Zach Addy misses his hair.
Not just in the way that loosing a large amount of hair effects the way your head moves, which he'd never really understood before. But now his head feels lighter, his forehead feels cooler, as if there was always a cold cloth on his forehead. It makes him feel like he is permanently sick.
He thought getting his doctorate would make him feel more, himself. Proving that he was more then just a prodigy. He did it, he would finally be able to pay his parents back, pay them back for the expensive schools they couldn't afford. Pay them for all the annoying things he did. Pay them back because unlike all his siblings he isn't normal; he has nieces and nephews galore, and he has yet to find a partner. He thought that would come with getting a doctorate too.
But he just feels sick all the time.
There is a subtle irony that he sees in that, but he can't really explain it to Angela when they sit talking at the Diner, and she asks him what it feels like to be a doctor. Well, really to have a doctorate. He is a doctor, just not one that can help if something goes wrong.
Angela fixed his hair for him. Zach isn't sure how he feels about it, the ties are uncomfortable, and though he looked silly before now he feels silly. He blames his attitude on the suit. But he knows the reality is his hair.
His hair grows painfully slow.
He decides to start phasing out the suits.
Its not like he actually enjoyed wearing that powder blue ruffled thing to that party. And he has decided that it is nice to not have to wear something that looks like a suit to a prom he never got to go to. His date stood him up.
Zach likes having the suits in his closet, he wouldn't tell anyone, but it reminds him of Kaylee in Firefly. The way she put her dress up, just to look at it, because when she wore it she wasn't a mechanic, she was pretty. He didn't feel pretty in his suits, nor did he hang them up on his walls, they were just in his closet and he now had the choice to look business like.
Which he supposed was what it was all about.
He guesses, that the choice is what its all about.