Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyer and do not own Twilight.

I switched my first chapter. The rest will come in play later in the story.

This takes place in New Moon. Edward has already left. Bella and Jake are already Best friends. She never heard Edwards voice; therefore she is not addicted to danger. This is a J/B Story but soon E/? . Keep reading to find out. A true Jacob story . The way it shouldve been written .

Prologue

BPOV

It was pouring. That's nothing new in the town of Forks. That's why I liked to stay on the reservation. La Push was a better place for me to actually be myself. I didn't have to worry about Vampires or the aching pain I got in my heart whenever I thought of him. I liked to trick myself into believing that it was La Push that helped me forget, but deep inside I knew the truth. Jacob Black was the solution to making my heartache disappear. He was my best friend, my diary, my shoulder to lean on. It wasn't until last night that I realized he was much more. He was my other half, my soul, the missing piece to my puzzle.

Of course he was no Edwa-. He wasn't him. But he tried to be better for me. Jake does everything to help make me forget and sometimes, I do. I always have a great time when I am with him. Whether it's riding motorcycles or just sitting on the beach. Jake was my distraction and I realized that I need him to be more than that for me. He needs to be more than that for me. He deserves more than that. So tonight I was going to go with my gut feeling and tell him what he has been dieing to hear.

That I love him. That I'm ready to give him ALL of me. That I'm ready to be his.

CHAPTER ONE

BPOV

The pain was bearable now. Whenever I thought of him I still felt that tug at my heart, yet I no longer felt a need to hold myself together. I had only one person to thank for that.

Jacob Black. My best friend.

Edward was my love. He was the man of my dreams and every desire, but he left. He no longer wanted me. He just packed up his family and left. He was the only one to say goodbye. I spent days, weeks, and months being an emotionless human being. How do you live when everything you lived for didn't want you anymore? I didn't know the answer. If it weren't for Charlie, Renee, and that promise I made him then I don't know if I would even be here today. I never really sat down and thought about taking the life out of myself, it just happened. I no longer smiled let alone laughed. I tried to bring emotions to my voice whenever I talked to Charlie. As much as I didn't care about hurting myself, I knew my lifeless being was hurting him.

Billy Black had invited Charlie to watch the game with him on weekends and he thought it would be a good idea to bring me along. To me, it didn't seem like it would do any good at all. I had become this statue that you could talk to, but I never seemed to talk back. I just nodded my head every now and then. However, Jake seemed to get past the emotionless statue facade and I found myself talking back to him. I was answering questions for him and even asking him some. Charlie took great pleasure in that. So my friendship with Jake started and took flight. I then counted on Jake to keep myself alive. He glued every broken piece of me together. He brought unrecognized emotions within me to life. I found myself smiling and for the first time in a long time, laughing. What was it about the boy that made me feel at ease? He melted my frozen heart and soon I started to feel it beat again. I knew that I loved Jake now, but it was nothing more than friendship. He brought me back to earth. He became my reason, another person to stay alive for. He wasn't my purpose for living though.

I can still remember vividly those days when even a cold chill would send me into an unbearable pain and I would have to hold myself tight. I feel thankful now more than ever, as I look back, that I found a great comfort around Jake. He always seemed to make the pain disappear. I rarely thought of him around Jake now. It was a nice feeling. A feeling of safety. I found myself relying on him again to keep me strong and I realize that he was keeping me strong. He noticed things I did and things I didn't want to do or hear. For that I was internally grateful. I tried so many times to tell him how I appreciated his friendship, but I never could.

Fear always stopped me. Fear that maybe he would take it the wrong way. Today, however, a new fear overpowered that. The fear that maybe I wanted him to take it that way. Edward said he didn't want me. Jake admitted constantly that he did. Now I find myself believing that I want him to.

Maybe, just maybe, I could be happy once again in the arms of my best friend. Jacob Black.

It only made sense. He made me happy. Why not return the favor and fill his heart with joy? I knew exactly how Jake felt. Even if he didn't tell me, I could see it in his eyes when he would look at me. Sometimes I felt like there was something he had to tell me, but didn't. I always think of him as my sun. Not because he melted my heart over and over again, but he made me feel at home. He brought a piece of Arizona with him when we hung out. Whenever he held my hands I would flashback to my house in Phoenix, feeling the warm sun on my face, the feeling of security. Home. Just like home, I would miss him when I was away.

I hated not being able to give myself to Jake in the way he wanted me.

That was until now.

I sit on my bed processing this in my mind. Outweighing my decisions. Arguing with myself. Trying to talk myself out of it. What if Edward comes back and realizes that he does want you? What if he knows the pain he caused you and came back to apologize? What if he wants to take you back? No this was not the time to think of what ifs. He wasn't coming back. He didn't want me remember? That thought made me shiver and the tug at my heart returned, but like I said, it was now bearable. Again I felt unconditionally thankful for having Jake in my life. I decided not to change my mind. It was time for me to make my happiness as complete as it could be. And that meant asking my best friend to be mine.

Last night he had held me close around the bonfire. The whole gang was there: Colin and Brady, Sam sitting close to Emily, Paul grasping Rachel's hand, Quil holding Claire, Kim on Jared's lap, Leah glaring at Seth for saying something childish about her muscular legs, and Jacob running his fingers through my hair as I listened to his heartbeat.

We were just enjoying another Friday night together.

Jacob leaned down and kissed my forehead. As much as I tried to, I couldn't get over this feeling. The feeling of having somebody there. His arms were acting as my coat and they sent warm tingles throughout my body every time he laughed. Everyone was talking amongst themselves when

Jacob whispered in my ear.

"I wish we could stay in this moment forever because I don't ever want to let you go". His breath against my ear sent another row of warmth down my back.

It was then that I realized. I didn't want this moment to end either, because for the first time I thought of him and I didn't feel a need to wait anymore. I didn't feel the usual tug at my heart. I didn't even feel the reoccurring ach that stabbed and scabbed my insides.

I felt whole.

Here in Jacobs arms, against his chest, with his lips on my forehead. I felt whole again.

That's when I decided that tomorrow night would be the night I would confess my growing love for Jacob Black.

I would make Jacob Black mine.

A/N: Hey ! First off PLEASE READ AND REVIEW ! Anything you have to say I'm willing to hear and listen. Criticize my work and tell me if I'm doing a good job. Yes I know it's a short chapter but I promise to make it longer later! Anything you want to hear happen between Bella and Jake? Tell Me. Ill see what I can do. Thank You! This is my first Fanfic so try to be nice [=