"He jumps in the taxi for the sky
He's off to slay some demon dragonfly
He looks at me, that long last time
He turns away again and I waved goodbye
In an envelope, inside his coat
Is a chain I wore around my throat
Along with a note I wrote
Said "I love you but, I don't even know why."

Darling, I wish you well on your way to the wishin' well"

-Nobody's Crying, Patty Griffin

Disclaimer: I do not own the amazing T.V. series Rookie Blue!

"It's just right up here. Thank you."

Andy said to the old taxi driver as they approached Sam's place. Once in front of the house, Andy was able to see that Sam wasn't home. His truck was gone and the lights were all off. Still, she decided to get out of the cab. She was too embarrassed to admit to the old man that no one was home, too embarrassed to turn around. Besides, she knew that she probably didn't have enough money to pay for the long trip to Tracie's. She handed him the fair and stepped out onto the empty street. Standing on the sidewalk, she watched as the cab's taillights disappeared around the corner.

What am I doing here? Andy thought to herself. He must have gotten my message by now. He hasn't called back. God, that was stupid. He thinks I'm stupid. He probably doesn't know what to say. He's probably embarrassed for me.

Not knowing what to do, Andy slowly started for Sam's stoop. She sat there on his steps feeling the most embarrassed that she had ever felt in her life.

"It was what it was." Nothing more. God, why hasn't he called? What the hell would he say if he did? There's nothing to say except that I am a complete and total idiot!

Andy took the cellphone from her back pocket and flipped it open. She flipped it shut. She cupped her face in her hands and hung her head. She must have been sitting like that for several minutes when her phone began to ring. Quickly, she looked at the caller I.D. She was both saddened and relieved when she learned that it was Tracie and not Sam who was calling.

"Hey, Tracie" Andy unenthusiastic ally mumbled into the phone.
"Uh, Andy? You okay?" asked Tracie. Her voice was filled with question and concern.
Andy was uncharacteristically quiet.
"Where are you?" Tracie asked after a moment of silence.
" Noelle said you had to feed a cat? What's going on?"
"Yeah, I don't know. I don't know…Tracie. I'm an idiot."
"Ookkaayy? Andy, what's up?"
"I basically…I just told him that I was basically in love with him. I feel so stupid. I'm such an idiot. He thinks that I'm an idiot. I don't know. I called. I freaked out. It was a mis…"
"Wait, what? Who are you talking about? Luke?"
"Sam, Tracie. I am talking about Sam. I was just messed up, you know? I mean that girl died and Sam is going undercover and I mean, why shouldn't he? He doesn't have a reason not to go. He doesn't have anything to think about. He…" Andy began to sob.
"Wait, Sam? Swarek? Sam said that you're an idiot?"
"No…no…he didn't need to. I called him, but he didn't answer. I left a message. God, Tracie. I'm at his house. That's where I am. I'm sitting on his stoop. He isn't here. He hasn't called me back because he is embarrassed for me."
"Wait…you told Sam that you loved him? Andy?"
"Yeah…I did, but you know…It was really stupid. Huh?"
"Where is he?"
"I don't know. Probably avoiding me. Listen, Trace…can you come pick me up? I just really need to get out of here. If he comes home now…I just don't…I can't face him."
"Yeah, Andy…uh…my mom has the car right now. I mean…she should be back real soon. I can come get you then…okay? Wait, I'll call Jerry and see if he can. I bet he can stop by to get you like right now, okay?"
"Tracie…no…please, do not call Jerry. You can't tell Jerry. I'll just call a cab. I'll see you in a bit, okay?"
"Yeah, sure…okay. I'll see you in a bit."

With that, Andy stood up from the steps. She reached up to her face to tuck the stray hair behind her ears. With a long sigh, she started down the steps and began her long walk home. She didn't have enough money on her for another cab. She wouldn't dare call Chris or Dov knowing that calling either of them would ultimately lead to Gail finding out about her embarrassing love confession.

Why does Gail always have to be such a jerk? Why do I always have to be such an idiot? She thought to herself.

After about a half hour of walking, Andy finally gave in. She was so exhausted. Mentally. Physically. She just wanted to go home. Only, she didn't really have one to go to. She reached into her back pocket again and pulled out her phone. She didn't need to look up the number even though it had been awhile since she had dialed it. Guilt filled the pit of her stomach when she heard his familiar voice on the other end.

"Andy?"
"Yeah…Hi. Sorry for calling you so late…it's just…you can say 'no.' I would understand…"
"Andy? What's wrong? Are you okay?"
"Yes…I'm fine. I'm just…I was wondering if you could come pick me up. Take me to Tracie's. I'll pay you back gas money when we get there. I just…I need a ride and I don't have the money for a cab on me right now. If y…"
"Andy. Stop. I'm on my way. Where are you?"
"I'm on the corner of Oak Ave. and Waller. Thanks, again…"
"Oak and Waller? Okay? Hang tight…I'll be there in a few."