Title: What they think

Summary: So this is just a wee few chapters about how Sirius and Remus got together. RLSB

Author: Sammaintha-x-

Pairings: Remus Lupin-x-Sirius Black, WolfStar

Ratings: I'd only place this as Pg, perhaps M. Not very explicit or anything, with barely any inappropriate references.

Author's Notes: So hiya! My name's Sam, and this is my very first Fan Fiction! It supports my favourite Harry Potter pairing, Sirius Black and Remus Lupin.

I'd just adore if you could review, but flames shall be used to fry my eggs. Thank you, and enjoy!

What Sirius thinks…

One day I looked him, and everything changed. It had been a fairly ordinary Saturday so far. Obviously we had no classes, so me and my fellow Marauders had spent the morning out under the big oak tree, the one near the north shore of the Lake?

You know the one I mean. Absolutely perfect for days like that one, days where you think that the sun might be a few too many miles closer to Earth than usual. Usually I hate days like that, they're far too hot for me, and-- wait, what was I talking about?

Oh, right. So there we were, sitting under our tree (yes, OUR tree. We carved out names on it in third-year) when all of a sudden Peter gives a shriek. Y'know, I'd love to be a mate and tell you that it was more a manly exclamation, but it wasn't. It was a high-pitched, girly, ear-splitting shriek, and it nearly scared poor old James into the Lake. It was funny, really, because just at that moment he had been giving Evans the 'eyes', and for once she hadn't been attempting to hex him right off the face of the planet. It may just be me, but I reckon she might be taking a fancy to him. And about time, too, it's been nearly seven years!

But anyway, this isn't about Prongs and Evans for once, this is about me and… well, you'll find out that later.

So, where was I? Oh yes, Peter gives a shriek worthy of Lily after she found out that we stole her diary (very funny day, that was, she managed to turn James purple! I had polka dots for weeks after that) and scrambles up, knocking Moony rather harshly into the tree. Honestly, he's such a klutz. If he didn't have me Remus and James grabbing his hand every few seconds, he'd probably have broken every single bone in his body right now. Pomfrey would just go-- no, mind back on track, I'm nearly there.

So Remus is smacked against the tree rather unceremoniously, and his head lands in the exact place that the sun is filtering through the branches. Now, it wasn't like I'd never seen Remus' hair before, but this had been the first time that I'd ever really looked, you know? I'd never noticed that it isn't just brown, it's more… sort of like the colour of Butterbeer, with honey streaks running through it. Cheesy, right? Yeah, I know, but it's true. He really does have beautiful hair. It's hard to describe though, because it's unique. It's Moony hair. The sort of colour that you'll never see on anybody else, because it's his, and his alone. Y'know? But anyway, on with the story.

So I'm looking at his hair in all its sun-haloed glory, and then I realise that he's laughing. Laughing at what I don't know, though I later find out that Pete had jumped four metres into the air because of a spider. A plastic spider. Honestly, who's scared of spiders? They're about as big as our thumbnails, and they're also good company when--

Look, never mind about the spiders. So Remus is laughing, and suddenly I realise that he has perfect teeth. They're all straight and white, and his tongue pokes out between them when he's smiling. And I mean really smiling, not just giving us that 'whatever-you-say-but-I-know-better' smile that he reserves for me and James. Smiling when he actually thinks something's funny, and he doesn't mind laughing at it. That isn't often, because he cares so much about tact, and peoples' feeling, yadda yadda yadda… but that's okay, because it just makes him even more lovable to me .It means he really cares what people think, and doesn't want to hurt them even if it's funny. Really sweet.

But anyway. Merlin, stop sidetracking me, I have a story to tell! So I look at his teeth as he laughs, and then I look at his lips. They aren't particularly full or plump; in fact, they're rather thin, but not so thin that they disappear when he smiles. Moony's too perfect to have disappearing-lips. But anyway. I looked at his lips, and then I thought something that, up until that moment, I would never have even dreamed of thinking: I wonder what it would be like to kiss those lips?

Now, as soon as I'd thought it I felt guilty, and stupid, and-- well, I felt extremely confused. I mean, this was Moony I was talking about! This was Moony that I was dreaming of kissing, Remus' hair that I was imagining running my fingers through… I was hooked well and truly.

So, as you can imagine, I'm pretty flustered, finding out that I may just have a crush on my best friend… my male best friend. But honestly, how could I NOT have a crush on him? I mean, all you have to do id look into those gorgeous big eyes, like melted amber they are, and you know that there's no hope. It's like they're specifically made not so that he can see, but so that he can trap admirers with his stupid, beautiful 'I'm-angry-at-you-but-still-sexy' look. It's ridiculous that one person can hold so much in one set of eyes.

But he can, and so when he turned his head and looked at me, I near fainted. He had that 'you're-being-quiet-and-now-I'm-half-worried-half-suspicious-because-you're-never-quiet' look in his eyes, and I thought I might just die right then. How could he look at me with those insanely insightful, powerful, all-seeing eyes and not realise that I was hopelessly fallen for him?

But he didn't realise, or he's a very good pretender, because he just turned away after giving me one last glance that very clearly said "should I be worried?"

If I had nearly fainted from fear when he first looked at me, then I would have passed clean out from relief had I not been leaning against the edge of the tree myself.

He hadn't noticed, and I was still safe to pretend that nothing was wrong, and everything was normal.

And I did pretend, and still do. I make sure I only ever look at him when his attention is diverted, perhaps when he's reading, or maybe when he's sleeping. He looks best when he's sleeping, because it's the only time that he ever really relaxes, the only time that those worry lines constantly creased into his forehead fade away, and he actually looks his age and not thirty years older. He can stop worrying, about the Wolf, about his future, about his scars…

I love his scars. They're beautiful, and wonderful, and they show that he's strong and brave, the bravest person that I've ever met. I have tried to tell him this, we all have, but he'll have none of it. He's convinced that they're hideous, and he actually thinks that they make him less of a person. He could never be less of a person because of a few scars. They make him more of a person, more beautiful. Sometimes I'll lie awake for hours on end, watching him and wishing that I could run my hands over those scars, long his back, up his chest, through his hair… He has me thinking things that a boy like me most certainly should NOT be thinking.

But I don't mind. Hey, I'd better go now. Prongs is staring at me, probably wondering why I've been scribbling in a book for the last half an hour. No doubt if I keep going he'll grab it off me, and that is the LAST thing I need. I'd die if Moony found out how I felt. He'd probably be disgusted, scared of me… he'd probably think I'd grope him in his sleep or something. Ha. I'd rather do it while he was awake… Anyway, thanks for listening to me ramble, and I might be able to write something later.

Yours hopelessly,
Sirius Black

Sirius Black scribbled one last sentence into the tattered old book, and then shut the cover. Standing, grinning and walking over to his friend, James, he didn't notice as the large, scrawled writing that he had been inking across the page just moments before had disappeared, leaving the page as crisp and fresh as it had been before he began to write.

So? What did you think? It's very rushed, I was just so eager to get my first chapter up!

I'll be posting James' chapter later on tonight, so it should be there for you. I know that I'm doing a Remus chapter, and probably a Peter… I'm still deliberating whether to do a Lily or not. I don't think I will. What do you think? Please take the time to review, whether you liked it or not. Eternl aroha for every review recieved )

Also, I'm looking for a Beta, anybody interested?