A Dream For the Future
Holding on to reality,
Barely by a thread.
Watch way too much anime,
So many fantasies now in my head.
Wanting to let go,
Release from this prison.
Wanting to get away,
Being tortured by the exact reason.
Maybe life will take a turn,
Maybe someday it'll be good.
I might actually find someone I like,
Or maybe sit in a car with a nice looking hood.
But will this ever happen,
This farfetched fantasy of mine?
There's a slight chance,
If I figure out how to use this thing called a mind.
Right now I'm board,
Dreaming again for the millionth time.
Hoping the gates of fortune,
Are traveling nearer to my place in line.
Dreaming of a house,
Dreaming of a wife.
Dreaming of a pleasant marriage,
One with no strife.
But there I go again,
Dreaming on and on.
I've got to break this habit,
I've got to move on.
I'm going to the counselors,
I'm going to the shrink.
Maybe they can show me,
That my life really doesn't stink.
I've got a mom,
I've got a dad.
They're both still alive,
And that makes me glad.
I've got what I need,
What'll get me through.
I've got my toys,
Both old and new.
But most of all, I've got memories.
That's what really matters.
Remembering the times with friends.
The loves, the hates, the laughters.
But in the end, I've got it all.
All the rest is junk.
What did it really matter,
If I dressed prep, goth, or punk
I'll go on living,
Thinking up fantasies every now and then.
And as I see myself dreaming again, I'll say,
"I used to think that this might happen, just that I was ten."