Lee-kun,
I know you're thinking that its odd to get a letter from me. But I have something I have to get off my chest. I don't know if you'll ever read this, although I hope you do, and I hope you can understand.
I wanted to tell you how much I love you , Lee. I've loved for a long time, but by the time I realized, it was too late. I was already engaged to Neji. You were a great best man, did I ever tell you that? You looked so handsome in your black and green kimono. I cried at our wedding, if you remember. A waterfall of tears, equal parts joy and sorrow. Love and loss.
I've always loved you and Neji, since the day I was teamed up with you guys. For different reasons of course, the two of you are as different as night and day. I love Neji's grace. His power and steadiness. His calm, cool demeanour under the most stressful of situations. His determination to keep his arms reaching for seemingly unattainable dreams. He's water and air, always adapting easily, on the drop of a pin.
But I love you for your loyalty. Your stubbornness and unwavering faith. You're strength, speed agility is breath-taking to behold, a testament to all your hard work and indomitable spirit. You never allow yourself to be swallowed in despair, a trait that is rare and special. To his water and air, you are fire and earth. Passionate and unmoving when you make up your mind. In truth, I'm probably more like you, hot-headed and independent.
Which is why, when years ago, I came to the fork in the road, I went left, to Neji, instead of right to you. I needed his balance. We have a harmonic relationship and give and take comes easily for us. You and I would have had a very passionate, whirl wind kind of love I think. I've always wondered what would have happened, had I not followed my feet to the left, and I think it will always be my one regret. Would we have been happy? I like to think so. But I feared the possibility of our similar natures colliding. If you add fire to fire, it burns until its either out of control, or until it burns itself out. I didn't want our relationship to do either, or at least that's what I tell myself.
As I write this to you, my child kicks inside me. Neji's child. It has dawned on me, that I can't go back now. I can never be at your side, kiss you, run my hands through that ridiculous hair of yours. I can't ever feel your hands on my hips, as you hold me close. I mourn this loss, so very badly. If you only knew.
You once told me that girls are like flowers, and that we only bloom fully for one person, the other half of our soul. I love Neji, with all my heart, and I know that we'll be happy together. But I will never fully bloom, Lee. Because unlike other girls, I was meant for two people. My soul is only two-thirds whole. Maybe in another life, it will be complete.
With you.
Love,
Tenten