Disclaimer; I do not own glee I would not come up with a great idea like that
Summary: Post Break-Up/ Pre Thanksgiving. Blaine is caught up over the break up. It is all his fault and Kurt won't even listen to him. Kurt is the only person that has ever listened to him and he can't go on without his anchor. *Self Harm* Spoilers for break-up and on. THANKSGIVING AND UP NEVER HAPPENED
Trigger warning; Suicide and self harm.
Prologue
You thought that you could do anything. You felt that you were on cloud nine. All because one person can change your entire life and make your life change from hell to heaven in one minute. All because one person gave you that attention that you were so desperately begging for without even knowing it.
You didn't know that if he didn't come into your life, you would have cracked. Your mask would have broken and you would be nothing. Once he got there, you didn't need the mask. The mask you have been wearing ever since your old school broke your trust completely and make you trust no one.
You could relate to him. You have never met somebody you could relate to before. He changed your life, and you didn't even know. You didn't realize that you needed him so much, which is why you transferred schools to be with him. You didn't realize that you needed him so much, which is why you took the slushy for him.
You needed him so much. He was your anchor. You will always need him.
He left you all alone. He knew that he was the only one you trusted with all of your heart. He left you all by yourself, slowly going crazy with the loneliness on your shoulders. He promised he would call you, and he kept that promise at first. But then he got the fancy job, met fancy people, and he didn't need you anymore. He met many people he related to. Nobody judged him there, so he didn't need you.
He forgot about you. He forgot that you were still in Lima, that people still judged you everyday. He forgot that you needed him. He forgot that nobody cares what you do. That nobody cares about you.
You were slowly sinking. You didn't know what you were doing. You woke up, ate, went to school, went home, and slept. You fell into a continuous routine. You were slowly going crazy. People still bullied you. Without any glee clubbers there for him, it was worse than ever. You ignored everybody. Refused all solos in glee club. Only spoke to tell people you are fine. They wouldn't care even if you were not.
Then Eli came. Eli complimented you. Eli knew exactly what to say to make you feel better than you have since he left. Eli told you to go over.
You made the biggest mistake of your life. You couldn't deal with yourself. You were a monster. So you told him. You went to New York, and told him. He hated you. He ignored you. He hated you. So you started to hate yourself.
You believed you didn't need to live, that you had to torture yourself. You didn't need food, or sleep. You never smiled. You didn't need anything. All you needed was him. And he wasn't there. He hated you
Your grades fell massively. It didn't matter, however. Nothing mattered anymore. He hated you. You didn't want to do the school play. You couldn't. You did, however, as the teen angel. You didn't like it. You spent all your time backstage, only going on to practice your one scene. Then you went home and cried.
Eventually you stopped crying. You ran out of tears. You lost the light in your eyes when you lost him. He hated you.
You saw him in the audience. You could see all over his face that he hates you. You can't keep your eyes off him.
He saw you after the show. He didn't want to listen. He didn't trust you, is what he said. You could tell all it meant was He hated you.
You stopped calling him to apologize. You didn't have the energy to. You skipped school many times. You stopped floating from your anchor. You started sinking.
You don't know exactly when or why you came to the conclusion you shouldn't be here. You just know that you made up your mind.
You called him one last time to apologize for everything. You just can't take it anymore. You are weak. You need him but he isn't there. He will never be there. He hated you.
You finish it, get it over with, because nobody will find you for at least a week. As you sink deeper and deeper, all you can hear is a faint buzzing. You aren't sure what it is, but look up to see your phone lighting up. It blurrily reads his name. You mutter what you are positive will be your last words.
"Im sorry Kurt"
So. This is sad. It will be a chaptered story, starting from after Blaine reveals he cheated. So it will go back in time to when he was sad, but want yet depressed.
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