Author's Note: Hello, it's 05:17 in the morning! Sorry I vanished again, it was for completely boring but completely important reasons. :P I wrote this cos I can't sleep and I also thought it might help my approaching writer's block :(

Disclaimer: It's Noel and Ju-ju's

Warnings: Language

So Sorry

Outside the little room, empty except for the two of them, the general sounds of a busy hospital night could be heard. That, coupled with the sound of Howard's manic whispering of the same words and the shrill squeak of his Converses as he paced the immaculate flooring was starting to make Naboo's head ache. That and the whole situation. He would have given anything not to be almost completely sober at that moment, but knew that it was a good job that he was- someone had to have a bit of control out of the two of them, and it certainly wasn't going to be Howard.

The maverick was pacing the floor at high speed, hands constantly running through his hair and rubbing at his face. It's my fault, he kept whispering in a monotone, it's all my fault.

"It'smyfaultit'smyfaultit'smyfaultit'smyfaultit'smyfault…"

"Howard!" Naboo's stern voice rebounded off the walls, "Howard, sit down!"

Howard stopped abruptly, staring wildly at the shaman, breathing hard, face pale.

"Right, now sit down,"

Howard continued to stare, shaking his head, "I- I- I- I- I killed my best friend…" he was staring into the distance now, somewhere above Naboo's head, "It's all my fault… he's gonna die, and it's all my fault!"

Seeing the tears, Naboo got to his feet and dragged Howard over to the chair beside his own, pushing him down, "for fucksake, stop talkin' bollocks! It isn't your fault, and he's not going to die, alright! Just shut up, Howard!"

"B-b-b-but I-I-I-I I pushed him! I pushed him and- and he fell! I didn't mean to push him off balance, he- he- he was shouting at me, calling names, I- I just tried to push him away from me, I didn't mean for him to fall! I love him—I love him so much, I didn't mean to hurt him!"

He couldn't die. Please.

Please, we're in the wrong life; this can't be right… this can't happen, not to him…

Bad things can happen to sunshine people too, y'know.

A/N2: So this could be a drabble, could have more chapters, I dunno :P Either way, reviews would be great please! *_^ (puppy-dog eyes)