Author's Note: I think i'm going to start to like this story just as much as Stay Close Don't Go because it's all mapped out and I know exactly where it's going. This goes out to Lauren because she's a big part of writing it. ok now listen everyone. what i'd like you to do when you leave your review is to tell me what you think, or tather where you think this is heading, what Dan did, why Serena's acting like she is. just give me something detaled. also, as for the last story that I posted, Bruises and Bathroomstalls, yes, it was exactly what those of you asked. random sex hookups while they're in relationships with otr people, becuase DS showed in the preview that they can clearly bring the heat. The name of this in full Remembering Sunday is a song by All Time Low, and it's amazing, you should check it out. as for the song used in this you all know i'm betting. Sum41 WIth me

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Even behind the plexiglass barrier he could tell every inch of her was absolutely perfect, from her tiny little ears to her petite little toes there wasn't an inch of her that was imperfect. He was going on the fourth week of watching her progression from the window when the only thing he actually wanted to do was reach out and touch her. To hold her tiny innocent little frame in his arms a gaze at his creation, at their creation. Never could he have seen this coming, any of this. All he knew was that she'd changed his life. They had both changed his life.

He came ever day, just to stand there and watch the child he so badly wanted to call his own. Even though he did understand everything she was feeling and he fully blamed himself for every issue it still didn't make the pain of not having them any better then it already felt. He just wanted to hold his little girl, to look at her and tell her just how much she meant to him already. He wanted to be her father, he needed to be her father, but, if Serena didn't want him anywhere near their baby he knew that the only way to make it better for Serena alone was to back off. To let her raise the baby she wanted, and the most pain of it all meant without him in her life. In either of their lives.

Dan's eyes stayed glued to the little one in the pink blanket as she was picked up by one of the nurses. It was so good to see her without any of the machines hooked up to her premature body. The past four weeks he'd watched her hooked up to ventilators, heart monitors, and feeding tubes. It was only in the past week that she'd gradually been taken off of such things. He could still see in his mind the beginning of the week when he'd come in to take a peek and he's eyes had fallen upon his girls. His beautiful, gorgeous, perfect Serena looking as angelic as ever as she sat in the rocking chair with their daughter cuddled tightly to her chest as she nursed. The whole image stuck in Dan's mind as he stood there watching. Everything about it was surreal, the image was one that Dan was sure wouldn't ever erase from his head.

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

Not seeing the pink blanket any longer he decided it was time to go for the day, besides Serena would be coming soon. As much as he wanted to leave his notes with a nurse he wasn't brave enough to let it all go so soon. As he turned around and began to head back to the elevators a door opened behind him.

"Excuse me, excuse me could you hold up a second?"

The warm voice called out behind him and he felt compelled to respond and turn around even if it was only to be told not to come back. Even if they threatened to have him escorted out if he came again, he was fairly sure that would be one of the next things to come as he did visit the window every day. When he turned the first thing his warm brown eyes collided with was the very soft pink blanket. She was so close to him suddenly, his beautiful daughter just a reach away. There was a side of him who wanted to take her out of the woman's arms and run, so that he'd never have to let her go, so that he'd never have to say goodbye.

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

"If you ask me I don't think it's very fair to her that daddy to stand at a window."

The young women said as Dan's mesmerized eyes were glued to the squirming of the little blanket, were glued to his daughter. She looked even smaller then she did behind the class, she was so real and so his.

"Come on in with me, I promise I won't tell. Plus it's not going to do her any good if you're stuck behind a glass."

Dan could hear her talking but the words weren't actually being comprehended, his mind was to immersed in his little girl. She was his main and only focus as she wiggled and complained in the nurse's arms. More then anything he wanted to reach out and take her from her.

"I can't… Serena… her mother doesn't want me to."

He said for the first time out loud calling Serena a mother, the mother of their child. It made him want to run to her and beg her to re consider all of her thoughts.

"Honey, being a mother myself I can promise you that mother's don't always know best."

Marilyn said as she once again offered him the new born that was starting to stir and complain even more. Then when suddenly her little lungs let out a hug scream and her little face started to get more and redder as Dan started to panic. As his little princess cried Marilyn led him into the nursery and slipped her little body into his arms. It seemed like it surprised them both when she didn't need to even tell him how to hold her. His natural daddy instincts took over and he cradled her supporting her head. Instantly soon as she was safe in his arms her crying stopped and her little blue green eyes opened up and looked at him.

It was just like when he'd first laid his eyes on Serena herself. His little girl was in his arms. This little piece of both him and Serena, she was so precious and fragile. Her eyes were the shape of Serena's, her nose was most defiantly of the Humphrey genes, her tiny ears were also Humphrey ears, she was so much of the both of them. Making his way over to the reclining chair he couldn't tear his eyes from her as he cradled her in one of his arms his free hand pulling the blanket back just enough to mentally take photos of her tiny body. She was the most tiny and precious thing he'd ever held, on the side of Serena of course. Her little hand wrapped around his finger and just like a typical father he instantly counted her tiny fingers. All ten perfect long little fingers, just like all ten perfect little curled up toes he could see. He was pretty sure that the little hospital bracelet around her ankle would fit right around his thumb and his thumb only. She was his perfect, tiny little princess, his princess.

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

"Seems like one little girl knows her father pretty well already."

Marilyn commented as she observed the pair as she placed the bottled down beside them on the counter top. Dan just barely glanced up at her, it was to hard for him to take his eyes off of his daughter, she'd captivated him just like her mother.

"Her name's Sa…"

Dan cut her off as the smile on his face seemed almost to illuminate the room as he finished the name for the nurse.

"Sariah, it's Hebrew for princess. Though nether one of us are actually Jewish, it's the meaning of it that Serena loves, because she most defiantly is the little princess, just like her mother. Serena used to say that the same Sariah was perfect because I made her feel like a princess and her wanted to pass that on because she knew that someday we'd…"

Again with his rambling affect the only way he silenced himself was by leaning over and placing a kiss upon her tiny wrinkled forehead. Marilyn smiled at the teenage boy as she could tell that given the chance he'd be the perfect father to the little girl in his arms. Nodding her head to herself she walked away from him, leaving him alone in the corner with his child.

"You look so much like your mommy already, I can tell already that she's going to have her hands full with you just as your grandmother does with her. Your mommy's a pro at breaking hearts. Want to know why, it's because she's beautiful, and she's sexy, and she's just plain the perfect girl. I remember the first time a ever saw her. Her beautiful blonde hair, and that beautiful voice of hers, it was sweet like candy, you'll learn that when she puts you to sleep at night and she tries to sing to you. I know it's not exactly a beautiful sound but give her a little bit of credit ok? She tries."

Dan whispered to her as she continued to just look at him, as though she were actually taking everything he was saying in for thought. That too reminded him of Serena, the way she could just listen to him for hours.

"Beautiful, no matter what I want you to know just how much I really love you. Even if mommy decided that we can't be together. I love you and your mommy more then words could ever express. As you grow up I'm sure mommy will have Nate around you, I just hope that he can protect you. You're my little girl Sari, forever and always and I want, no, I need you to remember that ok? Because mommy has this crazy idea in her head that I don't need you guys. She thinks that I can move on, she wants me to move on. I never told you that your mommy wasn't a little crazy."

Broken and warn out his voice was cracking as silent tears cascaded their way down his face. The thoughts of missing all of her firsts and the rest of her moments were going through his mind and it was killing him. Maybe he was greedy that he wanted more of Serena then what he'd been teased with what they'd had for over a year, but, it wasn't just her that he wanted anymore. The little innocent child in his arms was what he wanted, and he wished Serena would just open her eyes and see it.

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

"And while I can do this, I'm gonna set up a few Daddy rules. Because well, I am daddy, and I can say that now, I just wish you'd always know it. When you're out on your first date you do not kiss like your mommy first kissed me. I think from that moment she and I both should have known to expect you before your grandparents would have wished. I'll tell you right now you're with every second of all of that. Don't trust your mother to teach you how to play pool, because she's really bad at it. Who knows, maybe you'll have my luck when it comes to that. Then you'll be better then her from the start."

Trying his hardest to stop his tears he bit his lip and removed his finger from her little grip making her stir as though she were afraid that he was leaving her already so soon. Propping her up in his arms a little bit better he held the bottle to her mouth, which after a look at him as if she were making sure he wasn't going to leave her she accepted the bottle.

"Mommy can tell you a thousand different stories about why I'm not around but the only thing you need to remember is that that I love you. Keep it buried in your heart ok? For always and ever Sari, no matter where you both are and who you're both with you two will always be my girls. No one will ever come close to what you mean to me. And I need you to always have that in the back of your mind. You will always be my little girl, and that is one thing that is forever."

Dan said not even caring anymore as his tears tracked down his face, this might have been the only time he got to hold her, to tell her just exactly what she meant to him. Serena had made it pretty clear that she wanted him no where near there child. That he was to move on and make a new life for himself. Dan being Dan knew that he needed to respect that. He loved her to much to anger her or hurt her more then he already had. The only thing that Dan Humphrey could do was to leave both her and their daughter without bothering either one about it. Maybe everything happened for a reason but at this time he was beginning to believe that life just wasn't fair, how they could give him beautiful Serena that meant everything to him, then give them a child then rip it both out of his hands. He couldn't fight for her anymore, it wasn't what she wanted. She wanted to be left alone to raise there baby without him to interrupt and so that's what he was going to do. To let Serena Van der Woodsen have her way.

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, 'as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

He sat there for a half and hour letting her drink her bottle as he captured the moments in his memory, the seldom time he'd get to be her father. Removing the empty bottle and holding her thin body against his he rubbed her back gently till she expelled the bubble. Taking that as a sign it'd be ok to stop burping her he supported her head and held her to his face.

"There are people that go through their entire lives not knowing what love is. Lucky for me I've had you and your mommy. Even if I'm not allowed to keep you I will always love you princess. Maybe someday your mommy will notice that I can't just move on. That you two are the only ones I want. I hope that happens before it's to late but I know how stubborn your mommy is and I'm betting you'll be just like her. No matter what Sariah, I'm your daddy and I will always love you baby girl."

Dan whispered as he placed her down in the small incubator bed and kissed her cheek as a single tear ran down his face and landed on her. He tried to brush away the rest as he looked at her up close for a final heartbreaking time.

"I love you baby"

Backing away now she started to cry and he wanted nothing more but to rush forward and pick her up, to rock her till it was all gone. But Serena wanted him to move on without them, she'd made it clear so that's what he had to do. Placing the two notes down on the ledge underneath the baby's bed as she screamed and wailed away he did his best to be ok as he turned his back and walked out the door. Not looking at anything around him as he continued to brush away the tears that were blinding his view. He didn't even notice the blonde who rested her head against the glass window her own tears brimming her glimmering green eyes.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find