I'm Chasing, Crying, Crushing; All Because of You.

Preface:

Hating You For Wanting Him

Edward's POV.

I watch as she moves from side to side, swaying her hair around her body. She gorges, oh yes, very beautiful. The only thing about her, she is the most unavailable girl in school. Why you may ask? Because she is dating Jacob Black, a college football star that is dearly loved in the small town of Forks. My name is Edward Mason and I am a senior at Forks Academy, the private school in Forks, Washington. You can say that I am the playboy of the school. My girlfriend is Rosalie Hale, the hottest girl in the school and the bitchiest. I date her for the school's entertainment I guess you could say. The only girl I really want is the one dancing with Alice Brandon in the school's gym at our annual snow ball. The reason she is dancing alone? Her 'boyfriend' couldn't make it, to be with her so she has to go alone. It doesn't really matter; she knows every guy in the school, including me, wants her. I sigh and turn towards Rose, hoping she will wants to go soon, so I don't have to stare at her any longer.

"Rose you ready to go?" I ask, praying she will say yes.

"Of course not sweetie. We haven't even danced yet." She answers, smiling up at me. I mean the girl really is beautiful, but Bella is more. It's because she is beautiful inside and outside, instead of just a cod hearted bitch like Rose.

I sigh and stand up, offering her my hand so we can dance, and then get the hell out of here. Of course, she leads us over to where SHE is dancing. I look over her slim body in a dark blue dress that hugs her curves. Her long natural wavy hair sways in rhythm to her hips as she moves. The only thing is, at the Academy, you have to share a room and mine was the only one left open, so I have to share a room with her. I have to watch as she skips around the room humming and smiling. Occasionally she will smile at me then go get ready for school. Her beautiful brown eyes will look at me and I feel like she is looking into my soul. Am I in love with her? Probably. But for some reason I love Rose too.

I remember the one night that I actually got to see her naked. She was drunk and stumbling around the room. I came at the exact moment when she was changing out of her clothes. I cleared my throat to let her know I was there, but she just turned around and giggled. I took a step toward her, knowing I shouldn't but couldn't help myself. She didn't seem to mind when I was standing right in front of her, hold her naked flesh in my hands; the smooth sides of her stomach. I brought my hand up towards her naked breast, as her eyes widen I took that opportunity to kiss her, finally kiss her. It was like fireworks in the winter; unbelievable, perfect, and a little wet. I kissed her like I have never kissed a girl before and I pulled her thigh up to my waist so she would wrap her legs around me. She slowly understood, from the alcohol in her system and wrapped them around me as I walked her over to my bed in the corner. I slowly let my hands roam her body, causing her wet juices to come.

"Edward? Edward! Hello?" Rose was yelling at me, trying to regain my attention away from her. I blink once and realize that I was staring at her. I turn my head back towards Rosalie and smile, showing her that she has my attention. That night was the best night of my life, until Rosalie walked in of the morning after and she freaked out of course. She just looked confused and walked to her room, probably wondering why she was in the bed naked with me. She never did say anything about it, or tried to do it again. So I of course just let it go, not really wanting to upset her or anything.

"Edward! You're still not listening to me!" Rosalie all but shrieks at me. Good god, if the guys knew how much trouble it is to keep her satisfied, they would not even bother looking at her; which really they don't because she will kick their ass. It kind of makes me feel like an ass, but the one time I tried to stand up for her she punched me, then took care of the other guys. So I have learned that she likes to handle things herself.

"Yea, sorry. I got distracted. So what do you want to do?" I ask her, just waiting until I can go back to my dorm, also hoping that she wouldn't want to have sex tonight. I mean the girl can go all night long, a guy's dream. But I am so tired of it, I just want to dump her and date her.

"Come on, Edward. Let's go mingle. I haven't talked to Bella or Alice yet, so we have to talk to them. And where is Jasper? He was suppose to be here already." Rose rambles on, but I stop listening and get up to take her hand, leading her towards the crowd where she is. I stop in front of her, smile and do my normal thing, trying to be polite. Rosalie converses with Alice, truly ignoring Bella. I guess she is still mad about the whole cheating thing. I look over to Bella, smiling and loving how she smiles shyly back at me.

"Hey Bella." I say, wanting to make her more comfortable. She is her. I look over her makeup covered face, smiling slightly in spite of myself. There is just something about her small heart-shaped face that makes my lips break out into a crooked smile. I look at her, seeing her cheeks heat up in a beautiful pink blush as she says hey back to me quietly.

"So what's up?" I ask her, shoving my hands into my pockets roughly, trying to be as casual as usual. She smiles at me again, trying to act the same way. It is a bit awkward since we had sex.

"Just trying to get out of here. I have to meet Jake later." She smiles at me apologeticly, knowing I'm totally jealous of her and Jake. "Er, sorry; didn't mean to sound like I was trying to get away from you or anything." She smiles again, blushing her beautiful red. I search her face for any trace that would explain why should would tell me sorry. I mean, I am the one flawnting my girlfriend in her face.

"Ah, no worries. Rose and I are going back to the room, so knock if you come back." I know it's low to imply that Rose and I are going to have sex, but I can't help it; she makes me so jealous when she talks about Jacob. Her smile falters a little, but she holds it up.

"Oh, well I am going to be spending the night at Jake's, so that isn't a problem." Yea, like that innocent little tone and those big brown eyes can fool me. I know what she is trying to do. She is trying to make me even more jealous because she didn't like it that I pointed out that me and Rose are going to fuck. She bats those long brown lashes at me, smiling like she knows exactly how I want to rip stupid little Jacobs head off and feed it to my dog. That may be a little bit much, but I HATE the guy!

"Yea, whatever; look I'll see you later. Come on Rose, I want to go." I tell her sternly, just wanting to get away from Bella and her talking about Jacob. Rose turns around clearly surprised, but the look I give her is enough to tell her to just come along with me. Bella looks upset that she pissed me off, but I don't really care.

I just really can't take this cat and mouse game anymore. I can't take the way I see her with Jacob, the way she smiles at him, the way he holds her. I just can't take it anymore! I mean what does that girl want from me? I would date her is she would just give me the damn chance. I'd jump off a damn building for that girl! I stop angrily away, Rose following me, towards the exit. I don't stop until I am at my dorm, with the key in the hole. I snap the lock after Rose comes in and throw my shirt in the floor. Coming up behind Rosalie, I grab her firm breats in my hands while she hums in pleasure.

"Come on baby, take off that shirt." I whisper huskily in her ear. She rolls her shoulder, her strap falling slightly down her shoulder. "Could I have some help?" She whispers back.

As always the last thought out of my mind was the sentence I said in my head every day, after thinking of Bella then banishing her from my mind.

I'm Chasing after you, Crying over you, Crushing for you; All Because Of You.