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chapt. 1

"He's gone, he's gone" was the only thing coming out of my mouth, other than screaming. My dad has already sent me back to Renee. He left 3 months ago; my dad could not handle me when I was like that. He told me when I was feeling better I could go back and live with him, I really don't think that will ever happen. Most likely I am going to be stuck at Renee's my whole life. There is nothing on this planet, except for Edward but he isn't coming back, for me so my life is meaningless. The first month at my mom's she let me go through this, she apparently thought it would help, then after those 30 days, we did everything...

Almost everyday she pulled me along to do something crazy, and Phil is fine with it. She makes me call Charlie at least once a day. "Bella" she explains, "he loves you, and worries about you, and he misses your constant company." If he misses me so much then he wouldnt have sent me here, he would have kept me there, the closest place that still holds the fading memory of Edward. A lot of nights I spent staring out the window, the moon has so far always been there, but i know that is not going to happen forever, soon its just going to betray me, just like everything else.

Staring, just staring out of my window I see something flash by. I knew I was imagining, so I just kept on staring. There it was again, finally realizing what it was, closed my eyes, whispered this wish, "I wish Edward would come back for me, and never leave."

"Bella what are you doing," Renee askes. "Nothing, nothing at all." I said smiling.

Epov

3 months, 2 days, 11 hours, 49 minutes, 17 seconds. That is how long I have been away from my ... Not mine anymore, Bella. She looked so sad when I left her in the forest. Edward, I mentally screamed, stop thinking about her. She is better without you! It's about 10 pm. I wish I was human so I could sleep away the pain. Up in the sky a shooting star, I used to think those were Earth's little miracles, that was until Bella came into my life. She was my miracle, I knew it was stupid but I closed my eyes and whispered, "I wish I could do the right thing with Bella." That was stupid, I scolded myself, things like that don't happen. Might as well just take my misery right here, right now. Suddenly, Bella's lullaby filled the room, my ringtone for a call. Alice, it read. I relectently opened it. "Hello" I said sheepishly. "Edward finally you answer your phone. I had a vision," I imediatly froze. "you need to go hunting, or something bad will happen," she warned. "Thanks Alice, is Bella okay?" I asked curosily. "I thought I wasn't supposed to be looking for her," she snapped at me, then she hung up with a hugh. Suddenly, I felt a sudder go through me, that was weird, vampires don't usually have that to happen. I passes it as thinking of Bella, but then again I always thought about Bella. I decided that I should go hunting before 'something bad happens'.

I quickly shot into the forest and snapped three deers necks and drank, I didn't really taste it anymore. When I was about half way satisfied, and couldn't stand being out here anymore. I ran back to my 'hiding' place and sat in my corner. After being there for who knows how long. When, suddenly it felt like half of me was missing. It was a different feeling than when I left Bella, but then again it was the same. I didn't know what to do so I called alice and told her how I felt, she called my crazy. I knew I shouldn't have done that. I knew that if I ever went back home, Alice wouldn't let me forget that.

Sorry it is kinda short...its the first chapter so i am going to see how you guys like it...please r&r