Confusion. Anger. Sadness. Rejection. Abandonment.
No one could describe the immense feelings coursing through my veins regarding her.
Even a couple months after the fact, it still feels like it was just yesterday, just an hour ago, just a few minutes ago that Rey betrayed me.
The look in Reys eyes, the hesitancy over almost accepting my offer, to join me and create a new dynamic in this rundown world together is the only thing I dream of these days.
There has been no words through the force bond...just a multitude of feelings on her end. The only thing I have left to hold onto are the memories from our connections on Ahch-To I can feel my heart start to beat harder and faster just thinking of her skin on mine. The electricity coursing through me as our fingertips touch. The warmth that is immediately taken away when Luke Skywalker barges in on them.
The fact that we haven't talked since then and the force is still upholding our bond means our story is not over.
That is one thing I know and am confident about.
Our story is not over.
Even now, as sleep is evading me, I feel the need to contact Rey.
This is a normal occurrence. It normally happens at night. As I am trying to go to sleep. I stay awake, restless, thinking of how it could have gone differently with her. Hoping and wishing for one more chance to see her. To persuade her to turn over a new leaf with him and stop the nonsense occuring in the galaxy.
Turning over, he starts to feel a prickling sensation in his neck. As I reach for my lightsaber on the bedside table, I stop myself once I feel the familiar yet foreign presence in the room.
The sleeping form on the other side of the room has joined him and his heart starts to pound as he realizes it's time. He gets his second chance with the girl who occupies his dreams and every thought.
She must have felt the sudden tension and change of scenery because she jolts up out of a sleepy state and looks around desperately trying to figure out what is happening.
They make eye contact finally and he sees she is overwhelmed with surprise as she just stares in shock over not seeing him in so long and confusion as to why the force decided to do this now.
"Rey..." I whisper, "I missed you."