This is originally a work of my classmate. I read it and it perfectly went with a FEMnaru fanfic I had in mind. I have added some and deleted some words. CIRIS, thank you very much for letting me work on this!!! And by the way, I'm really sorry for not updating Fox Trait yet! It's driving me to the edge of a cliff from all the ideas exploding in my mindscape. -Shinkei Kajuen-
Why him? Why not someone else? These questions remained in her mind as the minutes passed. Serene and peaceful is all she is if you look, but beneath it is a turbulent storm that chills her to the bone, weakens her grip for sanity and brings rains of tears to flood her very soul.
She knew from the beginning that all she had was her love for that person, and no more. She couldn't also blame him for the ordinary and plain girl she is that caused his disinterest, as she had thought. All throughout she tried her best to make him see her differently, someone who could make him feel the way she feels for him. He never did, or moreover, he never could.
There was a distance between them that could never be filled. He was one, she was another, only ill-fated stars wished her to fall for the very person who is her polar opposite. One thing worse than that is she loves him so much, she wishes she never did. He was her strength as well as her weakness. What else could happen when he was her everything but everything was over, right from the start.
Outside, it might never show. She hid her scars well and wore her mask as if there wasn't any. But inside, all alone, all of the feelings begin to explode, frustration, sadness, anger, a mixture of every feeling clamoring for release at the depth of her core. She wanted to scream but also to cry, to smile but also to hurt, for all the reason she chose to love him to destruction.
It might have been three years since it all began, from that accidental kiss, but to her it was an eternity of expecting, believing and hoping. At first, she had all the excuse for all aversions, then she ignored the pain she feels, until it came to a point that she had all but let go of the single hope she could create. The notion "What if?" still hangs and acts as the anchor that sinks her deeper into what most of us call stupidity, and technically insanity. All those time she was torn between pretensions and tears. She wanted to stop, her mind was ready, but her heart was nowhere to be found, shattered, broken beyond repair.
Now she had realized she was beyond the border, left with nothing to hold on. She called and tried to compose her maimed self, recalled all tart memories, emptied her heart from everything but still wasn't enough. The question was answered but the solution was not right. She still continues to watch him from afar, smiles at each mention of his name and feels the same, if not greater, for him.
She was still trapped in that unrequited love but someday, somehow, someone will bring her back, rescue her from all the pain she had caused herself. But until that day, she will still continue to endure all the hurt he did, even without meaning to. There was nothing left to do but wait for that fateful day it was her turn to be loved in return.
Aaaah! At last it's finished! Sorry if Naruto is kind of OOC here...