Missing by BellaAlice4E!

Chapter One

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Twilight or any of its characters. Those belong to Stephenie Meyer. I only use them to entertain myself and those who read my fanfic.

Bella fell in love with Alice but was with Edward and never admitted it to herself. Then Edward and the Cullen's left. All Bella thought about was Alice. Then Edward returned to tell Bella Alice was gone, no one knew where she was. How does this affect Bella? No this isn't a one shot. Just give me time to write more. R/R please!

BPOV

What's so special about her? Why is she always in my dreams? Why can't I think about anyone else but her? She left me. Shouldn't she leave me alone now? She chose to walk away. Why does she still haunt my nights? Why do I miss her so much? Why'd she leave me?

All day long that's all I think since Alice left. Why does it hurt so much? I barely knew her. I was dating her egotistical brother. What is wrong with me? Shouldn't I be missing him? He left and took them all with him.

"Hey Bella, what are you doing? The bell rang like ten minutes ago. Don't you want to go home?" Mike yelled to me, saving me from my thoughts.

"Nothing Mike, sorry, was just thinking." I replied. I was dreading going home. To my room, to where all my memories of him were. And yet I don't dread it for those reasons anymore. My memories of her are also there.

I get up and collect my books. This is my senior year and I'm going to make the most of it. Even if I have to go it solo. At least I know I will get my work done with no interruptions. I head to my locker and exchange my books for my homework and turn to leave. That's when it hit me; there was a paper in my locker. I turn back around and open it again. There, stuck in the little opening, was a piece of paper. I pull it out and close my locker door again. I walk down the hall and out to my truck before I even think of looking at the note. I sit in the driver seat debating on reading it. I already know who it's from, and it's not who I wanted to hear from. I open it and read it.

Bella, I know I don't have the right to write this but here goes. I miss you. I never should have left. I know you probably want nothing to do with me but please can we talk? If you agree to this then meet me at our spot. You know where, so if you're there after school then we can talk. If not then I'm sorry I ruined your life and I will always love you. Til we meet again, Edward.

I crumble it up and throw it on the floor of my truck. How dare he even think I want to talk to him? How dare he tell me he will always love me? Didn't he show me otherwise when he left? I put the key in the ignition and start the beast of a truck my father gave me. I pull out of the school parking lot and head home. After I dry the tears from my eyes I notice that I'm heading for the meadow that was 'our' place. I guess a part of me is curious what he wants to talk about. I tell myself that that is the only reason I am heading this was.

I pull off a trail and stop the truck. I lock the cab and walk to the clearing. There sitting with his back to me is Edward. I barely make a sound but he hears me anyways. I walk up behind him as he's turning around. He is still so beautiful. I see that he's sad and it's actually showing on his immaculate face. There's new lines there I haven't ever seen before. If he slept I'd say he hadn't slept in a long time by the look of his eyes. All of this actually tugged at my heart and I wanted to collect him in my arms and hold him and never let go again. I kept my arms at my sides though.

"What was so important that it brought you back to Forks after you said that 'it will be as if I'd never existed'?" I asked angrily.

"I never should have said that or taken all your things. Though I really didn't, you still have them all. I am sorry for that." He said sadly.

"If you didn't take them then where are they?"

"Under one of your floorboards under your bed, I couldn't take them Bella. This isn't what I wanted. I never wanted to hurt you."

"But you did. You hurt me worse by taking away the one thing I loved more than anything in the world." I wasn't sure if I was referring to him or her though.

"And I can never take back that pain, I know that now. I just needed to see you. I'm sorry for coming back."

"Don't you dare leave again! Don't you DARE do that to me again! Did you return alone or are all the Cullen's and Hale's here too?" I looked into his eyes and saw my answer. Only he returned. She was gone. I would never get her back.

"Do you know that you all have turned my life upside down? You all sweep in and make it a magical existence and then you disappear with no trace of any of it. It was really like you never existed. Except for all my memories, you couldn't take those from me. Those are mine. Now if you don't mind, I have things I need to do. Unless there's something else you wanted to discuss." I said as I started back to my truck. I didn't want him to see the pain they had caused me by leaving. I didn't want to explain to him that even though I had loved him I missed her more!

"Wait. There is one more thing I needed to talk to you about. Alice is gone."

I stopped dead in my tracks. I thought about what he had just said. Alice was gone. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes even before I turned around to look at him.

"What do you mean she's gone?" I asked as my lip quivered.

"We don't know where she's gone to. Three weeks ago she just left and never returned. We waited to see if she would. That is why I'm here mainly. I came to see if she came back here. She kept saying that she should never have left you. Hell, she acted as if you and she were in love and not you and me. She would walk around the house depressed…" he looked at me "looking just like you are right now." He said when he REALLY looked at me.

My Alice was gone. No one knew where she was. Where would she go? Why didn't she come back here to me? Alice, where are you? I looked down at my feet and tried to hide the tears that were threatening to stream down my cheeks.

"Bella, what is going on?" he asked curiously.

"I haven't seen her. She never came back here. None of you did until today. Why can't you leave me alone? If all you want to do is keep torturing me then keep coming around. She never came back to me." I said as I turned to run back to my truck. As I was running I tripped over a stone and went flying to finally land on my face inches from my bumper. I just lay there, not wanting to move. I knew he was behind me the whole time. He could have overcome me anytime but chose not to. He knelt down on one knee and offered his hand to help me up. I just shook my head and cried into the grass.

"You love her don't you?" he asked as he got up, his voice cracking noticeably. "When did this happen?"

I just shrugged and finally reached up to my bumper to help myself up. I wiped the tears and dirt from my face. He just watched me. I walked around him and opened my door to get into my truck.

"Bella, how long have you felt like this? How long ago did you fall out of love with me?"

"Don't Edward, you really don't want to know." I said as I started the truck. I put it in reverse and flinging dirt I pulled away from him. I watched him shrink as I threw it into drive and tore out of there. In the rearview mirror my dad installed I watched him bow his head and shake it. I think he figured it out. I drove home.

I parked in the driveway and climbed out of the truck. I slammed the door and ran to the house, with tears streaming down my cheeks again. I shoved the door open and without stopping I ran upstairs to my room. I opened my door and threw myself on my bed and cried into my pillow once again. She was gone and no one knew where she went or where to look to find her. Again my heart was torn apart. Why did he have to come back and tell me that? I was just starting to get on with my pitiful existence and now I'm worried about her and if she's ok.

"Alice, I know you can see the future, I know you can see what I decide to do after I decide to do it. Why can't you see how much pain I'm in over you? How come you don't know how much I love you? Why didn't you come back here? Why didn't you come back to me? Why did you leave in the first place?" I yelled into my pillow. I just lay there crying knowing too well that she must not be watching me anymore. That would be the only reason she wouldn't know how I felt about her. She must have stopped the moment she left. I am alone. I will always be alone. I lost her. I loved her and never told her and now I've lost her.

I'm sorry Alice…I've always loved you and I'm sorry I never told you...

No this isn't a one shot. Like I said, please be patient with me ok? Thanks

BellaAlice4E!