"Why are you sitting here all alone?" A beautiful blond girl sat right next to him.
"I just don't know anyone here!" Kael smiled at her. "Why are you all alone?"
"I'm not, my brother is partying over there with his friends." Eowyn smiled gently.
"How did you know I spoke English?" Kael gazed at her slowly.
"You seemed equally lost as me." Eowyn chuckled. "So what are you doing here?"
"I'm going to study painting." Kael admitted.
"So what's your name?" Eowyn asked with a smile.
"Kael." He introduced himself. "And what's yours?"
"Eowyn." She smiled.
"And people say my name is strange..." Kael laughed.
"Don't even tell me... my brother's name is Eomer..." she gasped with annoyance.
"So what are you studying?" He asked her gently.
"Environmental technology." She winked at him. "My family has been digging in horse shit for generations now, so I'm continuing on the same path."
"And where is home?" Kael asked with a kind smile.
"Believe it or not, but Argentina." She smirked. "My family runs a huge horse farm over there."
"You're pretty far away from home." He added.
"I needed to do something a bit different, and well my uncle agreed for me to stay with Eomer in Paris for a while." Eowyn admitted. "Are you here alone?"
"Yeah I'm all alone." Kael spoke slowly.
"You're not alone anymore." She winked at him and pulled him into the crowd of freshmen partying.
Galadriel the family therapist wasn't at all surprised with the breakdown in the Durin family. Their sessions proved to be challenging, everyone in the family playing a role and hiding things. Both boys deeply troubled. The news of Kili running away and Fili suffering a nervous attack was unexpected. It took her nearly two weeks of sessions with Fili to convince him to start talking again. The boy suffered a tremendous break down, and slowly after weeks of silence and crying, he was as if his own self only less smiling and happy.
Fili began going to school again after a few weeks, he spent time with his old friends, but he also spent time with worried Tauriel. He tried to cope with the loss, but the more Galadriel asked him about his past and about Kili, the more he felt hopeless.
The months dragged slowly, his drive for learning clearly down and his motivation nonexistent. In the end he graduated and applied for university under his uncle's insistence.
The moment he moved and settled in was the moment when he realised he truly screwed up his life. There was no fucking way he could live without Kili. Kili his happiness and his love, his life. Without him nothing meant anything. The money, the social status, his studies, nothing meant anything anymore.
He kept going to counselling, uncle kept visiting with Bilbo. His mother kept calling, the same as Balin his step dad. Ori, uncle's assistant, practically lived with him making sure he ate and went to classes. But it was all pointless.
"So girls are not your type are they?" Eowyn smiled at him as they were sitting at a cafe in front of the University.
"How could you tell?" Kael gazed at her with a smile.
"Just a feeling deep down." Eowyn gazed at him. "My brother thinks you're a heartbreaker." She smiled at gazed at his neatly cut hair, dark sunglasses and classy clothes.
"Nah." Kael smirked.
"It's fun to watch him so worked up because of you." Eowyn chuckled.
"So where is the person you love most in the world and why isn't he here with you?" Eowyn asked suddenly looking at him seriously.
"So where is the person you love most in the world and why isn't he here with you?" Kael repeated the same question with a huge grin.
"He's busy running a huge farm. For him travelling so far away just for the adventure of it is a waste of time." Her smile faded. "I just felt if I stayed there any longer I would choke to death. Life isn't just farms at the end of the world. I wanted to live a bit, to get to know people, see the world..."
"Why do I get the feeling you're not very happy with your choice?" Kael asked knowingly.
"Over there my heart was bleeding for him to notice me, over here my heart is bleeding to see him just one more time." Eowyn gazed at the busy street. "I keep looking at the crowd thinking he might just walk by any minute."
"Were you two together?" Kael asked seriously.
"No, I was just the younger sister of his best friend. After my cousin Theodred died he blamed himself for the accident, and he focused everything on the farm." Eowyn gazed at him sadly.
"So you ran away to Paris to forget about him and find happiness?" Kael asked her sadly.
"So what about you?" Eowyn gazed at him.
"I ran from him..." Kael told her slowly. "I was just a little shit, and I left him there."
"Did he love you?" She asked surprised.
"He did, but he didn't want to come with me." Kael told her slowly. "He chose family and duty just like your guy..."
"Don't you just wish you could call him?" Eowyn gazed at him. "Why don't you go and talk with him?"
"Why don't you?" Kael asked her sadly.
"Let's make a deal, if you go and talk to your boy, I will call my boy." Eowyn extended her hand towards him. Kael looked at her sadly and after a longer moment of hesitation he shook it.
And one day he simply had enough. He gazed at the gloomy sky above St. Andrews, and he gently lifted the knife he got from the kitchen. It was a long sharp kitchen knife, he gently cut his wrist and watched the blood flow lazily from the wound. As he clutched the knife and he wanted to do a deeper cut he heard a vigorous knock on the door. Someone was practically banging against the door.
He stood up and he just wanted to yell at the person at the door to fuck off when he heard a desperate voice.
"Fili open the fucking door!" Fili immediately knew it was Kili.
He rushed and opened the door and saw his brother stand there with a horrified expression.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?!" Kili grabbed the knife and threw it as far away as possible.
"Why are you here?" Fili looked down with tears falling from his eyes.
"I just knew..." Kili quickly grabbed a towel and dressed the wound on Fili's wrist to stop the bleeding. "Remember, when you're sad I'm sad, when you're happy I'm happy..."
Fili sobbed in Kili's arms.
"If you die, I die..." Kili added holding him tightly.
"Where were you?" Fili sobbed desperately.
"I was trying to live without you." Kili whispered.
"Did it work?" Fili continued to cry.
"You tell me... We always feel the same, were the past months good or horrible?" Kili asked in a deadly tone.
"We truly are fucked... They were fucking horrible... I can't live without you..." Fili cried desperately.
"Come with me then." Kili told him.
"Where to?" Fili asked puzzled.
"Anywhere I'm going." Kili smiled. "And currently I'm going to London for the weekend."
"Will you come home?" Fili asked in a low voice.
"I will never come home." Kili told him grimly.
"Kili I can't live like that... Running away from everything and everyone." Fili told him sadly.
Kili gently brought him closer and sealed their lips.
It didn't take them long to tug on each other's clothes, the distance and time making them even more desperate and starving.
Their souls and bodies starved, their lips and flesh demanding the touch. After such a long abstinence the lust between them even stronger and even more thrilling.
Kili had no idea how he managed all those months without doing what Fili was about to do. The distance and silence the most painful thing in his life. Fili his life, Fili his beloved brother, the most special person in the world. The only person in the world for him. Now touching him and kissing him was as if flying in heaven.
"Promise you'll never disappear like that ever again!" Fili urged him to promise.
"I don't want to come back home." Kili told him.
"You don't have to, just stay in touch with me. See me as often as possible, call me, talk to me, be mine..." Fili continued kissing him feverishly.
"I'll never leave you again!" Kili assured him. "The same as you can't live without me, I can't live without you." Kili kissed him deeply again, their bodies collided with force.
"I love you!" Fili gasped as Kili was gently penetrating him and pushing him hard against the bed.
"I love you more..." Kili continued to kiss him.