Hitting Rock Bottom

(This is the re edited version of the first chapter. You will know if the next chapter is re edited by this same Author's Note.)

Chapter 1: Bad hair day

"Stupid alarm clock." I grimaced and threw my ringing cell phone across the room. I heard a crack as it hit the wall and my phone's powering down music. I closed my eyes again and turned over in my bed, hugging my pillow. Ten minutes later I got up cursing, under my breath.

I had another training session with the Russian God I called boyfriend, well boyfriend was a strange word for it. On any other day this would have made me jump in the shower and hum some cutesy love song to myself but today I just felt tired. I couldn't sleep, nightmares of the battle that had commenced only a few weeks before haunted me.

I turned on the shower and went in not bothering to wait for the hot water. The freezing water made me shiver but It soon warmed up. I imagined my nightmares going down the drain and mentally prepared myself for a new day. I got out a half hour later and dressed in my regular workout clothes. I grabbed my bag and left.

I entered the gym and saw no one. I walked in peering into the equipment closet, I jumped when I felt warm arms go around me.

"Good Morning Roza." Dimitri whispered in my ear.

"Hey," I answered back lamely, slightly turned on while Dimitri kissed my neck. "Where'd you pop out of?"

I felt him smile against my neck. "Wouldn't believe me if I told you."

I turned and kissed him full on the mouth. What a way to cheer me up. He, in return, kissed me once and pulled back, I gave him a questioning look and he leaned in once. Then he pushed me down and had me pinned underneath him, his knees were on both sides of my thighs and his hands holding mine flat above my head. Damn.

"Lesson one, don't let the enemy distract you." He smirked and I glared at him, what a tease. He shifted and that was all I needed to win this and in a moment I had him pinned under me.

"I thought lesson one was don't hesitate." I smiled at him. I got up and he did too.

"Well played Rose. Now why don't you run your ten laps and we'll spar?" I gave him my man-eater smile.

"Well," I traced one of the veins of his arms "I was kind of hoping we wouldn't exactly practice fighting today. I mean, I run everyday and I think it's time for me to exercise other parts of my body."

"And what other body parts did you have in mind?" He played along, a sly smile growing on his face.

"Oh, I don't know. We could make out a little, maybe head on over to our cabin for a different style of exercise. Don't worry about not being prepared to lead, I'll be in charge this time." I winked at him.

"Seems like a good idea." Yes! I thought but when he spoke again we he had his 'mentor' voice on. "Maybe after you run ten laps and if you do it under ten minutes, I'll let you skip your upper arm workout today."

"Ugh!" I whined. "Dimitri! I know you can feel the tension too. It's been three weeks, I don't know why you keep avoiding me." I took my arm back, slightly hurt, and started walking towards the track. A strong arm wrapped around my waist and Dimitri pulled me to him.

"Rosemarie-" He started.

"It's Rose."

"Fine, Rose, I'm not avoiding you. I would love to go to the cabin with you but it's better if we don't for a while. It can be dangerous. Going back right now is a risk I'm not willing to take."

"It's not that big of a risk, you're my tutor not my teacher. I'm already eighteen and I think It's already been proven that life is full of risks that we can't always control. A few weeks ago many guardians and Moroi died without risking anything. If we let fear control our lives, then we'll be spending a lot of our lives under a rock." I was really proud of my speech, even though most of it was rehearsed.

"Rose I can't." Dimitri told me, "In fact I need to talk to you."

"About what? How you love me but won't love me? Damn you." I felt tired again and just gave up on the argument.

Then door suddenly slammed open and we jumped apart. It was Six in the morning, who was going to be awake at this time, let alone in the gym?

Tasha Ozera walked in with an excited look on her scarred but pretty face. Thank god she didn't seem to notice anything going on between Dimitri and I. It was well known that Tasha was interested in Dimitri and had even offered to have his kids if he became her guardian. It was petty but she annoyed me at times even though I admired her strength at other times.

"Dimka, there you are!." She turned to me. "Hey Rose, how are you?"

"Hey Tasha." I smiled at her. "I didn't know you were still in the academy." Tasha had arrived right after the attack on St. Vladimirs had happened. She was here as moral support for those in shock after the accident. She talked to many of the students and helped comfort them. It was very admirable.

"Good Morning Tasha, what brings you here?" Dimitri asked.

"Oh, I just wanted to tell you that I already talked to Alberta and set everything up." Her eyes twinkled and she beamed.

"Wow, Tasha you're really happy about something. And what's been set up?" I asked confused. Dimitri started walking toward Tasha.

"Oh didn't Dimitri tell you? He's-" But Dimitri interrupter her and lead her out of the gym. He mumbled something to her, she nodded and waved at me as she left.

"Hey Tasha, We're kind of busy right now. I'll find you later and you can tell me all you want to tell me."

"Oh sure." She kissed Dimitri once on the cheek and left. That was weird. She'd never kissed Dimitri on the cheek before. I must have looked confused because Dimitri walked closer to me and opened his mouth to explain that Tasha was very happy because she had received good news.

"Oh, what kind of good news?" Dimitri looked me in the eye and the only thing I saw there was regret and a little fear. My breath quickened.

"What's the good news?" I asked a little desperately.

"Well there's a little bit of bad news that comes along with her good news. Tasha will be going home soon and she won't be going alone."

"What do you mean she won't be going alone? You took the job, didn't you? You're going to be her guardian" The words hurt coming out of my mouth.

He nodded once. Before I could even think I walked over to him and slapped him across the face. "Asshole."

"Wait, I can explain, Rose!" I glared at him, I don't think I've ever been mad at anyone like this before. I walked out before I could do anything I might regret later and left a piece of me behind.

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