Hiya!!!(waves) this my first fic…so please be kind… this is one-side and one-shoot fic… that I'm writing in the moment so please wait…
Well let's continue this fic:
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Truly alone
By DK
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The sky is gray, the clouds are turning black…nothingness…
I feel sad. I want to cry, but I can't… why can't they accept me...why?
Why can't I be happy? Is it because I was born for this? To be alone with nobody? I just want a family…but…
Maybe that's why I do this. Maybe they created me for--I don't know anymore. I don't want this…the only thing I know is…
To kill.
To destroy.
To feel pain.
To be…
Just a monster.
I just want to be friends with everyone, but they push me away… why? They just glare at me with those eyes… those eyes… of hate and disgust...everything. They don't want me...why?
I hear whispers. I don't understand what they are saying, but I know what they are talking about. It's me. They just hate me. They scar my mind and body with harsh words and harsh touches, but that isn't enough for them.
Am I…crying? I feel water in my eyes, but no. It's just raining. The ground underneath my feet is being drenched and I am getting wet, too. I don't care, though. I just want this to end. Why do I do this? Again…why?
The rain is stopping.
I'm soaked in blood and water. I cannot tell if I am crying or not, but nobody really cares. They just pretend to. I can tell. I know the feeling. I can easily recognize that….that…
Fake smiles, fake laughter…false care…but I pretend to not know because it would cause too much pain. I just pretend. I just pretend that someone cares for me…but just once…
Just once, I want to feel that, too.
Being happy.
Being loved.
Being cherished.
With someone…
To have friends…
A family…
But right now, all I can feel is pain as I walk towards my home.
I'm taking care of my injures.
I see my reflection and I can only see emotionless eyes, but I know…I remember that I have to continue on no matter what happens on my journey to help others. Maybe...I can find someone. Maybe…but I just…I just feel so desperate…or perhaps it is madness.
But I know that…
I'm truly alone.
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Well what you thing… is just I thought that won't leave my head… hahahaah…. XD…..
And special thanks to Serena for helping me… J
Please review… R&R….
Until next time …BYE….
DK