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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; font-size: 18px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="90e859f8190ad977c966dbd71a8a6963"We were so close. I thought of all we did together. The games, tree carvings, movies. Here I was, Hassan, a Great Sultan of Kabul defending our land. Giving his life for his people. I thought of the stories you would read and write. Always so well-spoken, so sad. Maybe this would become a story of yours one day./p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; font-size: 18px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="f6c3e941f8d140e7087cfeb865537254"Father would tell me not to be judging, not be so selfish. Others have their own stories too. How could I blame you, for running? When you had only thought of returning home safe, to please Baba. Or that crazed leader who desired power, and his loyal sidekicks who only sought acceptance./p
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