Disclaimer- I don't own digimon.

Hey everyone! Here's my new story. It's totally different from all of my other stories and I really hope you enjoy it because it deals with a lot of issues that on in millions of peoples lives today. Just a warning though, **Story Contains: self destructive violence, drug/alcohol abuse, partying, language, and sexuality involving teens. And it's OOC completely. (Reasons why it WILL be rated R (in later chapters))** But yeah, I hope you like it! This chapter is kinda short because it explains what's going on before the story actually starts. Story is told in Sora's point of view.

Ages:

Sora, Matt, Tai- 17

Mimi- 16

Tk, Kari- 14

Any one else just guess the ages.

**Confessions**

*****Chapter 1- Prologue*****

Has anyone ever told you that your existence is pointless and there's no reason for you to be living? Or, you were a mistake and you shouldn't have ever been brought into this world? It's an upsetting thing to hear everyday, it really is. Everyday you wish you were dead. You wish, you could just fall asleep and never wake up again. You sit in your room and wish you could just end it all right then and there. You think, "Does anyone even care that I'm here? If I died today, would anyone notice?" Yeah, I ask myself those questions every moment of every hour of everyday. Does my life really have a point or am I just being screwed over by keeping myself here when no one wants me around? Either way, I keep wishing I was dead.

Isn't a sad thing when best friends grow apart and act as if they don't even know each other? Well that's what happened to me. I used to be a happy kid, I really did. But then shit happened. My life turned into a hell hole when my parents got divorced and my mother remarried. That was when I was twelve. I am now seventeen and still dealing with the same shit that I did the day he came into our household. He beats me, my mom doesn't know it because I hide it so well, but he still does it. I'm physically abused, and mentally. Reasons why I've tried to kill myself so many times before. But back to the best friend thing.

Taichi "Tai" Kamiya. My (used to be) best friend. We've known each other since we were about two or three years old. Our parents grew up together and therefore so did we. He and I were so close, it was kind of unbelievably scary. We did everything together: played sports together, went on our first dates together, even got in trouble together. It was a great time of my life. But then I began to distance myself from him when my "step dad" came into the picture. Drugs, knives, and razors became my a new part of my life and he got kind of intimidated by it, although he tried to stop me, it was no use. It wasn't only my fault though. He fell into the wrong crowd once we got into middle school and nothing's been the same since. Drug's and cigarette's are a big part of his life now and I'm not. I guess it just goes to show that no matter how close you are to someone, they can always change, sometimes not for the better. But oh well, I've gotten over it.

After Tai came Mimi. Mimi Tachikawa. That girl was... one in a million, she really was. We met just after my mom got remarried. I was scared to invite her over to my house, thinking that he would hurt her like her hurt me, so we usually were at her house. She was a rich kid. Her father was a lawyer and her mother was an attorney so Mimi got pretty much whatever she wanted, when she wanted it. Mimi made my life somewhat better all through middle school. But she eventually changed too. Eighth grade was a fun year, it really was but then Mimi went away to camp that summer and came back a totally different person. Rumors went around that she had slept with a hot camp counselor and instant popularity came to her. Not that she wasn't popular before, I mean come on, the girl was pretty, rich, and a cheerleader... your basic popular girl. Now-a-days she's still in with the popular crowd and we aren't really friends any more. I don't think we've said more than two words to each other since that summer. But oh well, she dealt with it and so did I.

Last, but certainly not least, is Yamato "Matt" Ishida. "Wow" is one word that can sum up just about every thing with this guy. He and I met around the time I met Mimi. He was going through the same problems I was, though he wouldn't admit it, and that's what brought us together. We were kind of quiet and we distanced ourselves from just about everyone except each other. Mimi always told me that he and I were soul mates and we would end up being together in the end. Boy, was she ever fucking wrong. We dated once for about five or six months but then shit at home got so damn bad I broke it off with him. We were in love, but it was just puppy love (How can a fourteen year old know what true love is anyways?). He can't stand to look at me now because the break up was so bad and therefore we barely talk anymore. He recently got out of rehab for depression and excessive alcohol intake. Everyone says he's been sober for a while now but I don't believe that for one minute. Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic. But hey, what can I say? He's not my problem any more so I shouldn't care what happens to him or anyone else.

You know what the worst part about them all being my ex best friends is? We all go to the same school and see each other every day of the week. I think the only ones out of the four of us that actually still talk are Mimi and Matt, but that's only because they're both popular. If I wasn't so "weird" as everyone says, I'd most likely be popular too but to tell you the truth I couldn't give a shit what people think of me. Why care what people think? They're just asshole's for having a stupid opinion about me anyways.

All of us, Tai, Mimi, Matt, and myself, have nick names stuck to us that pretty much tell you all that we're about. Tai's the "druggie", Mimi's the "sex addict", Matt's the "alcoholic", and I, Sora, am "suicidal". We can't lie about it, because it's true. But yet, I still sit and wonder, does everything happen for a reason? I didn't think that it did until something bigger than the four of us took control and affected all of our lives. Something we couldn't control and something we couldn't prevent from happening. You want to know what that something was? Here's my story...

*****TBC*****

Wow, that was a lot longer than I expected it to be. Review if you think it sounds good! Thanks to those who do review!