Love Basically Sucks
Remus sighed, and slammed his textbook shut. It was useless, he just couldn't concentrate. Maybe if he didn't have a certain someone on his mind, but that was just wishful thinking. He did have a certain someone on his mind, and that was the end of the story.
v v v v v v v v v v v
Sirius sighed, and stared at the fire. He was getting worried about Remus, he had always been a bookworm, and studied a lot, but recently, he barely ever left the library. James obviously wasn't worried, because Sirius had a bruise on his head from when James had thrown a book at him. Supposedly, he had snapped after hearing, "Where's Remus?" for the millionth time.
v v v v v v v v v v v
As he walked back to the common room, Remus was lost in thought. Therefore, he did not notice the auburn-haired individual he was sharing the hallway with, until he walked right into her.
"Oh my God! Lily, I'm so sorry," Remus apologized profusely. Both of their books had fallen all over the hall, and their papers were strewn pell-mell. He bent down to pick up everything, and Lily did the same.
"It's not your fault, I should have been watching where I was going," said Lily. She also leaned down to pick up their various belongings. It was silent for a few minutes, except for the sorting of papers. Eventually Remus had everything he needed, except for his potions textbook. He looked around, and saw it, in Lily's hands.
His heart stopped. He had doodled without abandon in that book, and all Lily had to do to read his entire heart like a book was open the front cover.
He started to say, "That's mine," but never got farther than the the "th" before Lily let the book fall open in her hands. She looked down and her eyes grew wide.
"Remus," she said slowly, "I only know one person with the initials SB, and there's only one reason why some one would write RL+SB in a heart." She looked at Remus, her eyes conveying an emotion somewhere between pity, anger, and hilarity. "I never would have guessed."
Remus couldn't move. What could he have done? Grabbed the book back? Deny the truth? He may as well have danced the "Funky Chicken" for all the good any of those things would have done him. So he just stood there, and stared into space, like the idiot he felt like.
"Um... Remus? Are you OK?" Remus snapped to attention. "You've been staring into space for like an entire minute. Are you OK?" Remus shook his head, he was most definitely not OK, bloody insane was more like it. "Hmm...well...that's interesting," Lily mused.
Suddenly, Lily was all business, "Remus John Lupin, do you love Sirius Black?" there was no point in denying it anymore, but he still didn't feel comfortable saying it, so instead he nodded meekly. "And, have you told him yet?" Remus could feel his eyebrows fly up. "You're right, that's a dumb question." Lily looked thoughtful, and asked, "Are you sure it's love?" Remus had to fight back a chuckle, was he sure it was love. He remembered back to when he had asked himself the exact same question.