A/N: This is real short... Umm...not much to say...I was a bit reluctant in up-loading this. You may see why...in the mean time I'll go hide under a rock and think why the fuck did I write this! And about The Assassin's Temptation, Im working on it, its pretty long, so far I have 6 pages, and Im not even half done. Give me another week or two and I think I'll be able to upload it by then. And Demonic is also at work. And so is 'Underaged' that the first chap is yet to be uploaded, but I'll put that one at hold for a moment when I sort this out, and everythings in order.
The parts with * * is when Natsuki is writting on a notebook or typing something on her computer.
Try to enjoy...err...hehe.
Chapter 1 I Can't Sleep
The only light that was in my thickly dark bedroom, was the glow of my computer screen, It was one in the morning, and I was having a hard time falling asleep. So I went to my computer and started to type the first thing that popped into my head, just to kill time. I really was surprised to see that I wrote the very thing that was keeping me awake.
*Sex.
What are your thoughts on it, when you hear the word sex?
Naturally anyone would think two people getting together, to be more specific, a man and woman.
Thats what anyone would think. Any normal person would think.
But Im not a normal person.
When I hear the word sex, I don't think about a man and woman getting together, no...
I think about sex being a weakness.
Another drug that just temps you into falling within its grasp and never lets you go.
Or better yet, you let yourself fall into its grasp, you hold on to it, and you never let go of it.
Because sex is just another one of man kinds many drugs.
Sex is...
Its a weapon.
Its a weakness.
A pain reliever.
A stress reliever.
A bond.
A release.
A distraction.
Meaningless.
Forbidden.
Corrupting.
Addicting.
Fun.
Easy. (nowadays, I don't know about that one though...)
Pleasureble.
Life.
Lust and love.
Sex is a lot of things.
But what do I know? All I know, is that I know nothing, Socrates once said that, right? I know nothing about it, since I am a vrigin. But that once never bothered me, Im fine with being a virgin, I say it gives me less crazy in my life. Those thoughts were just what I think, key word 'think' Not sure at all what Im talking about but...now...I think deffirently.
When I hear the word sex. It scares me beacause I now no longer think like that anymore.*
I stopped typing in my computer, my thoughts were running all over the place, I ran a hand through my long midnight haire in slight frustration as I continued in my head.
Because when I hear the word sex...I now think about two people getting together, two people of the same sex, two females.
And its all your fault.
When I hear the word sex...
I think about you, Fujino Shizuru.
And whats worse...she's older than me by three years and straight.
Can it get worse? Yes, it can.
She's my brother's best friend, and he asked her to stay the night at our house.
Can it get any more worse? Oh yes, it can. So much more worse.
She's in my room...
Wait...the fuck..?
"S-shizuru? Uhh...wha?" stared wide eyed at her, leaning on the door's frame of my bedroom in such an alarming casual way, she had that innocent smile on her face that just makes my insides melt. And I tried not to ogle her, but can I really help it? She was wearing a violet silk robe, a short one I might add. I was still sitting at my desk infront of my computer, sitting crossed legged on the chair, wearing my green T-shirt that reads 'Green is the new black' and a pair of black boxers.
"Ara, isn't it passed Na-tsu-ki's bed time?" came the tease that caused heat raise in my cheeks. Gods! The way she said my name...my face flushed even more.
"Why...why are you here?" I managed to ask without stuttering.
I may look cool and controled now, but the next words that past through her full lips, it was almost a whisper, but I heard it. The moment she voiced out that alluring Kyoto accent, those words floated through the air and into my lungs, halting my breathing in an instant and my heart rate had come to a stop at the words that she had uttered.
"Ara...I...can't sleep." her crimson eyes were glowing in the dark side of my room.
". . . " Oh shit...
A/N: * crawls out from under a rock* Okay! Who wants to say this was crap! Anyone? Anyone? Somebody? To be honest, I have no freaking idea where Im going with this, I wasn't really thinking when I wrote this. I was plain spaced out one day with my pen in hand, I looked down my notebook and this was what I wrote! So please give me time to think about how to continue this. Sex, really? Yeah, don't hold your breath. My muse had left the building (more like crahsed through the window of the building, commeting suicide...we were on the 45th floor.) and was creeped out when it made me write this.
I don't know! *pulls haire out*
I promise to make it longer next chap. And sorry for any mistakes here.
What do you think? Was it bad? Good? Is it: Ugh...delete this crap! worthy? Better yet, how about a review? Pretty please?