I think I'm forgetting things lately. Everyone is giving me weird looks when I ask them simple questions about what's going on. They seem to answer very carefully, like they might hit a landmine with their words or something. But I guess that's okay.
Even Leo gives me strange looks sometimes. He's being understanding, though. He knows what that place has done to me. I think the memory problems are coming from that. Or, at least, that's what Hazel says. Was she the one who said that?
I don't remember.
I'm forgetting more and more. I have to write down everything important, but then I forget what I did with the paper. I'm even starting to forget everyone's names. It's only for a couple seconds, but I still have to search my brain to find their name.
They're getting worried. I can tell. I hear what they say about me. They say I need help. Do I? Leo says I do. He wants to help me. He sounds desperate whenever he tells me that, or whenever he tries to help me remember something. I wish I could… Wait, what was I going to say?
I don't remember.
Where am I? I have to think. I have to remember. It's all white space in my brain. It's so confusing. I try to remember things, but I'm like Tantalus. The fruit is my memory and I just can't grab it.
Their names elude me more and more now. I think Leo is getting worse. Sometimes I wake up to hear him crying next to me in our bed. I try not to make a sound. It hurts to see, uh…
I don't remember.
Who are they again? It's taking me longer and longer to figure out their names. Every now and again I look up to find that they've walked away before I can remember their name. Gods, this is frustrating. I want to remember, I really do. I just can't.
The boy who sleeps with me at night starts crying after I go to sleep and doesn't stop until I wake up in the morning. I've learned to tune the sound out so I can get some rest. I try and I try, but I don't know who he is. Who is he?
I don't remember.
Who are these people? I don't think I've ever seen them before in my life. They keep trying to tell me that they're my friends, but I don't believe them. How could I not remember my friends? They must be lying. That means they must be lying when they tell me my name is Nico. I don't know anybody named Nico.
So why am I on this ship? Why are these people lying to me, telling me who they are and who I supposedly am? For that matter, what are they talking about when they say I'm the son of Hades? I don't know a Hades. I think I'd remember my own father. I just want them to tell me the truth. They can't be my friends because…
I don't remember.
AN:
In case you're wondering, Nico lost his memories because Tartarus damaged his psyche so badly that his mind is just repressing all his memories without distinction between traumatic and not.