Feminine Naruto! Don't like don't read!

Chapter 1

Losing for the first time.

"I feel like pudding, Pudding with nerve endings. Pudding in great pain."

-Iggy from Maximum Ride

Naruto

I staggered backwards as a foot crashed into my side. The pain exploded inside of me but I ignored it, I had no choice but to ignore it. Right now, it was kill or be killed and being killed is not on my list of things to do.

I threw a quick punch at the stocky man in front of me, putting the little energy I had left into it. It nailed him in the cheek, sending him staggering backwards a few steps before a loud cawing was heard, most likely from a hawk. The man looked momentarily indecisive before backing away and, with a quick snap of his fingers, disappeared from sight leaving no trace of ever being here and me panting in the midday sunlight.

I took a deep breath before quickly surveying the scene around me for my comrades. I had to keep from letting out a gasp though, when I saw the blood splattered grass of the clearing and the various dead hawks on the ground. The only thing that kept me from vomiting at the sight before me was the sight of my friends and their bound foxes still safe.

I slowly staggered towards my friends, still feeling the pain of that kick. I had the urge to smile, seeing as they were all safe. I dragged my feet along with each step and the pain in my side was going no where, so when I reached my comrades, I slowly sank to the ground. The look of worry on the faces of the two faces was heartbreaking. Wait, two? Plus me is three, but there are four of us, and four foxes are supposed to be here, but only three are in sight.

I took note of who was here. Sakura, Kakashi, Churippu, Kopi, Kyuubi and I were all present so that meant one thing. My eyes widened slightly at the realization of what had happened and I saw my comrades give me a look of wonder until their eyes too widened and figured out what had happened. I felt the urge to cry come up, but I would not do it even though the pain both mental and physical was slowly beating down on me.

Slowly my friends all began to come closer to me, tears on some of their faces, as they all encircled me in a hug. I heard the chocked sobs of my friends but I stood there, frozen into place and without emotion showing. Inside, I was in turmoil but on the outside I seemed emotionless, cold even.

Everything seemed unreal at the moment, as if I was watching a television show that was strongly unrealistic. The world seemed to have ended, in my eyes, because he was dead, and it just seemed so impossible because he was the only one I was convinced would not die, the only one who I literally pleaded to swear to me that would not die and he always keeps his promises, he even told me so.

I scanned the open field still littered with dead hawks and blood, looking for some sign of him still being alive, or at least a body, but none was to be found. I felt a small tug on my jeans, and glanced down at Kyuubi, my bound fox, who was crying softly into her red fur, her brown eyes so heartbroken. It made me want to tell her that he could still be alive but in that tiny shred of common sense I still had, I knew it was too good to be true. People like me, like us, did not get lucky like that.

Then I began to cry along with my friends, all of the foxes crying too. The tears came freely and we knew that it was over for him, he was defiantly dead. We could not deny it, it would only cause us more pain later.

We kept on crying, forming a small puddle of tears around us. Soon we ran out of tears to cry and broke apart from our embrace, drying our eyes. We all kept our gaze focused on the ground, not wanting to look up and begin to cry again. I slowly came to a realization.

"We will not let his death be in vain." I said finally, looking up towards the sky and clenching my tattered and torn tee shirt as a few more tears escaped.

"No, he would not want his to wallow in pity for him, we know Sasuke better." Sakura said somberly, her bound fox Churippu nuzzling her in the side as she said so.

"Nor would Fukushu, we all know how that fox hated pity." Kakashi said with a small smile as all the foxes nodded in agreement with the exception of his fox, Kopi, who slapped him lightly on the leg.

"We live to try and fail; we die to help bring up a point. It is just that in his case, it was a stupid point." I said shortly, huffing slightly over the stupid decision Sasuke ended up making to die in this battle, only one year after we had become bound to our foxes. I got a short laugh from everyone, and the mood instantly changed from sad, heartbroken, and slightly desperate to hope, remembrance, and the will to keep going.

"I guess we should go home." Kyuubi said, her fox voice cracking slightly," The sun is going to start setting soon and I want to start healing wounds as soon as possible so that we can have maximum amount of sleep." I gave a weak hand gesture and we began to move.

Before we truly left the clearing I looked around one more time at the bloody field and knew this place would never be the same, we would never be the same. Sasuke and his fox, Fukushu, meant so much to us. Even though none of us were related, we were all brothers and sisters, even the foxes, and losing one was devastating.

I noticed as I began to walk again that all ten of us were walking in one straight line, shoulder to shoulder, side by side, human by fox and moving in perfect sync. I knew none of us would forget this day and we had all moved on from this way to quickly but I also knew that none of us had truly moved on, we just bottled it up for the moment. All six of us know how to keep our emotions in check, no matter how much despair we are in and in time it would all heal.

I felt like we were shedding old skin, and we had done it in around half an hour. We had never felt loss like this and I still felt it hammering away inside of me, right next to the kick in the side that was still present and hurting. I was working through it and I knew I could do it.

Then I felt another wave of sadness come over me. The pain of losing Sasuke and Fukushu becoming stronger but one thought kept me from crying. 'If we let him die in vain, then we may as well have died with him.' How I got this thought? I was unsure. Would I cling to it like a lifeline so that he really didn't die in vain and so that I can stay sane? Oh hell yes.

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