My Confession
By Miran
General/Drama
Rated: G
Disclaimer: "Sailoruranus / Tenoh Haruka", and "Sailorneptune / Kaioh Michiru" are copyright Takeuchi Naoko and all other companies associated with rights. I just borrowed them for a bit.
Summary: Haruka and Michiru. Haruka has problems confessing to her loved one.
Hhmmm... I've been away for almost a month. sigh Oh well, a lot of things have happened during these days and it came suddenly, without warning. Accidents do happen, and we can't avoid them. Although it's been weeks now since the tragedy, things are still fresh in my mind. Haunting me. I just couldn't help but over- work myself to get these images out of my mind. Now it's been a month, I continue to overexert and exhausted myself. Things are getting worse. My physical and mental selves aren't so good either. Everyday I feel tired and the headache kept coming back. I've thought that maybe I was sick and went to see a doctor. But he said there was no sign of flu or fever, that I was just fine. However, my headache kept getting worse, until I felt the world spin around me and couldn't walk upright. The Doctor gave me some pills. They're just pain killers and muscle relaxes. He also advised me get some exercise, build up a sweat. Hmm... huh? I'm just stressed? If it is just stress? It must be bad. Never in my life I've been this bad off before, I have to solve it as soon as possible. But... what if it isn't just stress? Maybe something that I felt before has come back? This I pray is not happening. I have never felt this weak. I hate myself. I hate me for being so weak. Though I may be smiling, like nothing has happen. But... she knows.
She knows it all too well and wants to help me. Sometimes she tries to cheer me up by teasing me, or simply just dragging me out for the evening. I may be smiling, but she knows I'm really just hiding my pain again. She knows that I'm one damn stubborn person, and I'll tell her when I want to. I guess I still don't want to show my weakness in front of her or any one else for that matter. I know I've made her worry. I'm sorry.
Although I didn't want to tell her, I wrote it down here. I know she may not read this, or maybe she does. I don't care much right now. All I know is that she has already started her busy life again, and I have too. Right now we may not have the time to meet with each other like we used too. And I'm starting to missed the times we had together. However, here I want to record my words for her... while I still have the chance.
Ai,
I'm sorry to worry you so much, but I promise I will get well soon. I won't let you down. I hope you can give me some time and that soon I'll be back to being myself again. Thanks for always be there when I need you the most. I'm very much appreciate all you have done for me the past few weeks. Even though I don't say it often, deep in my heart I want to let you know that you will always be the only sunshine in my life.
Aishiteru...
OWARI
Author's Notes: First of all I would like to thank my dearest editor in the world, for giving me courage and fully support from all the way. ;-) You know who you are... HUGS I love you so much!! :-D
Well, this is my first fanfiction ever in my whole life. Usually I draw more than writes. However one day its just struck my head, and so here they are. oo;; R&R. Please let me know what you think, and... No flames, please. Arigatou.
By Miran
General/Drama
Rated: G
Disclaimer: "Sailoruranus / Tenoh Haruka", and "Sailorneptune / Kaioh Michiru" are copyright Takeuchi Naoko and all other companies associated with rights. I just borrowed them for a bit.
Summary: Haruka and Michiru. Haruka has problems confessing to her loved one.
Hhmmm... I've been away for almost a month. sigh Oh well, a lot of things have happened during these days and it came suddenly, without warning. Accidents do happen, and we can't avoid them. Although it's been weeks now since the tragedy, things are still fresh in my mind. Haunting me. I just couldn't help but over- work myself to get these images out of my mind. Now it's been a month, I continue to overexert and exhausted myself. Things are getting worse. My physical and mental selves aren't so good either. Everyday I feel tired and the headache kept coming back. I've thought that maybe I was sick and went to see a doctor. But he said there was no sign of flu or fever, that I was just fine. However, my headache kept getting worse, until I felt the world spin around me and couldn't walk upright. The Doctor gave me some pills. They're just pain killers and muscle relaxes. He also advised me get some exercise, build up a sweat. Hmm... huh? I'm just stressed? If it is just stress? It must be bad. Never in my life I've been this bad off before, I have to solve it as soon as possible. But... what if it isn't just stress? Maybe something that I felt before has come back? This I pray is not happening. I have never felt this weak. I hate myself. I hate me for being so weak. Though I may be smiling, like nothing has happen. But... she knows.
She knows it all too well and wants to help me. Sometimes she tries to cheer me up by teasing me, or simply just dragging me out for the evening. I may be smiling, but she knows I'm really just hiding my pain again. She knows that I'm one damn stubborn person, and I'll tell her when I want to. I guess I still don't want to show my weakness in front of her or any one else for that matter. I know I've made her worry. I'm sorry.
Although I didn't want to tell her, I wrote it down here. I know she may not read this, or maybe she does. I don't care much right now. All I know is that she has already started her busy life again, and I have too. Right now we may not have the time to meet with each other like we used too. And I'm starting to missed the times we had together. However, here I want to record my words for her... while I still have the chance.
Ai,
I'm sorry to worry you so much, but I promise I will get well soon. I won't let you down. I hope you can give me some time and that soon I'll be back to being myself again. Thanks for always be there when I need you the most. I'm very much appreciate all you have done for me the past few weeks. Even though I don't say it often, deep in my heart I want to let you know that you will always be the only sunshine in my life.
Aishiteru...
OWARI
Author's Notes: First of all I would like to thank my dearest editor in the world, for giving me courage and fully support from all the way. ;-) You know who you are... HUGS I love you so much!! :-D
Well, this is my first fanfiction ever in my whole life. Usually I draw more than writes. However one day its just struck my head, and so here they are. oo;; R&R. Please let me know what you think, and... No flames, please. Arigatou.