Disclaimer: Charmed is not mine. The idea is, but not the focus. How sad...
I have another songfic for you. I know you love them. But I just do it for fun. Plus, I get rather bored. This one is an AU songfic, about Leo leaving Piper and their sons, not as an Elder, for there is no magic in this story. The song is In The End by Linkin Park. Please review. Surprise ending!
(It starts with)
One thing / I don't know why
I don't get it. What did I do? Why did he just, well, leave? Just picked up and left. The bastard. Now I am stuck taking care of four children. Yes, four. Wyatt, Chris, Phoebe, and Paige. I guess my sisters don't count, but they sure do act like it.
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
One day, I wake up to find him not in our bed. I think, he's just gone off to work. So I wait at home, all day, waiting for his return, my worry increasing, until I finally think, he must be dead. So I look through our drawers for funeral clothes, thinking that the police officer will come soon to tell me the tragidy.
To explain in due time
All I know
What I find is nothing. Everything is gone. I didn't get it then. I don't get it now. Will someone please explain this to me? Everything I knew. Gone. Everything I know. Gone. It just doesn't make sense.
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Time flys. Days pass. He doesn't return. I keep thinking, he'll be back. But he isn't.
Watch it count to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
I sat, day in and day out. I counted the seconds, then the minutes, and last hours. But when the end of the day came, he was still not here. My sisters were worried, my kids didn't understand. It's like I was giving up my life.
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
It was unreal. Things like this don't happen in real life. The rug was swept out from under my feet. It felt like I had been walking, then, boom!, I was falling. Being punched thousands of times.
Watch the time fly right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn't even know
In a month, I started living again. I went to work. I started dating. I ignored my sisters. I was mean and cruel. But I didn't care. I was holding on to trying to live. I wasn't home much. I barely ever saw Wyatt and Chris. And when I did, I payed most of my attention to Chris, because Wyatt reminded me too mush of him. Time flew even faster.
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I wasted a month of my life. I wasted, five years of my life for him. With him. And he leaves. How mature. He's probably afraid of commitment. Then why did he stay for all those years?
I kept everything inside and even though I tryed / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tryed so hard
In that month I kept my feelings, just about everything, inside. I felt like an emotional wreck. What I seemed to be was a cold hearted jerk. I tryed that. But it all fell apart at night when I'd cry myself to sleep. He meant so much to me. But eventually he'll just be a memory of a time when I tryed so hard to act perfect.
And got so far
But in the end
We got so far, but then, POOF! He was gone. So in the end...
It doesn't even matter nothing matters. Not one thing.
I had to fall
To lose it all
We lost everything. I lost my husband and the kids lost their father. My sisters lost their friend. I fell flat and couldn't, can't, get up.
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Now, I'm dating some guy name Josh. Or Jake. You lose track.
One thing / I don't know why
Doesn't even matter how hard you try
I've been drinking. A little. Maybe a lot. In between.
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I remind myself, Leo's not important and I tell myself, I'm not drinking too much. But my sisters think I am.
I tryed so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
I remember, I tryed to ignore the snide comments and rude, mocking tones when I was with him, from other women.
Acting like was part of your property
Remembering all of the times you fought with me
He acted like I was his. He would fight with me, day and night, but I loved him. Please let me move on, I ask myself each day.
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
What was strange was, it lasted for FIVE YEARS. Five years of pain, and yet I still loved him. But things aren't the way they were. Things are different now.
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
He wouldn't recognize me. I was drinking, I was, totally different. I just, couldn't make myself the same. I was always so loving when he was here. Phoebe and Paige were my best friends. I was always dreading going to work to leave my boys. Things change.
But it all comes back to me
In the end
But, alas, memories flood the mind and all I can think about is him.
You kept everything inside and even though I tryed / it all fell apart / what it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time I tryed so hard
My dates eventually disappear. I try to stop drinking. It's starting to. Now, guys, other than my boys, are a memory of trying to look okay.
And got so far
But in the end
I realize. I'm not. I need serious help, because I have a serious problem. I'm lovesick. That's all there is to it. And in the end...
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
help matters. It really does. And I'm falling, but I'm learning how to pick myself up.
To lose it all
But in the end
I lost everything. My sanity, my husband, and my health. I'm getting it back together though.
It doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
I trusted him. Trust is what makes friendship, love, family.
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
He made my life miserable at some points. At others, it was the happiest time of my life. For all this...I have to thank him.
There's only one thing you should know
If you can here me, please listen. There's only one thing you should know
I tryed so hard
And got so far
I tryed so hard for you, and got so far with you.
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
But in the end, I guess, it doesn't really matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
I had to fall, then lost it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
But in the end, it doesn't even matter.
The doorbell rang, jolting me out of my thoughts. I switched off the radio. I went downstairs and answered the door.
"Leo."
Yes, Leo's back and better than ever (or not). This isn't going to be a long story, but it is going to have a couple of chapters. They will all be songfics. Please review and tell me, should I continue this story?
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