Title: Jealous
Rating: PG
Summary: The first time I ever met Yagami Raito, I wanted to stab him between the eyes with my cake fork. So, when did I start hating Misa?
Pairings: confused L X Raito, one-sided
Author's notes: Just another short Death Note fic I did when I was bored. Enjoy!
The first time I ever met Yagami Raito, I wanted to stab him between the eyes with my cake fork.
I don't know what it was that sparked the sudden dislike in me. Something about him just clicked in my brain, and I didn't like it. The thought that he might be Kira wasn't the reason for my feelings, though I will admit, that may have something to do with it.
No. It was his demeanor. The way he was so 'honored' to meet me, despite the fact that he so obviously was not. It was the way he smiled at me when he so obviously wanted to wring my neck. It was the way he sat, idly tapping his foot to the rhythm of his own drum, one that he so easily manipulated everyone into marching to.
It wasn't until I had him locked up and begging that I felt satisfied.
Satisfied, yes, but oddly enough, guilty.
I wanted to leave him in there for good, and I wanted to let him rot, but at the same time, I realized that this was the boy he had once been. This wasn't the Raito I had considered my friend. This was someone else.
He didn't have that cold, devil-may-care look in his eyes anymore. His hands were twitching with the urge to be free from his cuffs, not the urge to choke the last breath out of my body. He didn't smile, either, but if he did, it would be from the joy of feeling the sun on his face after being left so long in the dark.
And when I finally let him out, he was not the Yagami Raito I locked up. True, his feelings towards Misa hadn't changed much. I doubt he ever was in love with her the way she was with him, and I am positive he never will be. But he no longer looked like he wanted to slap her every time she approached him.
And whenever that happened, I felt the dislike surge back. Only this time, I didn't want to stab Raito.
When did I start hating Misa?
I hadn't hated her when I first saw her. If anything, I found her adorable, even though I was nearly positive that she was the second Kira.
Maybe it was her pathetic delusion that she and Raito would live happily ever after. Maybe it was the way she was so blinded by her affections for him that she didn't see the look in his eyes when she came to see him. Maybe it was the way I knew Raito was seeing that other girl and Misa didn't.
Maybe it was the way my mind played out the day she found out Raito really wasn't in love with her and was seeing someone else he didn't care for, but obviously liked a lot more.
Nothing had changed about her.
So was it the change in Raito I was jealous of? He didn't love her, but there definitely was something there.
Whatever that something was, whatever Raito felt towards her that made him put up with her annoying cling-factor, I couldn't deny the facts.
I was jealous.
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