I watch your face,
And all of its beauty.
I think of you,
And I think of the pointless dreams I have,
Of someday holding you in my arms,
Just once.
I am easily lost,
And my sense of direction isn't that great,
But I look deep within your eyes,
And I am lost again.
I wish I could comprehend that I could never have you.
But I have a one track mind when it comes to you.
You may not know how much I want you.
How much I need you.
I long for you with every part of my being.
And I sometimes wonder what you want.
What are you longing for?
I know I'm not as smart as you are,
But I know what love and jealousy are.
Sometimes I get jealous,
When I see you walking with her,
And she makes you laugh and smile.
I want to be the one who makes you smile.
I want to be the one who will make you happy.
I would happily live for you,
I would gratefully die for you.
I would throw my life away,
Just to know it made you smile.
I would give up everything I had,
If I knew it made you happy.
I may appear like an ill-tempered person to most people,
But maybe it's all because I know I can't have you.
When I was younger,
I thought I hated you.
But now I know,
That I love you.
And now I'm sitting here,
Watching your face,
And it's infinite beauty.
Your smooth skin,
That I want to touch,
Just once
Your pale lips,
That I want to kiss,
Just once
Your shining eyes,
That I want to look upon me,
As mine look upon you,
Just once.
I want to tell you.
I want to tell you everything that is in my heart,
My very soul.
You look at me.
And you smile.
Did I just make you smile?
Just this once,
Did I make you happy?
Someone brushes past me.
It's her.
You weren't looking at me.
You weren't smiling at me.
The gesture was toward her.
It's always her.
She's the only one who can make you smile like that.
Not me.
Never me.
And now I realize,
I can never have you.
I knew this all the while,
But I never realized it until now.
I never wanted to take it into consideration.
I just wasn't being rational.
Just once I wanted to hold you.
Just once.
I stand up,
And begin to leave the room.
You call out to me.
You're following me.
I cannot contain myself anymore.
I turn, and put my arms around you.
All the years of pain,
Hurt,
Hate,
Jealousy,
And love,
Leave me through that embrace.
I cry.
Warm tears flow down my face.
You are the only person I would ever cry in front of.
You are the only person who I would ever love.
You are too surprised to react.
But I don't care what your reaction will be.
I finally got to hold you,
Just once.
~Hatsuharu Sohma~
And all of its beauty.
I think of you,
And I think of the pointless dreams I have,
Of someday holding you in my arms,
Just once.
I am easily lost,
And my sense of direction isn't that great,
But I look deep within your eyes,
And I am lost again.
I wish I could comprehend that I could never have you.
But I have a one track mind when it comes to you.
You may not know how much I want you.
How much I need you.
I long for you with every part of my being.
And I sometimes wonder what you want.
What are you longing for?
I know I'm not as smart as you are,
But I know what love and jealousy are.
Sometimes I get jealous,
When I see you walking with her,
And she makes you laugh and smile.
I want to be the one who makes you smile.
I want to be the one who will make you happy.
I would happily live for you,
I would gratefully die for you.
I would throw my life away,
Just to know it made you smile.
I would give up everything I had,
If I knew it made you happy.
I may appear like an ill-tempered person to most people,
But maybe it's all because I know I can't have you.
When I was younger,
I thought I hated you.
But now I know,
That I love you.
And now I'm sitting here,
Watching your face,
And it's infinite beauty.
Your smooth skin,
That I want to touch,
Just once
Your pale lips,
That I want to kiss,
Just once
Your shining eyes,
That I want to look upon me,
As mine look upon you,
Just once.
I want to tell you.
I want to tell you everything that is in my heart,
My very soul.
You look at me.
And you smile.
Did I just make you smile?
Just this once,
Did I make you happy?
Someone brushes past me.
It's her.
You weren't looking at me.
You weren't smiling at me.
The gesture was toward her.
It's always her.
She's the only one who can make you smile like that.
Not me.
Never me.
And now I realize,
I can never have you.
I knew this all the while,
But I never realized it until now.
I never wanted to take it into consideration.
I just wasn't being rational.
Just once I wanted to hold you.
Just once.
I stand up,
And begin to leave the room.
You call out to me.
You're following me.
I cannot contain myself anymore.
I turn, and put my arms around you.
All the years of pain,
Hurt,
Hate,
Jealousy,
And love,
Leave me through that embrace.
I cry.
Warm tears flow down my face.
You are the only person I would ever cry in front of.
You are the only person who I would ever love.
You are too surprised to react.
But I don't care what your reaction will be.
I finally got to hold you,
Just once.
~Hatsuharu Sohma~