Hey Guys, so... I started a Danisnotonfire Fanfic, but I really wasn't feeling it at all, I didn't feel connected with the story or happy with it at all.

I really wanted a little bit of myself in this story which is why im now posting this one, as someone with social anxiety I clicked more with Isabella and it made it more easier to write, I also feel like this was less rushed I hope you all understand and enjoy this story as much as I have been.

Lots of Love Phandom member! also follow me on twitter Misty_rose96 I love talking to other Phandom members and post a lot of edits ect.

Chapter 1

There I was standing in London airport shaking with nerves and wishing I hadn't made the crazy decision to leave my only true friend Jessica standing, waving at the airport in my old home Australia and move half way around the world, but even with the distance it didn't feel like I was far enough away from them.

I felt like at any moment they would barge their way back into my life and take control of me again. I could feel the tightness in my throat get worse as my anxiety peaked and I tried to push the thought down into the darkest place of my mind.

I lugged my heavy suitcase out the large glass doors to a waiting taxi, that would take me to my temporary house, a hotel room that I had used nearly all my money that I had saved waitressing at a local restaurant, to pay off the room for three weeks in hopes I would find an apartment by that time and also a job.

That was the flaw in my plan, I was in such a rush to be rid of the demons of my life that I hadn't really thought past getting my hotel room, but as I sat in my taxi on my way to the hotel I took the first deep breath In what felt like my whole life, finally freedom.

I had finally settled into my room my things neatly stacked in the corner, I didn't know whether to unpack because unpacking seemed so finally and I always had trouble with that finalization of something, of changing my routine even if it was fucked up one of been tormented every day of my bloody life.

The time difference didn't help either and I decided to try sleep off the jet lag and go apartment hunting the next day as it was 6pm London time.

It left like seconds after my head hit the pillow the ringing of my alarm woke me up, I growled slightly and rolled over picking up my trusty iPhone and hitting snooze, one of my mainly traits was putting things off, not necessarily because in lazy but that was one of the reasons, but because sometimes it felt pointless and a struggle to get out of bed and face the world, but today was a new day and I forced my lazy arse to climb out of bed and face myself in the bathroom mirror.

My long brown hair was an absolute mess and I cringed at the thought of brushing it, my green eyes stared back at me but they weren't the tired eyes I was used to the eyes that were always cast down they had a new light to them, and I was starting to really like what London was doing for me, I was going to claim my life back.

With a new found happiness I turned on the shower scrubbed myself of the day before and set to brushing my hair till it was soft and flat down my back. I chucked on a pair of black jeans and a flanny as well as my favorite beanie and boots and walked out of my tiny room, I was going to go apartment hunting.

"Good morning miss how was your first night?" The lady at the front desk asked as I walked out of the elevator I smiled awkwardly "Um, good thank you" I said and quickly made my way out onto the street, it wasn't that I was rude it was just I had trouble talking sometimes, I would get this fear that I would say the wrong thing or that they were secretly judging me it was not fun being me sometimes.

It wasn't till I walked a couple minutes that I realized I had no idea where I was going at all and my anxiety started to creep in, thank god I found the nearest coffe shop and I ducked inside ordering myself a cappuccino.

While I sipped on my coffee I mentally prepared myself to ask the girl serving how I would find apartments for rent, this was a normal everyday thing for me, mentally planning my words and conversation. And finally after finishing my coffee before I lost the courage I walked up to the counter "Um hey, sorry I was just wondering where or how I could find apartments for rent?" the girl smiled friendly which made me more comfortable and stopped nerves biting my nails "sure, the paper has a lot of stuff like that, it's just there on the table" she said pointing to the paper which should have been obvious to me "Thank you" I smile and set to work searching.

I had found one apartment a few blocks away, after I gained the courage to ask how to get there and found out I need to use the "underground subway" I made my way to where I was told I could get on the subway and found myself in a mass of people, pushing and shoving "excuse me" I said pushing my way to the side lines taking a huge gasp of air, this was not good for my anxiety and over all awkwardness at all.

Just as I was about to give up I heard someone yelling over the mass of people "hey you, girl with the beanie" oh god please don't be talking to me I tried to hide amongst the bricks and blend in I thought it worked until I felt a hand touch me "hey I was calling out"

I turned to find a tall guy standing before me he looked a little familiar, he had black hair and a metallic grey jacket on which I wish I could be confident enough to wear "ah, s-sorry I didn't hear you" I lied freaking out that he could see it on my face

"Oh that's alright" he smiled warmly "you just looked a little lost and telling from your accent you're not from around here" he laughed lightly making me actually smile "that obvious hey" I said laughing a little there was something about him that made me comfortable "Only a little, this place is crazy even for people who have been here for years, if you want I can help you get to where you're going"

"Well... actually that would be a big help i-if its not to much of a drama" I said passing him the ad for the apartment "how long have you been here?' he asked looking down at the paper "I got her yesterday" I said having to yell a little, he gave me a shocked look "girl your in over your head trying to take the subway already" he laughed which made me shuffle nervously "im in over my head all together" I mumbled low enough so he couldn't hear me.

"Well this isn't far from here, follow me" he said grabbing my arm and pulling back into the mass of bodies. He showed me how to get on the subway and we found a seat a little way away from people "My names Phil by the way" he said smiling "Isabella" I said

"I had a cat named Isabella" he2 said randomly making me laugh "Really?" "yeah she was pretty cool" he said looking off into the distance "anyways, what brings you to big old London" he asked, a question I was ready for, I had rehearsed the answer a million times "going abroad I just finished high school last year" I looked away in hopes he would believe me, it was believable wasn't it.

"Awesome, so your apartment searching?" he asked I nodded pointing to the Ad "yep" I said "Would you consider apartment sharing?" he asked while texting on his phone quickly "well... i-I guess so, I don't know im kind of" I struggled for the word without sounding crazy "awkward around people" I finally said earning a small smile from him "you remind me of my best friend a little actually" he said "really" I laughed "Yeah his names Dan his as awkward as they come really" he laughed fondly.

We chatted lightly for the rest of the way until we finally arrived at our destination; Phil followed me off the subway "You don't mind me tagging along do you?" Phil asked pulling his fluffy hood up "Um, no it would be good to have someone who knows their way around" he laughed "probably is a good idea".

We checked out the apartment which ended up being nothing like the Ad said, we left laughing about the land lord and his 10 cats or we guessed he had ten cats the way the placed smelled, it was strange I had never felt so comfortable so quick with someone the way I did with phil.

After five more apartments our hopes we down and that's when Answered his phone "Dan, I have been texting you all day" Phil said I could her mumbling on the other side "I know right it's a great idea" he said turning to me I raised my eyebrows "What" I mouthed and he held his finger up telling me to wait a sec "Alright I will talk to her and see you at home" he hung up the phone.

"What was that about?" I asked pulling my beanie down against the cold "I didn't want to say anything before because I needed conformation from Dan first, because his roommate and all that and he just said it's a great idea so..." Phil trailed on I giggled "just tell me" I said

"We have been looking for someone to move into our apartment with us and you're looking for an apartment so how about it?" he said smiling brightly I stuttered for a moment, this was against everything I thought I didn't do things like moving in with two random boys, but then again old Isabella didn't do things like move across the globe, I pushed the clawing feeling in my throat down and smiled nervously

"Tha-that actually sounds like a perfect idea, I would have to meet Dan first though I guess and everything else" I had to sit down it was my second day and things were moving so fast Phil looked at me nervously "are you ok" he asked placing his hand on my arm "Yeah, I'm good" I said smiling "Well lets go meet Dan shall we" he said and we made our way back to the subway.

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