A/N: Finally watched Durarara! recently and decided that Shizuo is officially my favourite character... okay, so it's a toss up between Shizuo and Izaya.

Though it's mostly only because I'm really a lot like him personality-wise.

So here is a drabble-maybe-story about an OC who went to Raira Academy with Shizuo and co. set somewhere early in the anime.

This was written to the song 'Hohoemi no Kage' from the Durarara!'s official soundtrack volume 2.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Durarara! that belongs to Ryohgo Narita and Suzuhito Yasuda.

Summary: She was the girl who wanted to hang out with Shizuo - even with his monstrous strength and short-temper. All because for some reason, despite the fear in the people around him, she just couldn't leave him alone. Even after 3 years of her absence. GirlOC

~Begin~

I wanted to say something as we were standing in that alley. Anything. Just so he would turn around and look at me.

But when I opened my mouth... no words came out. Not even air.

Because I knew anything I could think to say wouldn't be good enough.

Like some lame excuse.

He hates me.

But what else did I expect? After years of... whatever it was we had... I just left...

He hates me.

... without a word to anyone.

He hates me.

With a blank expression, I stared at the glass of whiskey in my hand as I sat on a stool at the bar.

He definitely hates me.

I closed my eyes and sighed before throwing my head back and letting the liquid burn down my throat. Then I moved onto the next shot with half-closed eyelids, a drunken glaze to my eyes.

Heiwajima Shizuo hates me...

... and I can't bear it.

~End~

A/N: So? What do you think? Please rate, author fav/alert, story alert/fav and review to tell me!

OH, and should this become more... NO, this is NOT going to be some love-sick comedy. Because I suck at writing romance. The format will be like the anime too, so there will be something like anonymous chat room dialogue at the beginning of each chapter and revelations about the past between her and Shizuo will slowly come to light through the course of the story.

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