This is a short story idea I had in my head. Sorry for the typos and things like that I did it all from my phone. :) R&R. Emily
We're not here to talk about my past my present and my future we're here to talk about my love for a man. It's a simple story in all honestly I fell in love with a man I just met no mistakes were made ok they were but we accept that move on. As I lay here dying, I think about the last things that I said to him before this terrible event occurred. I think about how things could have been different how things could have changed but how we could have lived happily ever after. But its not like the fairy tales and it doesn't work out that way. It may never work out that way but in my last dying breath I think about all the wrong that I've done. I've just had enough I can't I can't go on. I've tried I've tried and I've tried. But I just can't seem to land on my feet see the sunshine. It's been so long since the sunshine to my world. Well that's not true he's the one piece of sunshine that I have that I love what I need. But things have not gone the way I want them to. So this is the letter that I wrote before I decided what I was going to do.
My dearest Jacob,
I love you with all of my heart. Don't think that I never did. I've loved you more than any human being could ever love another one. But I just don't feel like I'm good enough for you. And I never will be we both know this and we need to accept it. But do you remember that night? Night we made love the most wonderful night of my life. Well that night resulted in a baby I found out yesterday I was pregnant. I couldn't face the facts of bringing a child into this world knowing what it is. To know that I'm never going to be a good enough mother. And to know that we're not worthy of you. I wanted to tell you but you got mad you ran away I got scared nowhere to go nowhere to turn I'm all alone I think you're the greatest. I'm sorry you don't see you the way I do. I'm sorry that I had to be this way. I tried telling you I tried to call to you. But there was no answer. I can't bring this child into the world knowing you may not be around. I don't want my child to see my father is a piece of crap and he never loved me. My child to know that there's someone out there that helped create it it's nothing to do with it. I'm sorry I did this I love you I really do. Found out I was 13 weeks pregnant. I heard its heartbeat. I saw a little nugget body on the sonogram. So perfect and wonderful mixture between me and you. I don't regret making the baby I don't regret seeing it. But I said everything that I need say and it's time for me to go. Just remember I love you with all my heart. And you'll get over me. you'll find another girl. And you live a wonderful happy life.
Love always,
Bella
I addressed envelope with his name on it. I sealed it with a letter inside. And waited for it to work. I grabbed his shirt it still smells like him. I curled up in bed and waited to die. This is the end. He'll never understand how much I love him.