Title: Un Amor Tan Grande

Author: Beccy

Disclaimer: It's on my 'To buy when I'm rich and famous' list. Too bad that by the time I'm rich and famous the series would've already ended. All because SOME people don't know who to keep ;:cough:; Harm ;:cough:; and who to kick out ;:cough:; Vukovic ;:cough:;.

Summery: One night, one blissful night and then she was left alone with a 4 percent miracle and a broken heart. I suppose you could say it's my take on what would have happened if JAG had been signed up for another season. H/M FOREVER!

A/N: This came to me last night while I was trying to get to sleep. The next day at school this story was still rolling around in my head and wouldn't let me concentrate on what the teachers were saying, so when I got home I sat down in front of my computerand this is what I came up with. Hope you like it! Oh and keep in mind I have no idea how long it takes for a transfer to be approved yadda-yadda-yadda…Enjoy!

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If tomorrow never comes, I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
If tomorrow falls asleep, can you hold me first?
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on Earth

'Last night on Earth' Delta Goodrem

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Chapter 1: No such thing as a beautiful goodbye.

In a semi-awake state, Mac turned around and she was met with cold, empty air beside her. Quickly, she opened her eyes to find that beside her, there was indeed a vacant spot. She frowned and her heart began to beat wildly in her chest. Slowly she sat up.

"Harm," she called. Upon receiving no answer, she got up and began to search the apartment for him.

"Harm," she called, over and over again, but she never received an answer. She returned to her bedroom and flopped down on her bed. She felt tears begin to make their way down her face. She lay her head on the pillow he had used last night and breathed in deeply, smelling his scent, and closing her eyes trying to store away the smell forever. When she opened her eyes, she caught sight of a folded piece of paper with 'Sarah' written carefully in the middle, in Harm's handwriting, resting on her bedside table. She reached for it, unfolded it and began to read:

My Dearest Sarah,

I look at you while I write this and I can think of only one thing…you look like an angel. The soft moonlight playing with your features, making your hair glow as if it was cradling a halo. I want you to know that you ARE an angel. My angel.

I am truly sorry but I have to do this. I wish I didn't but I don't want to see you hate me when morning comes. I don't want to hate myself when I see hate reflected in your eyes, not what I'd wish it'd be…not love.

I'm leaving Sarah. By the time you would've woken up and read this I'd be long gone. The General didn't like that I'd woken him up so early but he managed to have me transferred in an hour. If you everthink aboutme, remember that i'm the man who loves you, the man who has always loved you but wouldn't get off his high horse to tell you, the man who will continue to love you 'til the day of his death.

I love you, Sarah MacKenzie.

Goodbye,

Harm

"I love you too, Harm," she whispered into the empty room. Quickly, she got up, wiped the tears that had fallen while she read, got dressed and headed out the front door.

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Not thirty minutes later, Mac came bursting through the bullpen doors and was greeted with two or three people going about their routine. Without a second though, Mac almost ran to stand before those big oak doors and knocked.

The moment she heard a faint 'enter' waft through the door, she entered the small room. She stood at attention before him for a few seconds before she was told to sit down.

"What can I do for you on this fine Saturday morning, Colonel?" The General asked her.

"Where is her?" She asked, completely forgetting that he was her CO and of higher rank.

"I can't tell you," he said softly.

"And why the hell not?" She practically screamed.

He took a deep breath before answering. 'This is going to kill her,' he thought unhappily. "Because he asked me not to," he said softly.

No matter how much she tried to fight it, tears filled her eyes and threatened to overflow. She was almost positive that that was going to be his answer, but hearing him say it made it all that more real. Slowly, she began to nod. Each time she blinked, a fresh tear would make its way down her face. Quickly, she stood and took a few seconds to wipe away her tears and straighten her composure before she walked out of the General's office and towards her car. Once she entered the car she waited a few minutes, with her head resting on the steering wheel,before she put the gear into drive and made her way home, still fighting back tears.

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He hadn't wanted to do it. He couldn't believe he was doing it. He was leaving everybody behind. All his friends…his soulmate. The woman he secretly loved and never had the guts to tell. The woman he had made love to only hours before. The woman whose heart he was breaking, and he had no idea he was doing it.

'It's for the best,' he thought. 'She doesn't feel the same way. She just wanted to comfort a friend in need.'

He gave the flight attendant a small smile as he grabbed hold of his boarding pass and started to make his way down the corridor towards the airplane. He stopped and looked around. He took a deep breath and turned back around. A tiny piece being chipped off his heart with every step he took.

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R 'n' R! Constructive criticism welcome. And if you get the chance, listen to the song above. It's great! I love it! You know what…just listen to her album 'Mistaken Identity'. The best!

BTW: If there is anyone out there with knowledge about the military rules and such who'd be willing to help me out every now and then tell me please!