Hey everyne I know, I know! "Stop doing more stories!" But I can't help it! When I get an idea I just have to write it. Anyways, I just wanting to experiment with this. I normally don'twrite in this format but I think for this story it gives the plot mor meaning. Oh and a spoiler alert! In the bggining you might see some lines form the manga. (I took the liberty to italize them for you guys!) I was listing to Happy by Leona Lewis when I was writing this. (SUCH a song!) And if you don't know the meaning of the song then you should becuase it plays in with the story. Anyway enough of me babbling. Enjoy!
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"Love, unrequited, robs me of my rest:
Love, hopeless love, my ardent soul encumbers:
Love, nightmare-like, lies heavy on my chest,
And weaves itself into my midnight slumbers!"
William S. Gilbert
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The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
She was crying again.
"What I said, Naruto…is that I love you."
The silent sound of loneliness wants to follow to her bed.
"I hate people who lie to themselves."
No.
She wasn't.
She was telling the truth.
He didn't believe her.
He never brought the topic up again.
"Hey Sakura."
No more Sakura-chan.
That title was revoked that day.
Her heart twists painfully.
"…Hm?"
A pause.
"What do you think about Hinata?"
Another pause.
"She's a wonderful girl. You would be lucky to have her."
Silence.
"Thank-you."
He asked her out the next day.
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She watched afar for so long.
Everyone was happy for him: The boy who became a man and saved their village and the girl who was vying for his attention for years has finally gotten her wish.
She wished she was happy for them too.
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"Hey, Sakura."
Silence.
"Yes?"
A pause.
"I think I'm in love with her."
She never protested.
All she did was smile, and tell this was good, that she was happy for him and her.
She wanted to scream at him to listen to her.
But it was futile.
He still didn't believe her and she couldn't make him understand.
The next week she spots him kissing her in public for the first time.
She locked herself in her house for three days.
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It still hurts.
Everywhere she went, they were there.
Where he used to take her.
She needed to get away.
He said that he was finally happy.
She wants to let go.
He smiles brightly at her.
He tells her that Sakura means alot to him for encouraging their relatinship.
She can't.
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He knows.
But he's a selfish man.
So he continues to lead her on and act like nothing has happened. He couldn't bear the thought of losing her, his most precious teammate.
No, he needed her like a little child needs his favorite toy.
She was his and no one can take her away from him.
He won't allow her to have happiness.
No, he'll keep getting her hopes up because he is a selfish man.
A very selfish man indeed.
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Sakura went to his apartment to help clean when she found the pair of pants.
She sees the small red velvet box in his pant pocket.
She's too afraid to go asleep.
The image of her in a white kimono plagues her mind.
Someone help her.
She's hurting again.
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The next day he barges into her apartment with a grin plastered on his face.
"Hey, Sakura! Guess what..."
She doesn't remember what he said after that.
All she could hear was something shattering inside her chest.
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"Sasuke?"
The stoic male glanced at his pinked-haired companion. They started hanging around with eachother more after the announcement of their engagement.
"We really are hopeless without him, huh?"
"Hn."
"He was always keeping us together."
A pause.
"…Yeah."
Silence enveloped the two.
"Sasuke?"
Another pause.
"…Hn?"
"I think I know why you left."
The need to get away was overwheming her.
He had a bitter smile on his face.
"It hurts, doesn't it." He stated, eyeing the sullen woman in front of him.
"Yeah…" she agreed, nodding her head weakly. Drawing in a shaky breath she smiled at him. A smile that never quit reached her eyes anymore. "Yeah."
He held her like a child.
"Yeah..."
He felt something foriegn rise in his chest.
"Yeah."
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They were getting married next spring, everyone was gossiping about it.
"They look so good together…"
Stop.
"Imagine the kids they'll have…"
Please stop.
"They're the power couple of their generation…"
No more.
She went straight to the Hokage's office that day and asked for an A-rank mission.
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They felt sorry for her.
She was handling it well, she looked normal, but if you looked closely enough you could see the cracks.
She was slowly breaking apart and they pity her for it.
Kakashi couldn't look at her, Shikamaru didn't want to get involved, Sasuke tries to help and Tsunade was just as broken as she.
All of team seven went out to eat. He arrived with Hinata five minutes later.
Her smile never left her face.
Yes, they felt sorry for her.
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She always hated the snow.
It was white and pure. Perfect.
Not like her.
She was a mess of a human with blood stained on her hands and scars that marked her body.
No. Not like her.
But it was cold.
Just like her soul.
It was a killer.
Like her.
She stood in the snow for hours until she was numb, inside and out.
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She left the next week.
She didn't say good-bye to him.
She couldn't.
They haven't seen her for months.
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They said she died from an ambush.
They said she defected from the village.
They said she killed herself.
They said she wasn't coming back.
"Teme, I think I screwed up."
"Really?"
"Yeah…"
Tense silence.
"Dobe, do you still love her?" he asked.
"I-I don't know."
Silence.
"I miss her."
A tear.
"I miss so much."
"I do too."
Another tear.
"She wasn't lying."
A choked sob.
He was crying.
"I-I know."
Sasuke wasn't going to comfort him. He didn't deserve it. He couldn't forgive him for what he put her through not matter if he is his best friend.
"She deserved better."
He left the blond with his misery.
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He moved the wedding up to next month.
Sakura was still not heard of.
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"You know, she's coming back tomorrow." Kakashi told Sasuke nonchalantly.
"I know."
"Did anyone tell her yet?"
"No."
"Ah."
Silence.
"I hate him," Sasuke suddenly said.
"I agree he should have handled the situation better," Kakashi replied, translating his ex-pupil.
"Hn."
"Do you think she still…" he trailed off.
He noticed Sasuke's expression. He was scratching his chest in contemplation as if trying to relief some sort of pain, his eyebrows furrowed, eyes glinting in concern and his mouth set in a thin line.
Then realization hit the man.
"You loved her."
A pause.
A small smile.
"Yeah."
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She was back after six months.
She was somewhat mre together than she's been in the past year.
They held a welcome back party for her that night at her favorite tempura restaurant.
Everyone was there except for Naruto, Tenten, Hinata and Neji.
She asked Lee where they were.
He gave her a funny look, ignoring the warning glares and told her.
"You don't know my dearest blossom of youth?"
Don't know what? What does she not know? Her mind screeched.
Dread started pooling in her stomach.
She should walk away before she gets hurt.
She should.
She shook her head weakly.
"Naruto and Hinata-chan are getting married tomorrow! How youthful and exciting, don't you think?"
Her heart stopped and her blood ran cold.
It was as if someone stabbed her heart at that very moment with a poisoned kunai.
"Sakura? Sakura, you okay?"
She nodded weakly and made her way out of the restaurant in daze.
She needed to do something.
She went to the training grounds and vented her anger and sadness.
"Why?" She yelled to the sky.
She grabbed the soil and hefted at large chunk of earth above her and threw it.
"Why?"
She uprooted trees.
She needed more.
She made canyons.
More.
She tore up the training grounds.
More.
She fell over from chakra exhaustion. Her body covered in blood, sweat and grim, sticking to her skin.
"I just wanted to be happy," she sobbed out, fresh tears cleaning the dirt on her face.
She cried that night like she did when he rejected her.
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She didn't go to the wedding.
She couldn't bring herself to.
No one blamed her.
"I thought I might find you here."
She removed the arm over her face and stared at the shadowy figure, squinting her eyes against the sunlight.
"Sasuke…"
She put back her arm over her eyes again.
"How are you?"
A bitter smile graced her lips.
"Fine."
"Bullshit. Tell me the truth."
It slipped off, replaced by a painful expression of anguish.
"I'm hurting."
"I can't fix that."
"I know… I don't want you to."
A pause.
"How was it?"
He didn't have to ask to know what she was talking about.
"It was beautiful."
A bird cried for its mate in the distance.
"He's happy."
She was lying on the ground still, arm over eyes, unmoving.
Tears pricked at her eyes as a sad smile formed on her mouth.
"That's great," she replied sullenly.
Another pause.
"He asked for you."
"Oh?"
Silence filled the air.
He finally spoke.
"He misses you."
"I know."
"Are you going to talk to him?"
"No." Not yet was left out.
"What do I tell him?
"Tell him…Tell him I'm okay."
"Liar."
"Yeah…I know."
He told him the truth.
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"There's an opening for a head medic in Naichingēru in Bird Country."
His hands were deep in his pockets; a habit he gained as a child.
She lifted a scroll in her hand and gave it to him.
"I know. They accepted me."
Another pause.
"Are you going?"
"No."
He half-heartily glared at her.
"You need to let go."
"It's not only about him. What about my family and friends, just because of hi-"
"-But you're killing yourself because of him. He's hurting you and you're allowing yourself to get hurt."
A sigh.
"I know…I'm pathetic."
"No. You're just heartbroken."
A bitter laugh.
"Yeah…"
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"You're leaving? Again?" He asked in disbelief. "I haven't seen you in six months, you missed my wedding and now you're just leaving?"
She smiled humorlessly at him.
He winced.
"You have no say in the matter."
"But-"
"-You can't have it both ways. You chose her."
"Saku-"
"-Do you realize how hard it is not to cry when I see you and her?"
He flinches.
"I need this."
She looks at him with desperate eyes.
He knows this.
But he can't let go.
"Good-bye."
She walked away, her back facing him.
Hinata asked why he was crying that night.
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She leaves that night.
She said her farewells this time and made sure to thank Sasuke for his help.
He wore a genuine smile for her.
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She didn't accept that job offer.
No, she went on a journey to find something that has left her.
She went to find happiness.
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So...how was it? What do you think? Should I continue it or not?
THINGS THAT WILL HAPPEN IF I DO CONTINUE IT:
1. This will lead to a romance for Sakura. Whether Naruto realizes he was wrong and goes with her or She ends up with Sasuke. Heck, I'll even write some other guy.
2. There will be hardships for the girl. Because I really like to go deep into pesonal issues in humans as a whole. Like adultry, sexuality, death, humanity, morals. Things like that. Plus, I just enjoy torturing my characters.
Which reminds me..
3. The romance will be slow. I mean come on, she just got her heart broken! It's not like she's going to bounce back up and say "Hey, I'm over him. Onto the next one!" NOOOOO NO-NO-NO! I don't do those things. I do reality! Realistically, she has t move on, but it will take some time. But not too much time okay? Okay.
Glad we could settle this.
Anyways, Review~!
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