Today was the 3 week anniversary after we "Dealt with Aizen" and 1 week anniversary of graduation. Yup, nothing says vacation like tossing and turning in bed hoping you might fall asleep. Well I guess I should be happy, at least I am not at work like Ichigo. His dad has been forcing him to bring in money after he graduated. I don't know why but he took a job at an Asylum as a security guard. I mean I understand the security guard part, he is pretty strong after the war, but an asylum? I can't even go near the place because of how creepy it is. I think its getting to Ichigo too. I mean every single night he will wake up at like 2 am, and just drive around in his pickup truck (his dad bought it for him, part of the responsibility thing.) and come back at like 7 am. At first I just let it go because I thought it was from killing Aizen, but I am starting to get worried. I mean he hardly talks to anybody anymore. He is always at work, sleeping or driving to a point where I am at his house more than he is. Yesterday I tried to find him at work which was scary as hell and they said he was in the maximum security wing. That's where the super-psycho's are. The ones from movies like Hannibal. Just from that night I started getting nightmares. I decided to get up and sleep in Ichigo's bed hoping it might be more comfortable. The mattress felt like it was made for gods, put the pillow felt weird. Not uncomfortable but flat out weird. I put my hand in the pillow case and pulled out a black notebook. It was a bit dull for my taste. I like chappy the bunny notebooks. They're much cuter. I opened it up to see if it was from school or work or what. When I started flipping through it I saw it looked like a diary. Usually I would laugh my ass off but I actually got intrigued. Maybe this would tell me what was wrong with Ichigo, I wouldn't even have to have some long awkward talk with him! I flipped it open to the first page and began to read.
Ok I decided to keep a log of the nightmares I've been having in case I forget and need to know what happened.
My body shivered from the incredible cold around me in this icy tunnel. All I wore was my school outfit but no shoes. I don't remember why, or when I came all I know is what is in front of me. The tunnel was pitch black except for a few streaks of light that came pierced the ice, it looked like bullets passing through water. As I walked further it got darker and colder and eventually there was nothing but darkness. I kept slowly inching forward the snow at my bare feet became more numb from what was probably frostbite. I jumped back when a beam of light quickly came through the icy ceiling. The light focused on a sword stabbed into the icy floor that I recognized as zangetsu. I started to creep forward slowly towards zangetsu. Once I was about a foot away from it I pulled my arm up using all my strength and stretched it out towards the hilt of zangetsu. Just before I reached it a hand grabbed my wrist it was pale white and warm. He leaned his face in but I knew who he was before the light shined on it. It was my hollow self or Akuma. "looks like the horse found his way back to the palace hunh king?" he said with a grin on his face. He quickly pulled zangetsu out of the ground and stabbed it through my chest while pushing me backwards. I felt like someone through lava into my chest as the burning took over all feeling in my body. As I fell backwards the ice cracked beneath me
making me fall into a pool of something cold and red.
I quickly realized I was in a pool of blood. I desperately tried to keep myself afloat but my body was so weak. I felt hands creeping up my leg as I started to sink into the pool of blood. I looked around to see silhouettes of ravaged body's missing pieces of or full limbs. Swimming towards me. I felt the hands on me get tighter as I tried to swim upward only to be pulled down further by the increasing number of hands. The light got darker and darker until there was nothing left but the pitch black pool of blood. All I could see was the glowing white eyes around me. They started scratching and biting me, tearing my body open and pulling organs out. I screamed in the water swallowing more blood as I did making my need for air rise more and more. Suddenly my ears popped making me lose hearing. Then I got tired and closed my eyes welcoming death…
This was my first one , I've had about three now. The only thing that really caught my eye was I felt real pain in these. It wasn't a delusion. They felt worse than battle wounds. The presence of him doesn't concern me yet, I think I am just remembering him from previous times but I am not completely sure yet, only time will tell.
I didn't know what to say. I got what I wanted but it still made me… well I guess scared just doesn't quite say it. My head told me to stop reading and give it to his dad but my heart was telling me to continue reading. I decided I would go with the one I always followed, my heart.