a/n::: okayyyy. This is serious. I need you to review. I need to know how im doing. I dont want to bore you. And I dont want to continue posting chapters if your not going to enjoy them or read them. Ohh yea. I need a beta!

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So it all started off innocent and what not. No drama. No girls. No boys. Sometimes I wished it stayed like that, you know. But then I wouldn't be able to see my best friend Jacob Black grow up into this muscular 6 foot 7 god! Oh man. Jus thinking about him makes me hot. But anyways. I can't have him. You see ladies and gentlemen Jake and I have been best friends since we were in kindergarten. We always played with each other shared are cookies, slept next to each other during nap time and we even stayed close threw middle school and in high school.. Until... He joined the football team... Don't get me wrong I love football it's my favorite sport besides Volleyball. (I play for the school..I'm the star player bitchs). But when he joined we became distant, just a little. I didn't really mind you know. He wanted to hang with his "boys" Embry, Seth, Jared, Collin, Brady and Paul and I was always with my girls Kim, Clair, Rachel, Leah and the (fraternal) twins Tiffany and Krystal. Ok, So we became a wee bit more then a little distant , no biggy we lived on the same little reservation in La Push. We lived two houses down from each other, lucky me right. But anyways we still kept in touch, sometimes me and Jake would hang out at each others houses eat and watch movies and at school we all sat at the same table during lunch, until Jake got a girlfriend, that is. You see people, Jake never had girlfriends only friends with benefits so anyways, we all started seeing less of him especially me but guess who his damn girlfriend was .. This stuck up miss to prissy Rebecca. A cheerleader. Wait waiiiit . Not just some regular cheerleader the friggin captain of the group of dumb bitches..but the way I found out made me even more mad . Why was I mad . Because Jacob hid it from me, we were suppose to be Best Fuckin' Friends dammit and Rebecca, well fuck that cunt.. And guess what! He would have never told me unless I asked. So one day I went to his house.

One day after volleyball practice I decided to stop my Jake's house I was in a pair of black and white track pants and a tight white training tank top. It made my b cup boobies look fairly nice if i'd say so myself. So as I walked up to his house and I noticed his old school car there. Good he was home. When I got up to his door I knocked once and walked in. He never locked his damn door. No one really did during the day here. When I got in no one was in the living room or surprisingly the kitchen, with Jake always eating.

"Hello!.. Jake I know your here!" I threw my back pack on the couch and went and got a bag of Doritos and a orange Gatorade out the fridge Jake would definitely raise an eyebrow at the fact that I got his favorite Gatorade. O well he takes mine. all the time. As i was about to crack open the Gatorade I heard him

"I'm in my room munchkin" he yelled from his room. I groaned, I hated when he called me that.

"Imma kick your ass Tonto! That's not my name." I said as I walked into his room. Damn he has one of the messiest rooms ever.

"Geesh Jake. You need to clean this damn ro-." I was cut off as I tripped over a pair of shoes. And fell on my stomach. Fuck.

"Hahahahaha! That's what you get for talkin shit!" Jake bellowed.

"Yea whatever stinky." I said getting up trying not to smile. When I got up and picked up my chips and drink I went over and sat next to Jake on the bed, his back up against the wall and was playing some shooting game on his new x box.. He looked so sexy, his short hair was growing out and it was a little messy, he had on basketball shorts and a white muscle shirt mmm he looked so sexy fuck don't get distracted. Your on a mission bitch.I shook my head a little, my messy bun moving all the while.

"Wanna play" he asked

"Mmm I'm kool" I said opening my orange Gatorade and taking a sip.

"Wow you're just gonna drink up my last Gatorade huh?" he was still focused on the game and I could see his sexy little grin on his face.

"Yep you drink mine all the time"

"Ha okay I gotchu'." he cleared his throat and continued. "So what's up?. You're just here to hang out with your BFF" I laughed at him for saying BFF. He never knew what that meant until a couple days ago when I told him.

"Yea I miss you. We haven't hung out in so long you've been M.I.A (missing in action)" I said opening my mini bag of Doritos.

He paused his game and looked at me.

"Awwwwww! Munchkin missed me!" he cooed and gave me a tight hug and ruffled my messy bun making my hair look messier which caused me to make a bothered noise. He kept his small grin on his face as he released me from the hug but left one arm over my shoulder and and turned the TV onto cable.

"Yea soo where you been at school, like at lunch and on the weekends ?" I felt him freeze. He didn't move at all. What the hell was he hiding from me, was he in some Mafia or something.

I counted sheep in my head to see how long it would take for him to answer me. After 45 fuckin furry white sheep I decided to end the silence.

I moved from under his shoulder so that i was facing him and sitting on my legs."Jake whats up, you can tell me, whatever it is, were fuckin BFF's remember. Since we were 4. " I looked at him with a smile trying to help him relax but he didn't even look at me, now this made me nervous.

"Jake" I said seriously smile now gone"talk to me"

He sighed "I gotta' girlfriend"

What the hell, that's not so bad. Kinda sucks cause I secretly want him but oh well as long as he was happy.

"Okayyy annd, is that bad?"

"Noo not for me. Well kinda for me, you might hate me"

"Ohh well who is she. Who's the lucky girl keeping you away from your BFF" I asked, cracking a smile.

"Ummm don't get mad okay." He said sternly and pointed a long russet colored finger at me.

"Ohhhkay"i said, eyeing him suspiciously.

"I'm serious Nessa, promise me, actually as a Matter of fact you need to fuckin pinky promise" now he held out his pinky which was as long a my pointer finger. BUUUUt he hadn't asked me to pinky promise since we were in 7th grade and he ditched class with Embry and Paul.

"Okay I pinky promise" I said looking at him and then locking my pinky with his. He chuckled as our pinkys locked.

"Okay well me and... You promised remember.! Keep cool" he said looking at me straight in the eyes.

"Yea" I said getting frustrated." Come on man stop bein a little girl and spit it out already"

"Well what the fuck nessa iv seen you pissed it's not pretty and FUCK you I'm not a bitch" he said chuckling but then he got serious and took a deep breath. " I'm with Rebecca... Ha man I feel so much better" he breathed and his shoulders relaxed

I just looked at him. What the FUCK! RABECCA CLUTCH aka the schools Cunt because everyone has been in that, she's also the one who "accidentally" fuckin spilled her chocolate milk on my lap during lunch while walking past me! OH! and don't let me forget she told every one I was a lesbo which stopped the guy I liked in 9th grade to not ask me out to home coming! FUCK, THAT DAMN CUNT IS GOING OUT WITH MY SEXY BFF JAKE! How could he do this to me.

"Umm hello earth to Nessie" Jake said waving his hand in front of my face. I looked up at him as he took me out of my internal rage rant but before I could say anything he reminded me of the promise by holding up his pinky.

I sighed, mad at myself that I pinky promised this dick wad that I wouldn't get mad, so I said the only thing I could without letting my self explode.

"Uhh okay Jacob," I got up and threw my finished chips in the trash and grabbed my Gatorade.

"Where you going Nessie?" he looked hurt kinda. Good, he should be.

"I'm goin home I gotta shower. But uh yea congrats" before he could say anything I was out. I wanted to cry, I really did but I wasn't gonna allow myself, I just wasn't who cares if i felt a little betrayed. When I got home which was 2 minutes later. No one was home. No one was ever home. I lived with my adoptive parents Tati and her husband Doug. My birth parents died when I was 3 . They went out at night on a date and a drunk driver killed might sound harsh but for my own selfish reasons I'm glad I don't remember them.

I looked at the refrigerator and there was a note from my mom

-Out of town for the weekend with your dad. love you. Don't worry hunny we stocked the fridge up. Call if u need us-
Love mom and dad-

I couldn't help but smile. I had the whole house to myself. Fuck yea. Time to call up the crew... Ugh but wait 1st I need a shower, i still had volleyball sweat on my body

When I got out the shower I decided a change in plans to just hang out at home...alone. I brushed my hair and threw on some short black shorts, white tank top and calf high black and white striped socks, I put some pop corn in the microwave and went to the DVD player to put in my favorite movie. Stepbrothers. When the pop corn was done I put a bag of chocolate m&ms in it. It's the only way me and Jacob will eat popcorn. Fuck.

Jacob

Yes Ness and our so-called best friend Jacob is dating the the person who made the first couple years of high school a living hell, what a best friend.

"What the fuck Ness, no more pitty party, they wont even last month" I whispered to myself , I started to calm down and enjoy my movie.. Until I heard a knock on the door.

I got up and paused the movie so I wouldn't miss my favorite part. When I opened the door Jake was standing there looking at me with a big ol' boyish grin on his face.

"Hey Nessie Poo" ohh come onnnn, Nessie poo?come on Jake.

"Sup. " I said leaning against the door frame.

"Umm can I come in?" He frowned then continued. "Wait, why am I asking, of course I can. come in your casa is mi casa." he said now smiling and showing all of his pearly whites the squeezing next to me to get his tall frame threw the door way andd then all the sudden I felt something on my side when he was trying to get threw. It was soft but kind of hard. What the fuck I felt Jake's dick threw his black basketball shorts! Fuckity fuck fuck. Wait... Why was he semi hard.? Did he know I felt it?oh my gosh! Chill Nessa.

I snapped out of it and walked past Jake and sat on the couch, un-pausing my movie and acted as if i never felt anything spectacular on my waist and continued to watch my movie while Jake just stood there.

"Nessie..." Jake exasperated . " I'm sorry, I know you and Becky don't get along" wow fucking cunt lover over here was calling IT "Becky". "But I really like her" he continued. "I have a lot of fun with her Nessie and I don't want to lose you because of her."

I paused my movie once again and looked up at him. Fuck he was so sexy especially as he looked like a sad puppy the basketball shorts and navy blue hoodie just added to his sexy boyish-ness but besides those good looks he betrayed me. He was fucking the enemy . How do I know he was fucking her? Because she isn't "FUN", unless she is fucking you or sucking a dick. How do I know that because my cousin Emmett dated her before he left Forks and he told me everything I even saw a video too it was Fucking Ha. Lar. Ri. Ous!. But I wonder how long he has been Having this "fun" as he would call it.

"So Jacob, how long?" I asked narrowing my stare at him as i stuffed a small handful of popcorn and m&M's in my mouth.

"How long what? And stop calling me Jacob u never call me that"

"How long have u guys been fucking, stupid? Or is she still just giving you blow jobs with her nasty ass mouth!" I set the bowl down on the coffee table. "And your name is Jacob, JACOB!" I said a little louder than necessary. But I couldn't help it I was to fucking pissed.

"Renesmee! What the fuck! What makes you think were doing sexual shit.?" His stare flitted away from her and broke the tense eye contact they were having. Ha so now he was gonna play dumb but also call me by my full name.

I calmed my self down a bit and walked up to Jake so there was a good 2 feet between us. I crossed my arms and looked up at him.

"Jacob" I said. "I know you're with her for sex and shit like that but come on, her? You can find someone else 10 times better, prettier and shit fuckin smarter than that fuckin cunt, she embarrassed me Jacob! "

"Wow so this is about you? Renesmee get the hell over what she did to you, that was years ago. Yea she makes stupid little comments to you and about you but it's because she doesn't know better." He said and shrugged like it was nothing. Now i was started to get pissed again

"She doesn't know better!? What the fuck Jacob she is 17 years old! You defend her like she is a 5 year old!"

"Nessa I like her and I'm not breaking up with her just because your to sensitive and can't take a few jokes!"

I moved closer to Jake I so now i was probably about 5 inches away from him now

"Are you serious, a few fuckin jokes! You know what Jake... FUCK YOU and get the fuck out!" im gonna be honest it hurt telling my best friend to leave my house like that. But he fucked up. He hurt me.

"Wow. Okay Ness." he said looking shocked and hurt but He walked out slamming the door.

I probably just lost my best friend in the whole world. I wanted to cry. Dammit I needed to cry. So I went to the bathroom locked the door and cried for the first time in 3 years. When I was done crying like a little bitch, I went to the living room turned everything off and went to my room took my socks and shorts off and went to bed.

I woke up hearing someone tapping on my window. Like usual it was probably Kim she always sneaks to Jared's house at night and comes to my house in the morning acting like she spent the night. She did this so many times I could open my window and go back to bed in my sleep.

So I got up half asleep, everything blurry and in my underwear, unlocked the window and pulled it up and walked back to my bed with my eyes closed not even looking at Kim. I was too tired. Then I laid back down not even bothering getting under the covers.

"Damn Nessie I never new your ass could look any better" said a deep husky voice from across my room. I layed there frozen. What the fuck, that's not Kim.

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