ITSUMADEMO NO KOI

Natsuki is leaving without saying goodbye…what would happen after 4years?

Chapter1: Unsaid Goodbyes

Natsuki POV

It was 2:38 a.m. My flight will be leaving in an hour. I had to decide…should I go or stay?

I was staring down to my suitcase while waiting for my flight in the departure area, thinking and deciding whether it was the right thing to do. I weighed all my option but I found myself juggling the two…should I stay…and let her see me suffering from this disease? Should I go… away without telling her why…? I thought of this over and over again but I couldn't come up with the right thing to do.

"Natsuki" Kaiji Sakomizu was tapping my back quite a few times already…

"NATSUKi…"he shook me harder this time.

"Uh... yes…?" I didn't know what else to say. He carefully asked me seriousness was plastered all over his face.

"Are you sure you want to do this? Are you sure you want to leave her?" I feel silent. I sat still… I ran out of words to say. All the things I wanted to say got stuck in my throat.

" Yes" I finally mumbled.

"This is what's best for both of us. It would be better if she did not find out the reason for my disappearance."

Kaiji was not quite sure of what I said, "but …but you would hurt her feelings…" I thought of that already. I know that was bound to happen somehow. But the more I thought of it, the more I got scared.

"I know. I just hope Reito would be able to take care of her for me."

FLASHBACK

"NATSUKI what's wrong?" we where at the library that day. The day they advise me to go to the States to get help.

"Reito I'm leaving. I'm leaving for the states as soon as possible." I could see that Reito didn't quite grasp what I was telling him…

"What? Why? Do you have business there? Fears were now around my eyes

"I'm sick… I have Congestive Heart Failure. The doctor here told me I had a slim chance of surviving but if I go to the States immediately they might be able to help me. But I'm not sure if I will survive there."

Tears where flowing down my cheeks by now. Reito still don't know what to say. But he manage to speak up.

"What about Shizuru? When are you going to tell her?" I flinched at this question. I knew he was going to ask about this. Reito love Shizuru since they met each other. He had learned how to love and care for her secretly because Shizuru and I was together.

"you don't have plans on telling her? Natsuki she has the right to know. She's going to be devastated about this." At that moment I knew what to say. I knew he was the only person who could help me right know.

"I need you to do something for me… Reito take care of Shizuru for me, please? She's going to need you. Please tell her I love her so much."

I stood up, wiped my tears, turned my back and began walking but a hand stopped me.

"When are you coming back?" Reito asked frightened by what I was about to say.

"I don't know", I mumbled. "I don't know…but if I-i am not back in 3 years… I know you'll be the right person for her. Maybe…maybe it's what's bound to happen. You and Shizuru might be the perfect fit." I touch his face for the last time before I turned away.

END OF FLASHBACK

Just the screen flashed, "all passengers bound for New York, flight 5C2J38, please proceed to the boarding area."

"SHIZURU! I will be back please wait for me" was Natsuki's last thought before boarding the plane.

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