I was bored and slightly emotionally unhinged while studying for my Chemistry trials tomorrow. So this is a very emo rant.
Set during the dance when Zero meets Yuuki for the first time after a year.
I remember this feeling.
It's so familiar, something I know too well but seem to have forgotten. It begins with a sudden chill down my spine; the icy cold in my body as if I've been plunged into an ice bath. This numbness that engulfs me, rendering me unable to do a thing, paralyzed in more ways than one.
Suddenly I'm deaf and dumb. I can hear my own screams so loud and piercing, but nobody else in this crowd seems to have noticed. I can't hear a thing in this party. I'm blind to the entire crowd.
But I can hear you; hear your voice taunting me. There're so many things I need to say to you but I can't utter a single word. In this pitch black darkness, you're all that I see and I see you turning your back leaving me. And it's killing me. You're killing me.
I want to move, to run away; run from this pain; run from you, the cause of my pain. But I can't, I stand rooted to this spot unable to take my eyes off you.
There's this ache that shouldn't be here. It may be my lungs because every breath I take is harder than the last. It may be my stomach, growling from the hunger. It may be my heart, as it takes itself apart piece by microscopic piece.
Sum it all together and it's this pain that's beyond words. All this, just from watching you across a crowded room. Watching you walk away, once again.