Title: Forced smile

I have a dark
past no body
must know about.

Everyday I'm
dieing to just
spill out my guts,
and yet,
I hide it.

I force a
smile on
my face
hiding my
past from
the rest.

Only my family
knows and
no body else,
no even
my friends.

They only see,
\what I want
them to see.

I Do not wish
for them to
have pity
on me.

I Force a smile
has I walk
down the
streets and
halls.

I lived eight
years of torment,
\never showing
my weakness,
though they
who tormented
me knew it.

There are
so many times
I've held back
my tears and
prayed for the
best to come...

And yet,
I'm still
waiting.

I've thought of
taking the
easy way out
and just kill my self.

But I did not
wish to have
my family morn
over my death,
so I just forced
a smile living
two different lives.

One life of
a child that
was happy
and thankful
for life.

And another
of a child who
dreaded every
day of life just
wanting to die
right then and there.

People think
my life is easy
but they can
not help
but think that.

After all I've
made sure
no body sees
my dark past.

So I'll just
keep a smile
on my face
and act like
I'm OK while
on the inside
I'm screaming
to just tell..