Disclcaimer: I don't own Marvel, Duh! And I don't own the trade marks used hereof.
Hi everybody! It's been awhile, this I know and I'm sorry, however the only explanation I can offer
is that I changed schools and have been out of town for a month. And I really had to fart.
"I Fear The Truth Has Made Me Lose You."
"What Did I do?!" Thats all I have been able to think lately. I hurt the man I love
in the worst way possible and all I can get through my head and my heart is, "What did I do?!"
I havn't told him yet, I know what this would do to him.. To us. I can already see the cold look
and the hard welled tears behind those damn sheilding red glasses! He loves me and I would die without him.
Oh, Scott! What have I done to you! I... I just needed attention. Your gone so often and sometimes even when your
here with me, alone, your really not there. Everything and everyone else always comes before me and I resent that!
The strange thing is, that it took the beer, the bar and the other man for me to
realise that I love you more than I thought. Yours and your kiss alone melts me, and now.. Now
I've ruined us. I just couldn't stand being alone. What am I going to do? I ask myself. Am I
going to cry when I see his face turn away? The hurt that I feel right now, Will I see that all ecoed in those
deep and wonderful brown eyes? I can only hope that he doesn't turn away. Damn it I hope he doesn't turn away and hide
himself from me! I need him to tell me something! Anything! And although I don't have the right to even hope,
I just want him to tell me everythings going to be alright. Oh Scott, Why couldn't you just have put me first just once?
I know that I'm unfair to blame you, This was my fault, but you never seemed to know I need you.
You were always there for me, just... never when common sence would say, be there. She needs you. She loves you.
Yes, you've saved me many times, but I feel so.. used. Like I was always there, and you knew it and I was only of use when you
wanted me. I want you too, and this has only shown that I do. Scott! Please, please, please don't leave me.
Of all the times you hadn't the mind to hold me, this is the one time I need you. To be strong, for me. Not the X-Men,
not Xaiver, no one! Just me. I know you love me, I just needed to be held and loved.
You always use my shoulder, but where are you when I need yours? Where?
I guess you always just thought I was strong and independent but, sometimes I just need you. Only you.
Couldn't you damn well had understood? I havn't seen you alone in over a month, and when we finally went
out out, you had to quickly leave again for another meeting or mission or some other garbage!
Don't you miss me? I miss you... I miss you more every minute. Can you ever forgive me? I can't forgive myself and I don't
know what I'm going to do when you come home next week. How can I tell you without losing you? Oh Scott, Scott, what did I do?
Hi everybody! It's been awhile, this I know and I'm sorry, however the only explanation I can offer
is that I changed schools and have been out of town for a month. And I really had to fart.
"I Fear The Truth Has Made Me Lose You."
"What Did I do?!" Thats all I have been able to think lately. I hurt the man I love
in the worst way possible and all I can get through my head and my heart is, "What did I do?!"
I havn't told him yet, I know what this would do to him.. To us. I can already see the cold look
and the hard welled tears behind those damn sheilding red glasses! He loves me and I would die without him.
Oh, Scott! What have I done to you! I... I just needed attention. Your gone so often and sometimes even when your
here with me, alone, your really not there. Everything and everyone else always comes before me and I resent that!
The strange thing is, that it took the beer, the bar and the other man for me to
realise that I love you more than I thought. Yours and your kiss alone melts me, and now.. Now
I've ruined us. I just couldn't stand being alone. What am I going to do? I ask myself. Am I
going to cry when I see his face turn away? The hurt that I feel right now, Will I see that all ecoed in those
deep and wonderful brown eyes? I can only hope that he doesn't turn away. Damn it I hope he doesn't turn away and hide
himself from me! I need him to tell me something! Anything! And although I don't have the right to even hope,
I just want him to tell me everythings going to be alright. Oh Scott, Why couldn't you just have put me first just once?
I know that I'm unfair to blame you, This was my fault, but you never seemed to know I need you.
You were always there for me, just... never when common sence would say, be there. She needs you. She loves you.
Yes, you've saved me many times, but I feel so.. used. Like I was always there, and you knew it and I was only of use when you
wanted me. I want you too, and this has only shown that I do. Scott! Please, please, please don't leave me.
Of all the times you hadn't the mind to hold me, this is the one time I need you. To be strong, for me. Not the X-Men,
not Xaiver, no one! Just me. I know you love me, I just needed to be held and loved.
You always use my shoulder, but where are you when I need yours? Where?
I guess you always just thought I was strong and independent but, sometimes I just need you. Only you.
Couldn't you damn well had understood? I havn't seen you alone in over a month, and when we finally went
out out, you had to quickly leave again for another meeting or mission or some other garbage!
Don't you miss me? I miss you... I miss you more every minute. Can you ever forgive me? I can't forgive myself and I don't
know what I'm going to do when you come home next week. How can I tell you without losing you? Oh Scott, Scott, what did I do?