Had Been Hurt Again
Inspired by a truthful tale.
So beautiful. The face that loved the man, Tadase. He was her only one. Her only option. The love he gave her made her beautiful. And now, she's a grotesque silhouette. A fallen angel, because of the things he had-and hadn't-done.
Her life was ended the day she saw him with another. Another girl, more womanly than her. Another girl, wiser and more understanding than she'll ever be. Another girl, all she's ever wanted to be. Another girl, with her only love. Another girl, named Amu.
She sat there and watched the lies form, right before her eyes. She sat there, shrouded by grief. Invisible to her surroundings. She was screaming inside, silent out. A boiling rage, swelled up by past trauma, enclosed her mind. Only the other girl could stop this Anger. She decided that her demise could stop this. End the suffering.
No...no. He. It is he who must be blamed. He loved her. He must've. Nobody could lie as smoothly as he did. He saw a future with her. Or maybe, with Amu? It is his doing. He must pay, she thought.
But, no! The one who must truly pay is herself. The gullible, stupid little girl. She believed so easily that in such a short while he would mend her mangled self. That ignorant girl. It's her fault.
She must perish. Fire in her eyes, burning water searing her cheeks. Nothing but a heat that would eventually destroy her.
She left, not being able to stand the affair any longer. She left, to a safe and secluded area. She left, to plan and harm. To harm herself and everyone who she thought cared for her. She left, to break the promise she had made to Tadase so long ago. She left, to retrieve her weapon she always keeps close. She smiles.
She smiles because of her pain. The sharp pinch of metal slicing flesh. Her tan orangey flesh, stained with scars, all old. Her life gave her no reason to harm herself. She was living in a joyous realm, with no problems? No worries? Incorrect. A place, spattered with denial, confusion, and blindness.
Blue blood, coming from her back story, swelled up and slowly sputtered down her wrist. Polar opposites, is what perfectly describes her. Red and angry on the outside. And yet she's cool and resolved inside.
Her mangled soul ripped apart with each slice. Her mangled heart beat slower and slower with every evil thought Tadase had. Her mangled mind grew mor insane with every diabolical plan she came up with to destroy herself.
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