory listened to the words in silence.
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you, things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
I'm falling into memories of you ,things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you ,things we used to do.
Could Jess written this to her, rory thought. She heard knock on the door and clicked pause. Rory's assistant Hannah opened the door.
"Do you need me anymore today? I mean it's seven all ready"
"No no.. go ahead. I'll be heading home soon as well."
After Hannah had closed the door, Rory clicked play from her player. Next song was Miles apart.
If I could I would do all of this again
Travel back in time with you to where this all began
We could hide inside ourselves and leave the world behind
And make believe there's something left to find
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
Now we've all grown up, gone on and moved away
Nothing I can do about it, nothing I can say
To bring us back to where we were when life was not this hard
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up for just one more day
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
Give it up, give it all away
I'd give it up for just one more day with you
We'll be miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
A new life to start
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
Could it be that Jess really had written the song thinking Rory. That was the thing what Rory thought while listening next song called Back home.
Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years
Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it
Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky
Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it
Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine
Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here
Another starry night in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it
There was only one song left from those that Jess had written. Maybe it would give the answer she thought as she clicked track 7 Only one.
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
(Chorus)
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
(Interlude)
Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only one
My only one(x3)
You are my only my only one!
She flipped the lyrics book to the page where thank you's stood.
Jess wants to thank:
Blue eye, you're my love. I'm sorry for leaving.
Luke, I let you down, I'm sorry.
Liz, TJ – in some strange way i love you
Jimmy, Sasha, Lily- without you i wouldn't be here
Taylor – just thanks for being such a jerk
Dean - whatta hell am I thanking you for!
She started to cry and laugh at the same time. Jess really had missed her. Rory didn't even know if Jess knew that Luke and Lorelai had gotten married. But why in hell had he thanked Taylor and Dean.. well the irony..
As the two other songs, Angels Cry and How can I miss you played on the background Rory opened the envelope and took the letter out.
Hey Blue eye,
Yes it is you. I love you.
I know it has been five years since we've met, but I still think about you every day. I met Petteri and Marko here in California, they're two Finnish guys and hell they can play guitars. We were just chatting about music in UCLA campus and we decided to start a band. It took a while, well almost fours years, to get a recording deal and then we've been in studio and playing gigs. But everyday I'm regretting the decision that I made, leaving you there, not saying goodbye. I got your address from Luke. I called him last week and we talked things thru. We're having a concert there in NY next month, and I really want to see you. I'll be waiting for you in the cd-store where we when you visited me years back. I'll be there next wednesday around 6pm. I really hope to see you there. But if you don't, i just have to understand it then. There's two tickets to our concert as well in the envelope. I send tickets to Luke and Lorelai as well. Use the other one in a way you want, if you have a boyfriend took him with or take Lane or something.
Love you.
Jess.
She was in tears now, taking her bag and dialing her mothers number to her phone she left the building.
"Mom. I'm coming over."
A/N: I though i'd made this only a oneparter.. but well since i drove a car crash yesterday i think i'm going to leave it here. Another chapter coming soon, if you think i should write one.. so please Review (you can do that by clicking that GO button :D )