I laid back on my bed headphones on eyes shut tight thinking about him we're fighting again and I hate it. I hate it because I'm angry with him but I can't stop thinking about the little smirks he gives me,those green eyes that pierce through mine and make me weak in the knees. The cute things he says to make me smile or his sarcastic comments to rile me up. It was all these things that I loved about Elijah and there was nothing that would ever change that at least I hoped not. I couldn't even tell you the reason for our fight it was probably something stupid,now that I think about it but both of us were stubborn so neither of us were going to back down easily about it.

I knew I'd cave first that's usually how it worked but not until I wrote him a letter I had too, it was the only way I could say everything I was thinking of feeling towards him. Sitting up I reached over to the night stand opening the drawer. I pulled out a small green notebook and pen flipping over to the first available blank page and I began to write.

Dear Elijah,

I miss you. I'm sorry we're fighting, I can't even remember why its been three days since I've seen you. The longest days of my life,its like I'm lost when you aren't around. Pieces of me are missing and I know that's sounds cheesy and really clingy but its true. You complete me, Make me who I am and I just can't live without you anymore, its too late for that. I want to talk to you but I don't know what to say, I want to see you and put my hand on your cheek and watch your emerald eyes wondering for hours what they're thinking. You're different, you make me feel different. You're nothing I ever imagined myself with and yet everything I've always wanted. I just want this stupid fight to be over, I want you here,with me.

xoxox,

Clare

I finished the letter tearing it out of the notebook carefully, I grabbed one of the many envelopes I had laying around and folded the letter tucking it inside. I didn't need to seal it because he would never see it, he would never hear me utter those words to him unless he did first. I love him that much but I was always too afraid to tell him,be that bold. I turned the envelope over grabbing the pen I jotted his name on it and smiled satisfied I could get all of that out. I pulled the box of letter out from underneath my bed they were neatly organized I found the spot with all of Eli's letters it was the biggest pile of them all. I slid the letter to the back and closed the box back up sliding it under the bed. Now to actually find Eli and get him to see me so I can be with him again, so we can fix this and be back to what we were.

My phone was in my hand, I kept playing with it contemplating whether or not I wanted to send him a text or wait until I get one from him. It was killing me to go this long, I don't know how I did it but now it was becoming unbearable. Was it even normal to love someone this much? Sighing I gave in and opened up my phone to send a text message praying he'd reply. My fingers nervously hit the keys worried it had been so long we might not ever get over this fight. Breathe Clare, he loves you it just a fight you'll get over it and feel better as soon as you hit send, So I did.

It had been a few hours since I sent the text and my stomach was in knots still waiting,hoping when finally I heard a ding. I sat up grabbing the phone yep it was from Eli, I opened it and it read "I miss you too, Can I see you?" which made me the happiest girl in existence. Looking over at the clock it was only seven my mother wasn't home yet so its not like she could get pissed he could sneak out my window later. I replied yes of course that I'd see him soon.

When he first got there I made my way slowly down the stairs and to the door, I took a deep breath before opening it. He gave me a small smirk and I moved out of the way to let him in, I was shifting nervously not really sure what to do or say but he said "Hey" before I had to figure it out. I crossed my arms over my chest and smiled feebly "Hey, long time no see". I watched him shift uncomfortably he seemed nervous too, good at least I wasn't the only one.

"Sorry about that.." he mumbled but I just shrugged and walked over hugging him. I had missed him too much to even be mad over any stupid fight. His arms wrapped back around me and he kissed the top of my head holding me close to him. I gently kissed his chest where his heart was leaning my head against it I listened to his heart beating. We stood there for a while like that just being with each other, I was once again swooning and melting into his arms like nothing had ever been wrong in the first place.

After some time had passed we both jumped hearing keys in the door and I looked at Eli signaling him to go hide in my room. Its not that I wasn't allowed to see him I was but my mom preferred when we weren't in the house alone and considering she had been in off and on bad moods lately deciding to not temp fate was best. He let go of me and ran up to my room once he was just out of view she opened the door and looked at me standing there.

"Oh Clare, could you help me with the groceries?" she smiled

"Sure,Mom" I bit my lip following her out to the car,okay so it'd take a little longer to get back to Eli then expected.