Chapter One

You would think that a normal person would be somewhat shocked or surprised when something like finding out vampires and werewolves exist then dealing with the fact that your boyfriend is a vampire and so are his family. Then you have to deal with the fact that your best friend, who is in love with you, is a werewolf. Normal, sane people would be like 'what the fuck?!' However I am not normal nor do I think I am sane.

Then there is that fact that your vampire sweetheart leaves you. Edward Cullen broke my heart, he left me damaged and bleeding. I can just remember that night then that following three… it was hell in a nutshell—a very big nutshell I might add.

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He looked weird, upset. His golden eyes were like cold hard glittering bricks of gold. He was acting indifferent and I felt something bad coming… Edward took my hand and led me into the forest, we didn't go very deep, I could still see my house from where we stood on the trail.

"Bella, we're leaving.." He said coldly, he let go of my hand and I started shaking. Somehow I'm sure he meant his family and him... not including me… he was leaving me..?

"You're leaving me..?" The words sounded so weird in my mouth... they tasted wrong… they felt wrong. I couldn't let myself believe what was happening.

"Yes." His answer was short and cold, like a hard slap in the face, I recoiled as if he had. Tears sprung up into my eyes, I wiped them away quickly so he didn't see them but I'm sure his quick eyes saw them. As soon as they did his eyes melted, he looked as if he was going to say something but he walked away. I followed him. He turned around and grabbed my arms fiercely.

"No stay. You cannot come with me, were not right for each other. Your human and I am a vampire and every second I'm fighting to not kill you. I can't pretend to be something that I'm not." Every word he said cut through me like a knife, deeper and deeper. I dint want to believe them, I couldn't… it just didn't make sense.

"All those times you told me you loved me… what that all lies? Do you not love me?" I flinched at my own words. Tears streamed down my face and I couldn't stop them.

"It wasn't a lie, I just thought I did and I don't. I'm so sorry but this is how it has to be. We can't be together, it's not right, it's not natural. You should be with someone who can give what u want."

"You can give me what I want, because all I want is you." He was already shaking his head before I was finished.

"You don't understand... I don't love you anymore." His eyes were hard as he walked away and left me to my worst nightmare.

The pain was like… something I've never experienced before… it was a bewildering kind of pain. At first it just felt like there was fire in my veins and it was slowly charring everything inside my body. Then it changed and it was intensified… the pain was more of a open flame covering my whole body. I could feel my body changing however I thought that when it was all done I would be black and falling to ashes, but no. I came out beautiful and strong and fast… just like Ed—I stopped mid thought. There was what felt like a gaping hole in my chest. Ripping open with every thought I had about him, and his family. This was something I also have never felt before; it was an agony that felt soul deep.

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