It is so good. To be a serial killer, I mean. You can... Oh, come on, we both know that you can not. And I can. Because I am a serial killer. I am and you are not. You are just reading my diary. Pervert, that's what you are.
So back to the story. I can own the highest level of fear. That moment when it is obvious that life's gone and will never come back but death will come a moment later. That very moment has the fear. And I can see it every time when I need it. All I have to do is just find a girl.

Rei Ayanami.
Yes, I like to kill girls. They are something special.
I am not a pedo, so I don't like little girls, btw.

And yet another 'btw': I am not just a serial killer. I am smart serial killer. As one politician said years ago:
"Prisons exist for losers. Talented, lucky and smart criminals can't be arrested"
I am not in a prison and I wasn't.

Rei Ayanami.
A luck has nothing with that. Illegal life based on luck is doomed to become fail. Illegal life based on both talent and brain will be an epic victory.

And about how smart I am. I live and work in Tokyo-3. The city is under angels' attacks, so many citizens are leaving it. There are many policemen among the citizens. See? I am a serial killer in a city without police. I can not be stopped.

Rei Ayanami.
Well to tell the truth there are police in Tokyo-3. Brave idiots who think duty is more important than life. But there are not many of them. Thirty or even twenty. Twenty policemen vs a serial killer? I'll tell you who would win the fight. The killer. The twenty policemen will not be able to control the whole city, to be everywhere and everytime.
And I work in NERV. Technically I am untouchable. Why? Because I am NERV's pilot.
This city needs us. Pilots. To arrest a pilot is like to commit a suicide: an imprisoned pilot can't do his/her job and stop angels.
So, even if police knew about me I wouldn't be arrested.

And please, think about it:

When an angel attacks I come to my EVA and fight. When I win - and I always win - that means citizens of Tokyo-3 are saved. So if I saved thousands lives why can I not kill a girl later? Angels would killed her, anyway. I saved her. Her life DOES belong to me. It does.

Rei Ayanami.
I do not hate this girl. I am going to kill her right now but there is nothing personal here.

Rei Ayanami.
She is a pilot like me. She is my partner in this war so she knows me. She looks in my eyes and sees that I'll kill her. She spent so much time with me that she can guess anything what is in my mind. And vice versa. I see that she believes I'll do it for Shinji.

Rei Ayanami.
I shook my head. How wrong she is. She can't see that she is not my partner and I am not a pilot. I am a serial killer and she is my victim right now.
There is nothing personal here.

A lot of citizens left Tokyo 3.
And there were many girls among them. This is so hard to find a victim today. So there is nothing personal here. She was available and I made my choice instead of looking for another girl.

Rei Ayanami.
I am smiling when I begin. She is not. She is crying. But there is nothing personal here so I will not do it in a fast and painless way. Why should I? I do not want this PILOT to suffer. I want this GIRL to suffer.

Rei Ayanami.
It's over. Just one final move. I begin to cut her throat and I am still smiling. I whisper in her ear:
"I'll see you in Hell, pilot Soryu."

Rei Ayanami. That is my name and I like it.