Seeing all of the bashing that Thomas has gone through in different fanfiction over time, I thought it was only right to make something to stop and make you wonder if he really is as daft as he'd appears to be, to certain people. I don't own zoids, I most certainly don't own the characters either. Please read and enjoy.
I know what everyone has been saying about me, it's kind of hard not to. The others think that I'm a hopeless case and that I don't even see what's going on. They obviously don't know me very well, they don't want to. As far as I can tell, they value my ability with machines. But as for me being another human being, I'm looked down upon. I admit, I have been teased for various things all of my life. It was always something, and this last bit has merely been another segment of it. It's a rarity that I am given credit for my work, or at least most people tend to thank Beek before me. Even when I am credited for something I have done, Van and the others find some reason to yell at me or degrade me in some form or fashion shortly after that.
The main thing that seems to be the brunt of my teasing are my feelings for Miss Fiona. It was honestly love at first sight. Those beautiful, magenta eyes, and the golden hair, she was obviously a pure soul, an angel in looks and manner. And for the most part, I have never been disappointed in that observation. No, unlike what others thought, it didn't take me long to figure out that Van at least had feelings for Miss Fiona. That's something that made us rivals for a while, even if we did get along all right when it counted. What people have failed to realize is, that I didn't only figure that out. Over time, I began to somewhere see that Miss Fiona was ignoring me, but not enough to be rude. She wouldn't let herself act like that, even when I was rude to Van.
It was by the time that I had met Rudolph and Marianne for the first time, that I finally began to consciously tell myself that she didn't care. No one would just flat out ignore you when you're confessing. Looking back, I took her silence for hope that I could possibly make her see how much I cared. Though, I suppose in reality she pretended to ignore me because she didn't want to tell me to bug off, she never was the kind of person to hurt someone like that. So, instead, I never gave up even if I knew deep down that it was a losing battle, it was the only true hope I had. The Guardian Force never truly accepted me until towards the end. However, that was also when Irvine, thinking that I was too dense to see it, tactlessly told me that Miss Fiona loved Van, not me. It was old news by then, but I still loved her. Even with all that had happened to me, all of the verbal abuse and neglect, I still cared.
Didn't they know that you just couldn't chooseif you wanted to love someone or not? Irvine's comment didn't change how I felt about her, and I don't know that if Miss Fiona herself told me the same that I would change entirely. Her silence had done more damage than had she refused me out loud at the beginning. No, I'm not going to stalk her like some people may think. Actually, even though I feel uplifted and excited when I'm around her, I long ago stepped down to let Van have her, as he should I suppose. Still, my feelings do remain, and that is what everyone finds so hilarious, so easy to point and shoot an arrow at me. I will hopefully get rid of the monster inside me one day, but until then, I can only watch from the sidelines, and hope that Miss Fiona leads a happy life...
And so it goes. Please review