Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha.
Authors Note: I'm postponing going to bed. So I decided to write a drabble. Gosh, I'm a sucker for romance!
Keeping Her
You don't know what you do to me. You have no idea.
When I feel your breath at the back of my neck, your body close to mine, hear your heartbeats drumming so close to my own, I can't stop my mind from betraying me. Showing me everything I try to deny.
For you are so innocent. So soft. And you smell so damn good that I more than once had to stop myself from burrowing my nose at the crock at your neck.
All the fantasies I've ever had swirls and spins in my minds eye reaching for my longing with seductive whispers. "She loves you", it says, "She swore never to leave", with urgency it grabs at the heart with piercing claws, "You'll die if she does".
You smell so good! Will you stay? I can't make you stay with me. I may be a jerk, but I'm not stupid. I know what I can offer. And it ain't enough.
But I want it.
I wish I was a human in you time. That I was born and raised there. Maybe then things would have been different.
I want her.
To even consider it is painful when faced with reality.
I'm just a fool. A naive moron, an idiot for even considering that she might…- That she might be happy here in the past with me. I can never make her happy.
So why can't I just stop thinking about her in that way?
I will never have her. But I will stay with her for as long as she lets me. Even if it is just for a little while, I can pretend that she holds me for other reasons than the one now. It is my guilty pleasure.
Is it a sin for a sinner to love his sins?
Does it matter? I'm headed for hell anyway so I will hang on to this for as long as it lasts.
I will pretend I'm keeping you, Kagome.
-FIN-