Impossible.
All 4 years of hiding,
her whole 4 years spent building up this defense against him,
trying to forget him, pushing him out of her heart,
her mind, her, 4 years of torture.
All .. crumbled, shattered,
vanished as if they were nothing but a puff of breath.
During this night where the sun and the moon clashes,
the first meeting in 4 years.
Why..? She was the one who decided to separate, wasn't it?
So what is this tingling feeling in her chest, this striking pain in her heart?
He just came along as if nothing happened, and he, he …
He was the only one who made her feel complete.
Pain?
No, he can't think about that! That's right, stay composed,
he can't let this show on his face.
Though deep inside he was breaking,
falling apart to see Yuki walk away from him,
he will act as if he couldn't care less. He has to.
It's okay for him to be the only one who hurts.
Yuki ..
He's really tired of all the memories that surfaced,
despite his unwillingness, just at her name.
Every memory hurts.
"Zero! You were late again!" "Hand-made chocolate!" "Zero! Are you okay?"
No, stop remembering! He clutches his head with his hand, stop!
So many people.
All looking at her. Vampires. But now, she was one of them, wasn't she.
The very creatures she had been so scared of,
beasts in a human shape. Now, she was one of them.
She was scared, but determined to make it through.
At the very least, she would show Zero, she became stronger,
no longer the weak Yuki Cross he once knew.
Yes, now she was Yuki Kuran, she has to be strong.
Pretence is easy. Looking at the crowd, she instinctively searched for him.
Ah .. Zero! She nearly called out, but controlled herself.
He was holding his head and looking to be in huge pain.
Was his vampire instinct surfacing?
No, she must get to him this moment!
Then, as if feeling eyes on him, Zero looked up.
Straight at her. Into her eyes.
Into her heart. Her heart stopped. The world stopped.
Yuki Cross. NO, Yuki Kuran. Or was it?
Speechless, his mind not even able to form thoughts.
All he could think of when he looked at her was, Yuki. His Yuki.
He didn't ever want to let her go, but now.. no.
He fixed the blank stare on his face to be completely devoid of any emotion,
to be piercing, as if he was saying, " I hate you. "
It kills him inside. Eats him inside.
Yuki.. can you see that, beneath my mask, I'm crying inside?
But it's okay, as long as she's happy, he doesn't mind suffering.
Looking at her, he saw her lips .. tremble? His gaze moved up to her eyes
Was she .. crying?
He nearly staggered and let the blank mask fall, but he composed himself.
This is all for the best, Yuki. Though it hurts.
Why? His face changed to so .. hard.
She was sure she saw tenderness in those piercing eyes a while ago,
why did they change to so unfathomable.
Looking at Zero, she knew it.
No matter how much she tried to be Yuki Kuran, it was impossible.
Zero, he bound her tightly to who she was before.
Before everything changed, before her world tilted.
Her vision blurred. No! She can't cry. Not now, not infront of him.
She looked down, forced herself to tore her eyes away from Zero,
and tried to curb the tears. It hurts, really, hurts. Memories, unforgotten.
She felt a nudging at her wrist, ah, Kaname was asking her if she was okay.
She looked up and tried to smile, yes, she was okay, they could proceed.
As they walked on, she looked once more back at Zero.
He still wore that unfathomable expression on his face.
It tears her up inside to walk away from him,
because even after all that happened…
I still want to be your Yuki Cross, Zero.