A/N please be warned that this story is male on male and it does contain swearing.

I lean against the wall looking out of my bedroom window where I can see him. Him being Edward - my best friend, who I just so happened to be in love with. I can't pin point the exact moment when I fell in love with him. I guess I just can't remember a time when I didn't have that feeling - The feeling of always wanting to be with him. Growing up I thought it was normal. That it was what everyone felt for their best friend. Well that theory was blown away when I started having dreams of Edward. The dreams started of innocently enough. It was just touching his hand or of a certain smile. But as I grew older my dreams became more explicit. What started off as lingering touches transformed into passionate all-consuming kisses. His, hand in my hair pushing his cock further into my mouth. His moans as he withered above me, losing control. I tried to pretend to myself that I wasn't gay. These things happen between friends. But when I was wakened after that particular dream, I suddenly had seen him in a new light. Maybe it was the way his unruly bronze hair looked as if he had just had the best fuck of his life. His large piercing emerald eyes seemed to sparkle with mischief and laughter. Or his perfect snow kissed skin and cherry red lips. No I think it was his body that made me finally admit that I had a thing for him. He was taller than me. My 5, 11" to his 6, 2". His body was so damn sexy. Ripped abs and bulging muscles in all the right places. He puts Adonis himself to shame with the perfection that is Edward Cullen. God, let's not mention his ass it was too sinful. My hand went to my semi hard cock to adjust myself, down boy. It gets me hard at the mere thought of it. He sits in front of me in calculus so when he bends over let's just say I have to think of my grandma Maria for the little problem to go away. Well not little! I don't like to brag but I am huge. Like all things in Texas everything is made bigger. Who am I kidding I am totally smug.

Bella's laughter brought me out of my thoughts. Sigh, Bella. My beautiful 17 year old sister, she was to me the best, totally selfless and king. A gentle soul, the only fault I find about her is her being Edwards's girlfriend. That's right, Edwards's girlfriend. I was blown away when Edward asked my permission to date Bella. To me it was like a punch in the gut. But the pain lasted longer. It had come out of nowhere. I literally had no inclination that he seen her in a romantic way at all. He never mentioned it before. We were in the middle of playing halo, trading insults to one another, as you do when you are competing for the best win, just a normal Saturday afternoon. I moved forward taking my soda from the table beside me. I took the can to my lips, greedily swallowing the soda. Enjoying the way the cold liquid soothed my dry throat.

"So I was thinking of asking Bella to the movies, for a date. What do you think?" Edward asked me so casually as if we were discussing football. Well of course me being a swan it caused me to choke on my drink. Smack! Smack! Edward roughly hit my back yeah, because that's helping dickward. I felt like I couldn't breathe. I wasn't so sure if it was because my lungs were being constricted cutting of my air supply or if it was the thought of the two of them. I like to pretend to myself that it was the whole being unable to breathe kind of thing because I didn't want to think about it being anything else.

"whoa dude, you okay?" yeah Edward just fucking peachy. Instead of shouting like I wanted I just waved my hand in the air. "Yeah, I'm good!" I rubbed my chest. Eww yuck I can feel soda in my nose. I tried to blow it out I looked over at Edward and frowned, he looked a little pensive. "Dude?" I asked bringing him out of his retrieve. He made a fake cough. He then looked at me with a question held in his eyes. I shrugged my shoulders not getting his meaning. "Eh, me and Bella" well thank you bastard! For fucking reminding me, actually no I am not okay with the thought of you tonguing my sister. My green eyed monster reared its ugly head. I was seething. Why didn't he mention Bella to me earlier? Instead of cursing the living days out of him, I nodded. "Whatever."- I said picking up the controller and starting to kill his guys with a vengeance. Ha take that. I think he knew that dating Bella bothered me but he never said anything.

Next thing I know he took Bella out and the started dating. Alice, Edwards's sister and Bella's best friend was ecstatic. It was away for her and Bella to be official sisters or whatever. I know the little pixie crushes on me. It is so obvious, but I just treat her like a second sister because that is what she is to me, an annoying yet adorable sister. I don't think anyone could not like Alice. She is a sassy little spit fire. But it's not a thing Edward and I talk about, Him and Bella. For that I am grateful. I can't stand it. To hear him speak about her - with that look of adoration on his face. I hated feeling this way. To me my feelings for Edward felt as if I were betraying Bella in some way and I guess on some levels I am and I am so not okay with that. I mentally scoffed in amusement at the sight that greeted me. Edward is chasing Bella around the yard. She runs away albeit shakily, her face the image of childlike glee. A smile pulls at my lips as I look down at her. She looks so happy and free when she is with him. Edward jumps up and catches her around the waist. I instinctively move away from the window not wanting to see Bella and Edward in a tender moment. I crossed my slightly messy room and sank onto my bed reaching for my iPod. I drive the thoughts of Edward out of my mind with the sound of green day.

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