A/N: okay so listen up over hear..I am NOT good at grammar and spelling...or punctuation so if you have a problem with it...just say you wanna be my beta and the problem will be fixed...this story does NOT include anything from another book or movie besides twilight so don't expect anything.i would have published more chapters but i wanna see how you guys like the story first. This was the first story i ever writen in twilight fan-fic...be critical or be sweet but i really wanna know if its good so dont be modest and tell the truth! i wont bite you or give you a paper cut in front of jasper..i swear just tell me if you like it:) well enjoy!
First Look At The Beginning.
Time and time again I would always think of how my life would be if I had a family. It would never work out because it all boiled down to me being a freak. I'd ruin every chance I had to be a normal girl. Ha! Normal.
Right. A girl you call normal is a teen-ager who can age, go through life with out a care until she reached senior year, hanging out with friends till all hours at night... I cant even do that. I may look young but my life is way old. I, Linda, am 500 years old, but I simply look like a mere 15 years old. I am neither vampire nor human.
People would say I relate to blade very well. That vampire guy who was born when his mother was a vampire but father was a human. He is unrealistic because vampires cannot have children. If it were possible then I would be a half-breed. But nature gets the best of reality. _ I was born in 1508. My parents were deep in love and happy. Every one they knew was jealous of them. Even an immortal beauty that took my fathers human life away. My mother who thought she was all alone now because my father couldn't be around as a newborn vampire crazy for blood, found she was pregnant with me 1 month after his transformation. My father was happy but knew it was still too dangerous to be around her so; he did the things she needed from a distance.
8 months had past and my birth time was close. I guess you could say I got eager in the womb and caused an early birth. My father and mother were both happy but my father was still newborn and his thirst still wasn't under control. From a mile away he could smell my birth. The blood from my birth. The blood from my mother. He tried to control it but it was too much for him. He came in a sprint and when he got there, he bit my mother. It was a sad day for my mother going through birth then through venom spreading through her veins. My mother then realized -through her pain- that I was still connected. She cut the umbilical cord but it was to late. By the time she cut the cord I had already had a little of the venom in my body. I felt little pain compared to my mother.
Her pain was longer also. Now my body is different. I do not have a pulse but I grew until I was 15. I am as pale as any vampire but I am as warm as any human would be. My scent is undetectable and when I run you can't hear me. I am the most dangerous predator of all time. You probably wonder what I mean by 'I wonder what its like to have a family' when I have a father and mother. Well I don't have neither a mother nor a father. When my mother was done with her transformation and was able to focus, she saw me on the floor lying there. Not moving. She thought I had died and left with out looking back. My father came back and saw me also but he took me to Barry me and when I opened my eyes he was shocked, but happy. He named me Linda, Spanish for pretty. Even though he was nothing Spanish and neither was my mother but they went to Spanish countries. When I turned six, he was burned alive for being known as a vampire. The women who turned him into a vampire was burned alive as well.
They thought I was a human being held hostage so an old couple took me in as their child. But they soon kicked me out at 10 when I killed there dog and drank its blood. They said they didn't want to kill me so I either left or died by the village people. I chose to stay, and they burned me alive, but they couldn't kill me. They called me the devils true child and kicked me out of the village. I went to another village but again, they burned me alive and I just left. I've been through so much that I just decided to stay locked up in a cave.
I locked my self up for most of my life. I hope to stay here till the end of time, so I don't ruin anyone else's life. I can't stand to hurt anyone else or be hurt. If I just stay here with out anyone knowing of my existence then I'll be fine. I go out sometimes just to keep up with the times. Also to get some food. I mostly just sleep to let the time pass. It gets so boring just to stay awake and do nothing. I get powers too. Useless ones I might add. Why am I going to want with super-strength? Or even to change my looks?
No matter what I look like I'll still be a freak of nature. I'll still be 15 and I'll still go through pain. If I had the power to find my mother, that would be helpful. Not powers that can kill you with one thought and bring you back to life with another. It's painful to live this thing we call life. I cry myself to sleep everyday, wishing that I had a family that would love me. It doesn't even have to be a family. It could just be one person. I dream of that day to come when someone needs me as bad as I need them. "LINDA DON'T GO! PLEASE, DON'T GO! I LOVE YOU!" I awoke in tears. What was that? I started hypervenalating. Where was I going? Why was I going? What was I doing out of my cave? Who was she? Those were all the answers I wanted to know. I stood up all night thinking about it. I didn't eat the whole day because I was seeing if I knew the girl. I didn't though. The girl who had brown eyes, and long goldish blondish hair. It was curly wavy but so beautiful. I needed to know whom she was and if she truly loved me. I just needed to know. Then I would sleep and leave it alone forever. Not bothering the girl.
I went back to sleep the next night. I was dead tired for the hours I missed last night. Then I saw her again. She was staring at me with kind eyes. They were curious too "hello, my name is renesmee, and what is yours?" she asked in a kind gentle tone. "My name is Linda." I said awkward. "Where am I? Am I in your dream?" I asked suspicious. Then I realized I got a new power. It was to see and communicate through people's dreams. "Yes this is my dream. Well Linda I hope we become good friends in the future" she replied. Those words were the words that made my decade. I get new powers randomly. Probably because I'm the only one of my kind so, I get all the bad and good of it. It's kind of annoying because I don't know when or how I get these "gifts", I just get them.
"Would you like to meet my family?" the little girl renesmee asked. She wanted ME to meet her family? Really?
"Sure" I answered.
I would have a friend for the first time ever
It was time for change, and I was willing for it to happen. I met her family but it was only for a second then she was awoken and the dream faded away along with her.
Renesmee and I have been talking for two weeks now. Well not actually talking, cause I don't have anything to share with her. If I tell her my past she'll probably stop talking to me. But she tells me everything about her. I know she's a half-breed. A true half vampire, half human child. She's 61/2 and she goes through this weird phase to becoming and immortal. She doesn't know about it but I sort of got it from her, well not technically from her either. I have this other "gift" that if I touch someone, I could get there whole past and existence if I wanted to. She's turned human for a certain amount of time that is up to the body, and then when the body gets to its limit it brings back the vampire blood and she goes back to the way she was before. She's very sweet and innocent from what I see in her whole life. She makes friends with every one and has control over her lust for blood. She would be the perfect friend, sister, lover, daughter, and niece anyone would want. I'm just afraid to meet her.
If I decide to see this. PERFECT being, would I ruin her happy life?
Would I be the reason her happiness fades into sadness and despair?
I wont do that. I wont allow my self too, but I will check up on her...from a distance.
I'll merely just go see how she's doing, not physical contact but just to see if she's okay. If her transformation from human to immortal was safe without my protection. If it wasn't then I'd introduce myself to her family and protect her until she was back to normal, then I'd leave. Yeah, that was a great idea. When I went to sleep I dreamt another dream with renesmee and I told her that I was going it visit but just to check on her. She was angry for a while. "Why wont you stay longer?" "Because if I stay I might end up hurting you. If you value your life as much as I value it then you would understand." I looked in her eyes and I knew she saw my pain. "Why wont you tell me about your self. Is it because you did something bad?" she was curious to know me. That was bad. "My whole...existence shouldn't even be here. I am a freak of nature. You think you're a freak because there's only five of your kind around but I know for a fact that I'm the only one of my kind. Please. If you even care the slightest bit of my string of sanity I still hold on to, please just don't argue and accept my offer," I begged. She hated it but she agreed. "I wont be telling the day either so you wont be looking for me." I should have told her before because her face was red with fury. "THATS NOT FAIR!" she yelled. "Renesmee..." I sighed. " Don't make this harder than it already is. If life takes the wrong course we will meet, but you'll regret it." I warned her. I wanted her to say stay away, but I wanted her to say stay with me please. "I'll be waiting for the wrong course in life, Linda. Till I meet you I won't be changing my decision." she grabbed my hands. I looked into her deep brown eyes. They showed determination. I smiled but then frowned.
"Renesmee. The pain you don't know will scare you more than anything you know. Don't wait for that time because they'll be no going back to the past. You will wish and beg for it back but it'll be to late." "Trust me. If I thought of it that way then I wouldn't have talked to you. I'm a big girl. Let me deal with that part." she pointed her fragile fingers at her arm and started flexing it. I laughed at how she said she was strong but she looked like a toothpick. "I'm still not telling you what day." I grinned at her. "Fine! But I'll just be keeping a look out everyday then." She scowled at me. "I'll keep that in mind" "okay so what are you-" she couldn't finish because she was awoken. I woke at the same time. So she'll be waiting for that bad course. I'll have to be extra careful.
Today would be the day I go see renesmee. I got up and did what ever I could to not look noticeable. I wore a pair of black kaprees with a white shirt that I had stolen a few months back. I didn't want to ware shoes but that'd be too noticeable, so I put on some black slippers. Better than nothing I guess. I brushed my hair but I didn't have much to do with it. I put it in a ponytail with braids hanging down. Just to look normal. I was ready in 10 minuets. I started running because I was far away from where she was. I was in New Mexico. I think. And she was in a place called forks, Washington.
Well I still had a little time. Renesmee said she was going shopping with her father and grandmother to day around 12:00pm. I'm pretty sure it was only 7 or 8 in the morning. I'd make it. I was half way there when I realized that the world was different then about 2 decades ago. It had more houses and less land. More vehicles and fashionable ones I might add.
Better looking clothes to. I hadn't realized before because I didn't want to see, but now I was forced to see. It was beautiful. I could've sworn if I weren't already in a rush too seeing my new beloved friend renesmee, I would have stopped and appreciated nature for the first time since...well, ever! More than half way there I realize that it's way too early so, I decided to stay in one state for a couple of hours then start running again. By what someone told me, I was in the south part of California. The scenery was beautiful in California. There were so many stars on the pavement, and they had names in them! They actually do that! I enjoyed coming out. It made me feel alive. I got so side tracked by the view that I for got the time. I asked someone in they streets for help. "Excuse me, sir. Do you mind telling me the time?" "Sure it's...11:45." Oh-No! I was ganna miss her! "Thank you" I barely mention turning. I went as far as I could walking, then when it got to a lot of trees I ran. I ran so fast I made planes look slow. I would get there in no time. I was in Washington in 10 min. I slowed down to pase my self. I was getting a little tired.
As I passed the sign that said: the city of forks welcomes you, my heart started pounding. I was going to see her... renesmee. I slowed myself to a walk to look more normal. If I made myself stand out, She'd come after me in a heartbeat. I was at the store with 30 seconds to spare. Blending in wasn't that hard considering there were teenagers out side. I sat down on a bench pretending to read a paper for the time left remaining. Ten seconds later I see renesmee with a women. I think her name was Esme. My heart started up again. There she was. My friend. Standing right in front of me but I couldn't do anything.
While she walked into the store I kept my eyes on my paper but from the corner of my eye I swore I'd seen her look at me.
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